Back by spring // Snufkin x Reader

I sat up and yawned. I rubbed my eyes to see that the sun was trying to blind me through my tent. I got up and went to the river to wash my hair. I quickly washed it and rubbed it with my towel Moominmama gave me a few years back. I sighed and walked over to a big rock next to a river I found and slipped my harmonica out of my pockets. I softly closed my eyes and took and deep breath as I placed the instrument against my lips. As the music filled my ears I noticed that the tune seemed sadder than usual. I don't know what was wrong with me, I felt lonely alone and away from my friends. Normally I felt free, at peace. But right now I felt troubled, I felt like I didn't belong here, and with someone else. I wasn't sure who's presence I was longing but I knew for sure I wanted to be with that person. I shook it off and placed my harmonica in my pocket, and placed my hat back on my head as my hair had now dried.

- Third persons POV -

You sat up and rubbed your eyes and changed, and walked out of my tent. You walked down to the river and quickly washed my face with the freezing water to make myself up. You sighed to yourself. You now had people to miss. Before you had no one, but now you had friends. You felt lonely. But that didn't matter, you needed to get a move on. So you packed up your things and your tent and started off towards south

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It felt like you had been walking for days, when in reality you had been walking for six hours with breaks
in-between. You had lazily found a river and set your tent up by it a few feet away and grabbed your fishing rod. You propped it up against two rocks and let it sit there, waiting till a fish bites.

By now it had been about half an House and you had caught three fish. You decided that was good and you took your fishing rod and bucket to your tent. You rested the fishing rod against your tent and you set the bucket a few feet away were you decided it would be a good place to make a fire. You started a fire and set a log you found in the woods while looking for sticks and set it next to the fire for you to sit on. As you cooked your fish you had started to feel sick. Like not sick like a cold, but sick like a feeling, if that makes sense. You sighed and finished cooking, and started to eat.

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It didn't take you long to finish and you blew out your fire. You walked into your tent and flopped down onto the bed. You had felt drained of energy.

You stirred and rubbed your eyes. You felt exhausted. You felt more than just excused though. You felt worthless, discouraged. You didn't have an appetite like you usually do so you just didn't eat. Awful memories had started coming around to you this morning while you were walking south. You weren't sure why everything was weighing down on you now but maybe it was because this was the first time you were lonely in..
You guessed you had been with the Moomin's for about a month.
Every step you took you felt the life drain out of you bit by but. But you ignored it and carried on.
You set up your tent and set up a fire for when it gets dark and you want to light it. You had to camp here, there was no way you could've kept on walking while being stable. You threw your bad lazily in your tent and you started off to towards the woods to find some berries. You hadn't had an appetite today which made you even more worried but you still collected them knowing you should eat to keep you healthy. You headed back to cameo and sat down the grass next to the river you camped by. You took the berries out of the bag and started to eat. It seemed to have not been the same since you last had these berries. Before, they were juicy and flavourful. Now it had seemed to lose a bit of it's flavour.
You sighed, something was wrong with you and it felt familiar, but you couldn't place a finger on it. You sighed and looked up at the sky. It had started to get dark and you felt exhausted. You took this opportunity to sleep and flopped into your tent. You wrapped yourself in the blanket and closed your eyes, waiting for sleep to overcome you. Even though you felt so tired, you couldn't sleep. Even when you did fall asleep you would have a nightmare, or would see something that scarred you.