Orphans (Dreamcatcher +Fem Reader / Suayeon / Jiyoo)

With her I always felt that I could be completely me.

I could let all my walls down and be imperfect without being judged.

I didn't have to pretend that I was strong and that I was okay all the time, she always understood me no matter what, she had my back and I had hers.

After all she was my best friend and I was hers.

That was all she would ever be to me, nothing more.

But how I felt about her keep bothering me, I just felt some weird way each time I was with her, each time I thought of her.

It wasn't love not like that, we can only love a boy we can't love another girl, everyone knew that.

I wasn't in love with her, I just couldn't, it's not right.

It must just be admiration, other girls probably feel that way too about other girls, they admired them.

I wonder if Siyeon felt that way too about me, if she admired me too like I did.

"Bora, is there something bothering you? You look uneasy about something." She look at me in the eyes.

"It's nothing, it's stupid." I whispered. She was so close to me that I could feel her breath against my lips.

"Is it thought? You know you can trust me, I will always be there for you no matter what, even for dumb things."

"I just..." I take a deep breath before continuing my sentence, my hands start trembling a little bit. "I just feel so lost." she stayed silent and took my hand in hers "I just don't know what is love and what isn't, what is wrong and what is right." She sat up and patted the spot next to her so I could sit. I sat next to her and she gently hugged me. "Do you think you're in love with someone?"

"I don't know. Feeling are just so confusing. I don't know whether I'm in love or I just admire this person." I sighed, she looked like she was deep in her thought.

"Could you maybe describe how you feel when you're with that person."

How did i feel?

Before I could think more about it, words came out of my mouth before I could process them.

"I feel as if I had a whole zoo in my stomach whenever I see them, my heart start beating really fast that it look like it's about to burst, my hand get sweaty whenever they get closer to me, I forget how to talk when they are around and I blush each time they talk about me." when I finished my sentence. I realised what I just said and I quickly covered my mouth in shock.

"I diagnose you of love. The symptoms are pretty clear that you're in fact in love my friend."She laughed and then she looked down.

I for my part couldn't process it. I'm in love, all this time deep down part of my consciousness knew that but I was in denial.

"Could I know who he is at least?" she said looking back at me.

"I'm only telling you that that person's name start with a S. That's all I'm telling you"

"Oh, come on how am I supposed to guess who it is?" she complained pouting.

"Enough talking about me. Let's talk about your love life." She blushed and tried to look elsewhere than my eyes.

"I...um..There's someone special but they don't love me, they love someone else."

What?! Someone rejected her?! Like what kind of dumbass would reject her, she's just perfect.

"Than they must be stupid, who wouldn't want to date you. You are like perfect."

"Even you?"

"Even me?" I looked at her confused about her question.

"You would date?" she asked nervously.

"Siyeon...you are a girl. Homosexuality is a sin" I said.

"How do we really know that it is a sin? I mean if it's love it can't be bad, right?" She said.

I looked at her shocked about what she just said. I know love is not bad but that's not love that's just something else. Or maybe it's?

Had she become crazy? Or was I the crazy one all this time? I don't even know anymore.

I mean after all I was the one here who was in love with a girl but it didn't felt like I was being possessed by some kind of demon, somehow it felt right.

Maybe I'm the one who is wrong.

"Bora, I know you might not agree with it but all I need right now is you to listen to me, Okay?" I looked at her and I nodded.

"I'm in love with girl." My brain stopped working and I froze in place.

"But I'm not a bad person, you know. I didn't mean it, I didn't mean to fall in love with her, okay. It just happened but I'm sure I'm not possessed, I'm the same as before that. Please don't leave me." Her voice cracked and she broke down in tears.

I immediately went to her and took her in my arms.

I caressed her hair slowly, to let her know that I was here.

"I felt...so lonely th..those last month, with no one to tu..turn to, with no o..one to talk to." she said sobbing.

"It's okay, I'm here now."

I pulled away from the hug and I started to wipe her tears from her cheeks and the corner of her eyes.

Slowly she calm down and she started to breathe normally again.

"Siyeon, I have thought about it and I don't really care anymore if it's a sin or not. You're my best friend and I won't leave you just because you're in love with a girl. That's just ridiculous." I said.

I noticed that she wasn't paying attention to what I just said. She looked like she was elsewhere.

Oh my god! Is she biting her lips? Or am I officially becoming crazy?

Why is she looking at my lips? I looked down at her lips, too.

They looked so delicious, I want to test them.

No what am I thinking of she doesn't like me.

"I'm sorry, I didn't listen to what you last-"

Before she could finish her sentence, our lips met.

But I quickly pulled away seeing that she wasn't reciprocating the kiss.

Why did I do that, why do I always have to follow my impulse. Now she will probably never want to be my friend again.

I looked up to see Siyeon surprised covering her mouth.

"I'm sor-"

Before I could finish my sentence, she pulled me back to her and our lips met again.

At first it was just sweet kisses until it became more intense and passionate.

The next thing we were fighting for dominance but I quickly gave up, what was the point to fight anyway.

Our tongue started to explore each other mouth, her hand slid under my shirt caressing my stomach.

We pulled away a moment to catch our breath.

Suddenly a sound coming from the door made us stop again.

We looked at the door and the sound sounded again but much louder than before.

Someone was knocking.

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