It's been a month now, and Iruka and I hadn't seen much of each other. I've had three days off over the last 30 and while I've slept at Iruka's, that's all I did. I get bad that I hadn't shown the man any attention. I decided that I'd take the weekend off, Ibiki asking me if I wanted a couple of days to rest.
Iruka had given me a key to his apartment, saying that if he was working, I could just let myself in. I hadn't done it yet, but today I wanted to surprise him. It was Friday afternoon, he should be home in a couple of hours. I showered, making myself relaxed and clean all at once. I changed into a matching bra and panty set and laid down on the couch. I had planned on greeting him the way he deserved. I had fallen asleep though.
A soft, callused hand brushed the hair from my face, holding my cheek. I blinked a few times, letting the sleep clear from eyes. The handsome brunette sat on his coffee table, a light pink across his cheeks. "I had a meeting today. I'm sorry, sweetie." He whispered.
"I didn't mean to fall asleep. I was trying to surprise you." I mumbled.
"It was a wonderful surprise." He said as I sat up. "Are you hungry?"
"What time is it?"
"Just after 7."
"Oh."
"What's wrong?"
"I was trying to, uh, ya know."
His blush went from pink to crimson and I giggled. "Well-"
"Let's eat. I am hungry." I smiled, trying to calm his nerves. I was being too straightforward and he was so cute about it. "I'll help you cook. Let me put on some clothes."
"You don't have to." He blurted out.
I smirked and stood up, "Okay." My hips swayed as I made my way to his kitchen. I threw a look over my shoulder and I couldn't help but smile when I saw Iruka staring at my ass.
Iruka shook his head and stood quickly, following after me. I let him grab everything we needed and started chopping what he told me to. It was simple stir fry he decided to make, but it smelled amazing. As it cooked, he turned me to face him kissing me fiercely. I was still in nothing but my bra and panties, so his hands were able to slide across my bare skin.
"Ruka." I mumbled into his lips, he hummed in question, "it's going to burn."
He chuckled and pulled away, removing it from the stove. He plated the food and sat it down on the small table. I went to sit down at the table, but instead I was pulled into the bedroom. I found myself smiling from ear to ear at the man's actions. "I can't wait any longer." He admitted as he stood before me.
"Then don't." I reached behind me and pulled my bra off. I shimmed out of my panties and kicked them away.
Iruka pulled me too him, a little rougher than I'd expected, again, his kiss was heated. I unzipped his vest and let it fall to the ground. I tugged at his shirt and he pulled it off before kissing me again. Next his belt came loose and his pants hit the ground. He shoved out of his underwear and lifted me, legs wrapping around him. I moaned as he pressed himself inside of me immediately, not waiting a moment longer.
He moved onto the bed and laid us down, never pulling away from our kiss. As Iruka thrust into me, I threw my head back, moaning already from the feeling of him being inside me. Iruka kisses my neck, gently nipping at my flesh. My hands pulled his hitai-ate free, then his ponytail, fingers tangling into his chestnut locks.
Iruka rolled us, moving me on top. I sat up, letting myself take in the look of his eyes as they were clouded with lust. Iruka was passionate and soft, yet he knew what he wanted. He wanted me to be the main topic, it was all about me getting what I wanted. I rocked slowly, letting him watch me carefully.
His hands run up my sides, savoring in the feel of my soft, scared skin under his touch. I moved faster, watching him bite his lip was thrilling, knowing that I was doing this to this man beneath me. His grip at my hips tightened slightly as I became even rougher with my movements, now bouncing up and down.
"Ruka." I gasped as his thumb began rubbing circles on my clit.
His strokes matched my movements and I was getting close. My moans grew louder and louder until an exhausted scream slipped from me lips. He didn't wait for me finish coming down from my new found high as he pulled me down, kissing me deeply. He wrapped his arms around me and began thrusting into me, hard.
"Yes." I panted into his neck.
He squeezed my neck as I felt him fill me with his hot seed, pulling me in even closer. He let out a groan of satisfaction as he stilled, holding me tightly to him. I smiled softly as I sat up, looking down at Iruka. I could see in his eyes what he wanted to say, but he knew it was too soon for me. I couldn't say it back, not yet. Instead, I bent down and kissed him sweetly.
"Let's eat dinner." I joked as I moved off of him.
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So began my fairly normal routine with Iruka. That night is when we really became a couple. I tried to be there one a night a week, it was hard sometimes, but I made the effort best I could. It wasn't fair to Iruka for me to be gone weeks and months on end. I kept my apartment, paying it for another three months.
A month had passed, we were now in mid-May, summer quickly approaching. Iruka and I had made plans to go out this weekend, we had been staying at his place when I was off, not socializing. I went to see Kurenai, deciding to invite her and Asuma our as well.
"Kurenai!" I called out as I jogged to her.
"Y/n? How have you been?" She seemed surprised to see me.
"I've been good. I was wondering what you were doing tonight."
"Asuma and I were going to go to dinner. Why?"
"Would you be okay with Iruka and I joining you?"
Her face seemed shocked now, I'm sure she didn't expect me to invite myself on a double date. "Of course. I'm-I'm glad you and Iruka are working out."
