Opposite attracts - Lashton | COMPLETED

  Three weeks has passed since I last saw Ashton. He and I have been trying our best to maintain our relationship despite the distance that separates us. I say trying because it's not as easy as it seems. And not being in the same timezone makes it harder.  

They say the calls, text messages or skyping sessions can make it more bearable but nothing equals being with your loved one. Nothing. 

I've been having a good time with Charles and the rest of the team here in Los Angeles, recording my first album. I'm really grateful for having Charles as manager because not all of them let their young star write their own song and music. Of course, I didn't wrote this album all by myself, I've had a few helpers and collaborators here and there but the overall is my ideas. 

My music video for Disconnected has been released and it made the single's and EP's sales grow like impossible. Talking about the music video, people have been asking about that girl - Selene - and if she and I are dating. Wow. People makes rumors with nothing these days. She's an actress who's been selected for this music video. It was strictly professional. 

I'm starting my tour in two days and I'm very nervous. It's not a headline tour - not yet, my career just started - but I'm opening for another artist. I've played gigs before but never an arena show. This is big. 

We're leaving tomorrow first thing in the morning to head to the first city I'll be playing in. I'll have lots of soundchecks to do and scene placement to make everything as perfect as possible for my first show.

I'm not doing a whole tour with the person I'm opening for, just a couple to replace their main first act till they comes back from Europe. 

''Is your stuff packed for tomorrow?'' asked Charles from my bedroom doorway. 

I nodded. ''Yep. Unpacking is not my thing so everything's still in my suitcase,'' I explained.

''Good. We don't want to be late and miss our flight tomorrow, it's the only one available.'' That's nice to know, thanks for putting more pressure on me.. ''Nervous?'' 

''A little.'' 

''You'll do great.'' He paused about to leave but turned around, facing me. ''And if you screw up, forget about it, tomorrow's always a new day.''

I love how positive Charles is. Whatever happens, he always see the positive side of things. How is he always happy? Doesn't he have bad days? 

The man left, leaving me alone with my tour diary. I bought this leather journal while I was at the airport the other day and decided to make it my tour diary. I take this little notebook everywhere I go along with a Polaroid camera and make sure to capture every memories I feel are important to me or simply something I want to show someone whether it's my friends or boyfriend. 

I not only stick pictures but write notes under the pictures I take and some lyrics here and there who were inspired by a precise moment. For the moment, there's only a couple pages that are fulfilled but as I travel, the pages will quickly get filled up with amazing memories just like parents do with baby albums. 

As I lay on my bed, I took my phone and took a second to message Ashton of my out and about.

To: Ashton

Tour starting in two days, leaving tomorrow early

I put my phone down on the comforter and taking my notebook back, continuing to write under the latest picture I inserted. It was a picture with Alex from All Time Low. I went to their show last night in L.A. and we hung out backstage after the show. We had lots of fun. Did I sad we wrote a song together? Well, we did. It's was awesome writing with the ATL lads. They're fun guys. Such a good memory.