don't smile at me

I'm sorry.

We sit across each other in an empty room. I want to be alone. Alone with you, does that make sense? I want you all to myself, to steal your soul. I want to hide you in my treasure chest so I don't have to share you with the world. I've tied you up with a ball and chain. I've gagged you and tied your hands together. Your eyes are watery and I understand you but I need you to understand me. It's not like me to be so mean you're all I wanted, just let me hold you. Let me see you. Let me breathe you. Let me crawl in your veins. Let me feel everything you feel. Let me exist in the same space as you. Let me love you. Let me take care of you. Let me be you.

I love you. I hope that's clear. This is an act of love. You love me right? I want us to be together again. We were both so happy when we were together. When we broke up my world shattered. You and I are meant to be. I don't know what to do or what to be without you. The world did not feel true without you. I felt like nothing as if the world had come to an end without you. Nothing at all made sense but we make sense. Everything comes together when we're together. Real love hurts but nothing hurts when I'm alone. Nothing hurts when you are here with me and we are alone.

I did not know what to do, to do with your kiss on my neck. With the feeling of your hands all over me. The feeling of your kiss on my neck. The feeling of you inside me. The feeling of our hands together. The feeling of our tongues tied. I know that you want that.

I get closer and you flinch. I take your hand and examine it like I always did. I examine its patterns, your veins, its size and its colour. I stare at the gold on your finger and I begin to slowly remove it. You don't need that anymore. That's now your past and we can now resume where we left off. I smell your scent, still hasn't changed. I look at the shirt you are wearing. I remember it from our ride to your moms. She didn't like me but we don't need other people's approval. I see your gold chain shine through the moonlight. I don't know why but I always found it so sexy. I sit on you and hug you. I just want to hold you forever, like a hostage. Because I love you more than anyone ever will.