feelings. ? ( idol producer )

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fifty one.
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ㅤthe finalist trainees then all walked out, again in their uniforms from the beginning. they sang 'forever', a slow and emotional song that expressed the feelings of the trainees at that moment. a small tear escaped my right eye as i listened to them sing, but i wiped it off as quickly as possible and promised myself i wouldn't cry until the end.

ㅤbut that couldn't happen. after that, the trainees went backstage again and yixing asked some of the trainees who had been eliminated during the previous episodes to speak. later, they played some videos of the trainees they had recorded during that week. they had put them in a room and played very emotional videos of their family. it was at that moment when i cried again after hearing the words of their parents and seeing them cry. jieqiong also cried a little bit and we both started laughing when we saw each other.

ㅤhowever, the tears disappeared as soon as, five minutes after the end of the video, yixing stood on the other side of the walkway, in front of the top nine seats, and the finalist trainees at the beginning of the walkway to wait to be called. there was no longer a single tear on my face and i had started to get very nervous. so much so that my legs had started to shake and i had to put a hand on them to make them stop.

ㅤ"now, the name list of nine percent is in my hand" yixing said. "who are you looking forward to the most?"

ㅤthe cameras focused on the trainees one by one, showing them on the big screens.

ㅤ"all of them" i whispered.

ㅤ"just like always, i'll announce from the eight" yixing spoke again. "i would like to state that the publishing of the final ranking starts now. the last one of the nine, the ninth trainee, will be revealed at the end. now, i'll reveal first the eight trainee" he took a deep breath before continuing. "he got 7.865.601 votes from the citizen producers in total" he explained. "he makes people feel distant, he looks fierce but he is casual in fact"

ㅤ"it could be bu fan" jieqiong whispered to me.

ㅤ"i don't think so" i told her, not totally sure about it.

ㅤ"he's happy and true. who is him?" yixing asked. "congratulations to..." he looked at the trainees before continuing, making me even more nervous. "xiao gui from gramarie!" he exclaimed.

ㅤxiao gui raised his arm enthusiastically and we all stood up to applaud. i was quite happy to see him make his debut. he really deserved it. he was a very good boy.

ㅤxiao gui walked down the walkway as he happily waved his arms and bowed to the fans and mentors, until he arrived in front of yixing. he handed him the microphone after xiao gui bowed again. he stood on the middle to give his speech.

ㅤat first he just sighed, probably not yet able to assimilate all that, but then he grabbed the microphone and spoke. "it's so fast" he said. "this four months have passed like a blink. i have never imagined that i can keep standing on the stage"

ㅤ"oh, shut up!" i exclaimed even though he couldn't hear me. "you deserve it"

ㅤ"there are a lot of people i have to thank" xiao gui continued. "i want to thank my family, my parents and my friends. thank all the citizen producers and pd" he added, bowing to him. "i'm really... a little..." he hesitated. "i'm very nervous now. i want to say that i will keep working and bring the happiness to everyone. i'll keep on being myself. thank you all" he finished the speech bowing once again.

ㅤ"thank you, xiao gui" yixing said then. "i hope you can turn on your charm on the stage as your will. now please take your seat" he invited him, pointing to the seat with the eight number. xiao gui gave yixing the microphone back and went up the stairs to sit down on the seat.