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"i-... - she started but soon realized she had nothing to say. she couldnt' argue with his logics. 

boki looked into his eyes, feeling her heart hurting in that moment. what was she supposed to say after this? 

"i- i think we should- ... take a break." his eyes widened in shock, he leaned backwards as he stared at her in disbelief.

"what?"she didn't know what to say after that. why did that leave her mouth? she wasn't surely thinking about taking a break from him, she liked him, she was compeltely heels over head for him. but he wasn't who she thought he was.

he had dark ways and she didn't know if she was ready to deal with it. 

the best solution, at least for now, was to take a break. in her mind, that was the best outcome. that way, both of them could think long and enough about the situation.

"why you want to take a break? is it because of - realization hit him, as he turned to glare at jooheon, who was serving the food to some customers. he returned his eyes to boki, now filled with burning flames - because of him?"her eyes widened as she quickly shook her head. 

"of course not! i like you... and only you." his eyes softened for a second as he leaned back forward, towards her. "then what is it?" his voice was almost begging her to reconsider, and boki was weak to kihyun's charms. she quickly felt her knees growing weak when having the boy almost begging at her feet.

"i don't know- it's just- she said standing from the table suddenly. he looked at her confused so as some of the people around. soon she realized she was causing a scene. 

"can we go outside and talk better?" she added quickly, trying to avoid a scene in her mother's restaurant. kihyun nodded with a shocked face and quickly followed her out of the restaurant and towards the street. 

boki walked to his car and motioned him to open it. it was better to talk inside the car, away from the curious ears and eyes. "what is it? you're scaring me boki." his voice echoed inside the car. 

she looked down at her hands, nervous. right then, after his words, she worried. she didn't want him to think she was breaking up with him but based on how scared his face looked, she knew that was exactly what he was thinking. 

she grabbed his hands and looked him in the eye with desperate eyes too. "no. please... don't think bad. i am not breaking up with you, i don't want us to break-

"then what is it?"she bit her lip as she try to come up with a nice way of saying it. she knew he wasn't saint and after he confessed everything the first time, she was unsure of everything. 

she gave him an opportunity to change but apparently either is too soon or he didn't understand what she meant.

"i'll tell you the truth."

"please." he said squeezing her hands. right now he seemed scared of what she was about to say. 

"when... you said those things to me, about jooheon... - he almost rolled his eyes - no listen, i know you don't want to talk about him, but beyond being your step brother, he's a human being and i don't approve your behavior towards him or any other person for the matter... don't you understand?"

"understand what?" he now seemed a bit defiant and definitely alien of what boki was talking about. 

she swallowed hard. "what you're doing is wrong. you can't feel this way towards him or anybody."

"what?" he seemed confused. nobody told him how to feel towards others, and now boki wondered if besides her, someone knew about the things he'd been doing to jooheon.