COVINSKY | tatbilb (updating)

look at me like you're in love (au) | 3

His life is going to become more and more public after the multiple projects he has lined up. That's why I wanted to be a photographer, I was so used to being invisible and I'm hiding behind the camera when I take photos.

My little bubble is going to get popped if I ever decided to date Peter.

"Hey Peter, I'm just gonna go!" I said over the girls who are talking over each other.

He gets away just in time to catch up to my pace. "Aren't we going out?"

We round the corner and suddenly more people are following him. "Peter, I think I can't date you. Look, you're going to California soon anyway. The photoshoot was a job I had to do."

"But—"

"I have to go." I say leaving him alone with his fans.

     Like always, Peter kept his promise and stayed away from me. I look over the happy photos I took of Peter and almost delete them to get rid of the memories in the last few weeks, but I couldn't.

"It's here!" I hear a scream coming from outside my office door. Jade walks inside with two guys holding a huge canvas. She points to the corner of the room, "You guys can place it right here."

I walk over when Jade and I are left alone. "What is this?"

"I think you should do the honors and open it." She gives me a mischievous smile. Now I know why I hired Jade, she was someone close to home because she reminded me of Kitty. A lot.

When I stand next to the canvas, I tear it right in the middle to see a face that looks all too familiar. I continue until all the canvas is uncovered to reveal Peter's GQ cover.

"Lara Jean, it looks amazing. He's going to be even more famous when this cover releases. " Jade says and continues, "Anyway, I'll go ahead and see the guys out."

I give Jade a weak smile before she leaves me alone. My fingers glide over the canvas and a frown appears on my lips.

Even though GQ picked one of the many serious photos of Peter, there's something about his eyes. His eyes give out something bright, like what I saw whenever we looked into each other.

But like what Jade said, after this cover is released, Peter's going to be untouchable and all for the public to eye on. I don't know where I would even fit in the middle of his celebrity life.

Maybe Peter and I were supposed to remain friends, just like all those years when we were classmates. Peter Kavinsky as the popular and Lara Jean as the invisible girl.

     The month after we finished the photoshoot, the photos were released on social media and Peter got so much praise from how beautiful the photos looked.

"Lara Jean, I can't believe you're in love with Peter." Kitty says at the dinner table.

I glare at Kitty from across the table before I hear our Dad clear his throat, "Peter? Why haven't we seen him, Lara Jean?"

I eat the last of my mash potatoes before answering, "I don't have a boyfriend, Daddy. Kitty's making up stories."

"Is it Peter Kavinsky?" Daddy ask while he earns a death glare from Trina. "I know about it, Lara Jean. I got to support my daughter in whoever she photographs these days." No words were spoken after what Daddy said.

When dinner finishes, I enter my room to go to my closet and find the teal blue box that holds all of my secrets. I reach up to get it before I take a seat inside my closet. I open it slowly to find my love letter for Peter at the top.