One 'Hidden Secret' in the Palace

Chapter 92

" I am sorry, please. I have not done this intentionally, please believe me, it is all due to my habit. But I will not take it from now on. I promise you. I did not know how I did it, everything has happened due to my daily habit. "she was apologizing.

" You have adopted this habit yourself, nor have I ever told you, it was your decision not mine. I didn't even expect forgiveness or love from you, because I knew I wouldn't get it. But I really expected a child from you. May not even ask for this from you, agar hum aapse pyar nahi karte to, what would I do now, I am in love with you, and will never be able to love anyone else. I wanted a child from you because I never got the love of my father, which I did not get in childhood, through this I wanted to give that child all the happiness and father's love. I wanted to live my lost childhood again, I wanted to dream with his eyes." His heart was bleeding with thousands cuts.

Nandini was crying, she was feeling so guilty, her small mistake had again ruined everything. She was telling him the truth but he didn't want to believe on her, may be he was also right on his place.

" Nandini, it is not about time and age, but I know that you have not taken this decision by heart, you have taken it only because of me. I am a burden to you, Aman, Rosy Aunty and that two doctors have made you my addiction. Sirf hume sharaab ( Alcohol ) aur iss jaanlewa bimari ( disease) se door rakhne ke liyein. " He was completely broke down.

" Yuvraj please." She can't see him like this.

" Fine, I respect your decision, If you cannot give me a child, then what happened, but Kabir can become a father, I will accept his child as my child, I knew this was going to happen. That is why I am with him. His baby is not only important for him but for me too. You don't need to worry about anything, and don't stop to take this pills because now I don't want anything from you. His child is enough for me. Now you wait two years, or a whole life, I have nothing to do with this, there will be no debate on this topic. " He declared.

" Please don't say this, I.. I want to tell you something about Ranasa and... " But he put his finger on her lips, she scared.

" I don't want to listened your lie again, Now I want only Kabir's child. And please let me concentrate on it. " He was angry on her.

She was trying to tell him about Kabir and Vartika's surrogacy thing, but he was not interested in her, he thought that she broke his trust.

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Kabir and Vartika return to Udaipur, where Manik had accepted that he will never be a father, Life was going on as usual, the search for a surrogate was still going on in secret, but not everything seemed as complicated as before, He was angry with Nandini at first, but not now, he did not want to force her for anything, it seemed to him, that all her life according to him she has lived, but never complained about it, she never gave any importance to her choice, so if not being a mother is her choice then now he wanted to respect and accept it.

They still had physical relationship, she still used to have pills, but now he did not say anything, but Nandini now took care to that now she never used to take pills in front of him, she knew that this would make him sad.

Everything seemed normal, but her mind was not calm anymore, she was remembering Manik's words again and again, the child's thing was not going through her mind. It was stuck in her mind.

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" Yuvaraj, I.. I can't see you like this, I can not see that you are getting upset because of me, Bachpan se lekar aajtak maine sirf wahi kiya hain jo aapne chaha. It was my fault that the first time I went against your will, in my entire life I never said no to you, and the first time I said no, and it hurt you. I am sorry Yuvaraj, because of me you are hurt. It is all yours, all this only belongs to you, if my body cannot be mine, it is your right, your possession, then who am I to keep you away from your child. " She POV.