Abe left a little later and said that he would be bringing the jewelry for both Roza and Zoya with him when he came back.
'My God, this day had taken such a devastating turn sooo quickly. And all because some psychotic zhopa royal wanted to hurt my sestra for a bunch of bred sivoy kebaya that was out of her yeblya control. The crazy ublyudok!!!' Was the very next thought that passed through my mind. (ass, sister, bullshit, fucking, bastard)
(DPOV)
I fell asleep holing Roza moya that day. When I woke up the next morning Roza was having a nightmare. (my)
"Roza, detka wake up." I gently shook her, and I had to keep doing that for several minutes before she finally woke up. (baby)
Once she was fully awake and finally calmed down, I asked her, "do you want to tell me what you were dreaming about?"
"We were attacked by a large group of strigoi, and you were turned. I tried to protect you but there were just soooo damn many of them." She started sobbing and she continued to sob and sob and sob.
It took over half an hour for me to calm her down and for her to get herself back under control. And when she did, she stood up and walked away from me.
Without looking at me she said, "Dimitri, I want you to take Tasha's offer. I want you as far away from me as possible and I don't want you to ever come back."
'Has she lost her mat' blya mind?!!!' I asked myself. (mother fucking)
"Roza..."
She turned back to face me.
"No. I have changed my mind; I don't love you like I thought I did." I heard her voice crack when she told me that lie. I also quickly and easily noticed that she was looking past me and at the wall behind me when she said it.
"So please, when we get back to the academy just pack your things and go."
She turned away from me again. But because of the way that she turned and the position of the mirror on my dresser, I could still see her face. And thanks to that, I could see that she was trying, with everything in her, not to cry.
She was actually biting her lip and squeezing her eyes shut trying to stop her tears from falling. But I could see her shoulders and her tightly clenched fists shaking and her bottom lip quivering.
'Crazy woman. Did she really think that I didn't know what she was doing? That I didn't know that she was trying her best to put distance between us. Physical, emotional, and mental distance between us just to protect me.' I thought to myself.
Silly woman, silly silly woman, like that would have ever worked. I mean if I hadn't been absolutely sure of how she feels about me it might have worked. But I don't really think that it would have because I knew her too well for that to happen. I am too secure in our love for each other. I got up out of bed, walked over to her, grabbed her by her hips and spun her around to face me. But by now her tears had already fallen.
"What are you going to do Roza, push everyone that loves you away just to try to keep us all safe? Are you going to live your life alone for the rest of your life?"
Looking at my chest she started shaking her head and said, "Dimitri, I don't lo..."
"Yes, you do. Detka I can see it in your eyes and the tears on your cheeks. You love me just as much today as you did yesterday, and the day before that and the day before that and the week before that and the month before that. I am not stupid dorogaya moya, I know exactly what you are doing or what you are trying to do anyway." (baby, my darling)
"No..."
I crashed my lips into hers proving to her, right then and right there, that I knew that she still loved me. I hadn't even been kissing her for three tenths of a second before I was wrapped fiercely in her arms. And held against her with those arms that were like twin bands of steel. We kissed for as long as we could before having to breathe again.
I pulled away and looked into her eyes. "Now try to tell me honestly that you don't love me. Look me in my eyes and tell me that you don't really love me. Tell me that all you feel for me is lust." I panted out after that world altering kiss.
I knew for a fact that she couldn't look me in the eyes and lie to me, she had never been able to do that. Not even in the very beginning.
She looked into my eyes and said, "I... I... I don..." She quickly turned her eyes away, to keep from looking into my eyes, and looked at the bridge of my nose instead.
"I don't love you."
I smiled because I knew that she couldn't look into my eyes and lie to me.
I laughed. "Roza lyubov' moya, you have never been able to look me in the eyes and lie to me before. Not even from the very first day that we met have you ever been able to do that. So why in the world did you even bother to try it now dorogaya moya?" (my love, my darling)
She looked back into my eyes as even more of her tears began rolling down her face. "I need you safe Comrade. I can deal with anything that I have to, just as long as I know that you are safe, healthy, and happy."
"I. Am. Not. Leaving. You. Not now, not ever, not for any reason whatsoever Roza moya. Not yeblya ever lyubov' moya." (fucking, my love)
She tried to interrupt me, but I refused to allow her to. Laying a finger over her lips I asked her a serious question. "Do you honestly think that if I were away from you that I could ever really be happy ever again?"
"But you would be safe." That is where her voice broke completely.
"That is what I want, I want you safe and healthy." She almost sobbed.
"Roza, we don't even know for sure that this has anything whatsoever to do with you. Plus, if I were away from you how would you be able to keep me safe, you wouldn't be anywhere around?"
"It has to be because of me because both attacks killed members of my family. Even though they were not even in the same yeblya country Comrade. And I can't lose you Mitya, I just can't, I won't survive that. I would make for damn sure that you had several guardians, ones who are better than me and could keep you safe." (fucking)
She balled her hands into fists on my chest. "Don't you understand? Loosing you would kill me."
Her eyes implored me to understand as she started to sob hysterically as I laid her head against my chest.
"Yes, I absolutely do understand because I feel the exact same way Roza. I am so sorry about your family lyubov' moya, but I am not leaving you. There is no force on this Earth that is great enough to ever force me to leave you Roza moya. And you are not going to lose me. As for guardians who are better than you, there are none, you are the best in the world even if you are not and will not ever be a guardian. And as long as I am with you, I am in the safest place on all of planet Earth lyubov' moya." (my love, my, my love)
Again, she tried to interrupt and once again I didn't allow it. "NO Roza!!" I told her firmly but also quietly, gently, and lovingly.
