Books & a Baller

Cara

I'd spent a sleepless night, staring up at the ceiling as Nathan slept soundlessly next to me. I was thrilled for Lottie that Gary had come back, she deserved a chance to find someone here, and after Kassam hadn't been saved after Casa Amor, she had told me she was starting to doubt anyone would come in for her. It felt amazing to see her so happy last night. But what didn't feel amazing, was Priya.

She had apologised to me about going after Noah, when we had been in Casa Amor, and she even stuck with him when we came back to make sure he wasn't at risk of being single and going home, so that he would be here for me. But seeing her dance on him like that last night, it made me doubt her intentions. Had she really meant it when she apologised? Or was that just some game she was playing? Did she really stick with him for me, or was it for her own selfish reasons? The song choice, the outfit she had on, the fucking whip? All of that played on Noah's Dom side, she was clearly back to have a crack at him, was it because I was with Nathan? Did she think me giving things a try with Nathan meant I was done with Noah?

After last night, and how much I been turned on by both of them, I had no idea where my head was at, but I hadn't closed the door on Noah. I knew I had to make a decision soon, there was bound to be a recoupling coming up now that Priya and Gary were back, the only question was how long did I have to make up my mind?

I sat up, just as the sun had started to peak through the sheer curtains, I gave up on trying to get any sleep, and tossed the covers over onto Nathan and crawled out of bed. I needed to clear my head, and figured since I'd been so slack on my swimming since after Casa, that this morning seemed like the perfect time for a dip. I changed into a red one piece and headed downstairs.
As I walked past the day beds, I barely even noticed the man sized shape curled up under the sheets.

I dove into the cool water and started swimming, loving the feeling of being able to glide through the water, almost effortlessly. My mind shut off, and the only thing I was thinking of was the blue tiles ahead of me as I pulled myself through the water, lap after lap. I was so focused, and so in the zone that I hadn't even noticed the pair of dark muscular legs that were dangling over the edge of the pool, until I finally came up for air, clinging to the end of the pool, struggling to catch my breath.

"Morning." I yelped, in fright, as I practically jumped out of my skin.
 
"Fuck. Noah! You scared the shit out of me!"

"Sorry!" He laughed. "I didn't mean to, I thought you would've seen me."

I shook my head at him. "I wouldn't have noticed if a bomb had gone off."

"Like the one last night?"

"The one who goes by the name of Priya? Yep, just like that one."

All he did was shrug, did he enjoy her coming back? Had he liked it to have her dancing all over him, was I not enough?

"She deserves a chance in here, Car."

"She doesn't."

"I thought you two made up before she went home? Or did you just not like it to see me enjoying being with someone else."

I glared at him, and before I had a chance to respond he spoke again.

"You were jealous, weren't you? How do you think I've felt the past few days? Seeing that fucking, yank with his hands all over you, his hands, all over what's mine?" I was shocked at this sudden change in the conversation, he was laughing at me just seconds ago, and now his tone was firm, but I could hear something else in his voice. Fear? Pain?

"I'm not yours Noah, I'm not an object that just belongs to you."

"You chose me, remember? You said those words to me." Fear. I could hear it, he was scared, but of what?