"It's only been two months." I pointed out.
"That's still something." I knew what she meant, I doubt anyone expected me to be in a relationship, let alone with someone like Iruka. "You seem happy, Y/n."
"Thanks, Kurenai." I smiled. "Meet tonight at 7? You're having BBQ if I had to guess."
She laughed, "See you there."
————————— Time Skip
Iruka and I walked hand in hand as we walked through the village to the BBQ restaurant. I noticed some curious looks from jonin and chunin alike that knew Iruka, but not me. We simply kept walking to the restaurant.
Kurenai and Asuma were tucked away in a booth together. Iruka lead me to where they were and we settled across from them. Asuma let his eyes follow me as I sat across from Kurenai.
"I was surprised when Kurenai told me you were joining us." He statement was pointed towards me, but he looked to Iruka.
"It was Y/n's idea. We haven't been out in a while." Iruka responded.
"I've been on missions, this is the first time I've had two days off in a month." I added.
"If I'm being honest," Asuma started, "I'm surprised you're still together."
"Asuma!" Kurenai harshly whispered to her lover.
"It's okay, Kurenai. So am I, if I'm being honest. I did tell him to run in the beginning."
"You look happy." Kurenai answered.
"I am." I smiled and looked to Iruka as he squeezed my hand.
We enjoyed dinner with the other couple, laughing and exchanging stories. Kurenai loved hearing some of the more embarrassing stories of Asuma from his teenage years. I loved hearing about the time I was gone and how much things had changed. It was bittersweet, it could've been me.
Now, we were headed to the bar, also my choice to continue on for the night. Iruka offered for us to go home, saying he understood if I wanted to avoid too many eyes. I wasn't sure what he meant, but I wasn't going to stop living for anyone. Kurenai and I walked ahead of the men, arm in arm and laughing.
"You really do seem happy." Kurenai mentioned as we walked.
"We really haven't seen much of each other. The first month I was only home three days. This month I've been home 7 days."
"Home?"
"Oh, well he gave me a key. I still have my apartment, but I spend the night at his place."
"That's a big step for both of you." She pointed out.
"I know. I just hope I don't screw it up." I mumbled.
"Come on, no frowning." She pulled me into the bar and into a booth.
The males eyed us as they slid in across from us. Kurenai laughed airily at the expression on Asuma's face. She stood up and Iruka moved to sit next to me, while Asuma ordered drinks. The evening was enjoyable, fun and relaxing. I excused myself to the restroom and headed down the hallway.
I was washing my hands when I felt his presence behind me. "Breaking into the women's bathroom these days?"
"You really are in a relationship with him?"
I looked in the mirror, afraid of actually facing the silver haired man. The mirror acting as a shield for my emotions. I felt angry all of the sudden and tried to compost myself. "Yes." Was all I could manage.
"Does he make you happy?" Kakashi asked.
"He doesn't make me cry." I almost started crying just saying the words.
"I just want you happy." His words danced in the air as his clone vanished.
I looked at myself in the mirror and pulled myself together. I slipped from the bathroom and made my way back to Iruka. When I sat next to Iruka, I found Kurenai and Asuma were gone. I looked to Iruka and he knew the question I was about to ask.
"They went home." He scanned my face, his expression changed and his eyes softened. "Let's go."
He pulled me from the booth and out into the crisp air. It was spring now, nights were a bit chilly, days warm and inviting. I let him pull me along, he didn't slow down until his home was in sight. He guided me inside and sat us down on the couch.
"What's wrong?"
I felt on edge, hands sweaty, and unsure of what to say. "Kakashi." Probably not what I should've started with.
Iruka's grip on my knee tightened momentarily, "What about him?"
"I ran into him while in the hallway." Lie.
"Did he do something?"
"No." I rushed to say. "No. He, he asked me if we were really together. I told him yes. He asked me if you made me happy." I continued. "I told him you didn't make me cry."
I could see Iruka analyze my words, they swam in his head. They were true words, that doesn't mean that they did sting slightly. "Do I make you happy?"
"Of course. I just- I wanted him to know what it felt like." I looked away from Iruka, casting my eyes to the floor.
"What happened between you two?"
"I don't even know." I whispered. "I just know that we don't do well around each other. It's like a contest to see who can hurt the other the most."
It was quiet for a long time, Iruka sitting still and looking at me intently as I stared at the floor. "Do-do you love him?" I knew the question was coming, and I knew it hurt for him to say those words.
"Not any more." The relief seemed to roll off of Iruka when those words reached his ears. "I can't trust him. I can't stand being around him." It wasn't entirely a lie, if I was around him, my body ached to touch him. I needed to feel his strong arms around me when I was near him.
"Why didn't you tell me?" Iruka lifted my chin to look at him.
"I hadn't seen him in months, I didn't think anything of it, until I saw him. Until I heard his words."
"I'll never let him hurt you again." Iruka pulled me into him, embracing me.
I wasn't worried about Iruka hurting me. I wasn't even worried about Kakashi hurting me, I could take it, especially with Iruka here. I couldn't take hurting Iruka, and I just knew I would. Some how, some way, I'd hurt Iruka.