"I will be with you for the rest of my life Roza, no matter how long or short that may be."
Her shoulders sagged; I know that she doesn't really want me to leave her she's just scared out of her mind. And if she was right, and these attacks did have anything whatsoever to do with her, then she had every right to be afraid. To be yeblya terrified even. (fucking)
But I know her well enough by now to know that she wasn't afraid for herself, oh no not her, she was scared to death for me. And she was terrified for all of the other people that she loved.
She is, without a doubt, the most selfless and loving person that I have ever met. She reminded me sooo much of my own mother in that way.
Finally, once her tears slowed, for the moment at least, she sighed deeply and then spoke again as she tried to blink away more of her tears. "All right, but we need to get in touch with Alberta and let her know that everyone there that I care about is in danger. And that they will all need guardians. Even her, Mason, Eddie, Yuri, Celeste, Emil, Dr. Oldenzki, Tamera, Serena, Jean, Spiridon, Ben, Mikhail, et cetera et cetera et cetera and even that irritating old asshole Stan Alto."
"Alto? Are you serious?" That shocked me.
"Yes."
Brushing her hair back from her face and behind her ear, I asked her. "May I ask why you want to include Alto?"
"Because if it weren't for him, I wouldn't have anyone other than Christian to argue with. I mean Eddie will argue with me a little bit but not like Christian and Alto will. And you don't like to argue with me."
I chuckled. But I could see it in her eyes, they told me that she was dead serious.
"All right, I will text Alberta. And tell her that we have an emergency and that we need to skype with her as soon as possible. And detka, if you want me to, I will play argue with you occasionally." (baby)
"Thank you, Mitya. I don't know what I would ever do without you. But what I do know, is that I would never be able to get through this or anything else without you."
"You will never have to be without me Roza moya. So, you won't ever have to find that out detka. NEVER." (my, baby)
"Oh God I hope not and thank you so much for being here with me through all of this." She whispered.
"You are very welcome, lyubov' moya. And don't ever forget that right by your side is where I will always want to be angel moya." (my love, my)
"I'm going to go wash my face and brush my hair and teeth. Maybe I won't look completely like the walking dead, or even a hag, that way."
"You are beautiful detka. No matter what you look like on the outside right this moment, you are still the most beautiful woman on the face of this planet, and you always will be lyubov' moya. And even though your outsides are more beautiful than any other woman ever has or ever will be again. It is your heart and soul that make you so unbelievably beautiful Roza moya." (baby, my love, my)
She gave me a small smile and a semi chaste kiss before going into the bathroom. While I went over and picked my cell phone up off of my bedside table.
"Alberta, we have an emergency, Roza and I need to skype with you. ASAP!!!!!"
Less than five seconds later I got an answering text.
"Is this life or death?"
"No, just VERY important."
"Give me ten minutes."
"Thank you."
I sat my phone down and went into the bathroom where I found the love of my life quietly weeping to herself. As she leaned her hips against the front of the sink with her head buried in her hands. I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her waist and laid my chin on her shoulder.
"I don't know why I am so upset, she never acted like she loved me."
"She was your mother detka, regardless of how she acted, you still loved her. It is completely understandable for you to be upset lyubov' moya. Plus, you heard what Zoya said." (baby, my love)
"I guess you're right. How do you think that she knew all of that? She's just a baby Comrade."
"I don't know the answer to that lyubov' moya. But I imagine that babushka will be able to tell us." (grandmother)
"Yeah, I suppose so."
"Did you know your aunt and uncle at all?" I asked her as I picked her hair brush up off the side of the sink and began to brush her hair for her. I had always wanted to do this for her, just not under these types of circumstances.
"Yes, they came to babanin while Lissa and I were there. They stayed for almost three months once and we grew to know and love each other quite a bit over that short amount of time. They also returned for all of the meetings, dinner parties, balls et cetera et cetera et cetera." (daddy's)
"I am so sorry that all of this has happened to you lyubov' moya, you in no way deserved any of this. You have had such a hard life angel moya and I am so very deeply sorry about that. I wish that I could have been there for you. I wish that I could have spared you all of the pain and trauma that you have suffered in your life." (my love)
"Thank you, but none of this is your fault. The only person who is at fault for this is whoever planned and executed it. Not ever you, you are my rock, my refuge, my sanctuary, my home, my world, my anchor, my everything Comrade. I think that it is a good thing that I have led the life that I have because it has made me into the woman that I am today. With your help of course" She told me as she caught my eyes in the mirror above the sink just as another fresh tear rolled down her cheek.
"Just as you are to me lyubov' moya. Just as you are to me detka." I laid her brush back down on the sink and pressed a kiss to her neck right below her ear, the tops of each of her shoulders and then the crown of her head. (my love, baby)
She nodded, still understandably sad and upset about the loss of so many of her family members. I don't know who in the blyad' has done this to her, but they WILL yeblya pay for it. (fuck, fucking)
'Whoever in the ad has hurt her this way is going to pay for it with their very yeblya lives, I swear it.' I thought to myself furiously. (hell, fucking)
"Did you get in touch with Alberta?"
"Yes, she said to giveher ten minutes five minutes ago. So, we need to get my laptop set up so thatwe can talk to her."