*play song*
Y/n's pov.
" Tyrell Isaacs, he's 25, two houses down from yours " I said.
" Anything else he did? " He asked, I shake my head.
" No " I said.
" Okay " he said and put away his phone.
" I didn't think he would do this, let alone after everything " I said.
" Well, can't judge a book by its cover am I right? " He asked.
I sighed.
" He used to be gentle and kind, until he tried cocaine " I said.
" People change " he said.
" My dad certainly didn't " I said.
" Your dad? " He asked.
" He just got out of rehab and he's drinking again " I said.
" Does he have a little bit of a tolerance? " He asked.
" He does, but I just want him to completely stop " I said.
" What can you do? " He asked.
" Get raped " I shrugged.
" Hey, you got this, everyone goes through rough times " he said.
I look up at him.
" You really think so? " I asked.
" Here's a dirty secret, I'm a smoker and I stopped " he said.
I smile.
" I have blood in my hands that I can't wipe off, no matter how hard I try, I can't even hold a knife to cook myself dinner, I just order food and that's it, so far cutting fruits is all I can do " I said as I look down at my hands.
He then place his hands on mine, my cheeks flush tint pink and I look up at him.
" I have blood in my hands as well, but you'll get pass it sooner or later, you'll just have to deal with guilt for a very long time, you can't live a life full of remorse " he said.
" I have been when my mother left " I said.
" It's about her huh? " He asked.
" Basically, if she hadn't left my dad, things wouldn't be like this and I would still have my brothers and sisters " I said.
" You have my phone number, just call me when you need anything " he said.
I couldn't help myself but intertwine my hand. It was a surprise when he intertwine as well, seconds of just gazing at each other. He suddenly leans in and his lips was on mine.
I didn't hesitate to kiss back and close my eyes, a moment of us kissing I pull apart and take my hand off him.
I look away.
" You have a fiancee " I said as I place my hand over my mouth.
He said nothing and I see him standing up and walk out of the room. Not long after that, a guy with dirty blond hair and dark green eyes enters the room.
" Y/n L/n?, I'm Dr. Lucan, Dr. Mandrell had sent me to you for a consult " He asked.
" She sent over a shrink? " I asked.
" I'd take it you've met a psychiatrist before? " He asked as he sit down next to me.
" I'm not crazy " I said.
" I'm not saying you are, but murdering four of your siblings in one afternoon is kinda is " he said.
" You know me huh? " I asked.
" I visited you four years ago in prison, you don't remember? " He asked.
" No, I was in a bad shape, my memories are kind of a blur after I wake up from the coma, I barely remembered who was taking care of me " I said.
" Again, I'm not saying your crazy " he said.
" Then why are you here? " I asked.
" I was informed what just happened, I'm very sorry for that, and since I did talk to you a few years ago, you might not remember this but you said you couldn't keep up with life, how are you keeping it up now? " He asked.
I feel tears gathering in my eyes.
" I'm fine. . . . .I think " I said as I fiddle with the blanket in between my fingers.
" And what about taking those pills that you don't need? " He asked.
" It's just for my headaches " I said as I try to avoid the tears from streaming down.
" It's okay to cry, we all have to let it out at some point " he said.
I look up at him and my tears stream down while I bite my bottom lip as I keep in the weep.
" What are you feeling? " He asked.
" I'm scared to die, but I'm scared to live "
~ Time Skip ~
" Thank you " I said as Ein put down my bag of clothes on the floor next in the corner.
" Are you okay now? " He asked, I nodded.
" They said they managed to stitch up to whatever is ripped down there " I use my index finger and pointed downwards.
He chuckles.
" And this? " He asked as he look up at the bag full of liquid.
" It's a morphine drip, it helps me with the pain " I said as he sit down on the chair next to me.
" When will you get discharged? " He asked.
" In two days or three, I lost a lot of blood " I said.
He sighs.
" I never like that guy " he said.
" It's not yours to blame, he the younger one I didn't just expect him to be such a. . . . "
" Dick? " He asked, I chuckled and nodded.
" Yeah, that " I said.
" Did a cop investigate this? " He asked.
" Zenix was the one who found me, he said since I'm on probation, he's going to have his special agent cop friend and fiancee to investigate this and hopefully I'm not involve in any drugs or anything that could put me back in paradise " I said.
" What about you?, Where have you been? " I asked.
" I got a job at Starbucks " he said, I laugh then wince holding my abdomen.
" Ow " I laugh.
" Even if your in pain you still have a little bit of sense of humor " he said.
I calm down.
" I have to keep going, I'm not dying until I finish everything " I said.
" Meaning? " He asked.
" Nyla's pregnant, I wanna hold my nephew, see Evan get married, supporting Chase while he battles leukemia hoping there will be a match donor, finish off my father's debt, and lastly, see Penelope " I said.
" Nyla's pregnant? " He asked.
" Three months " I said.
" What do you work as for? " He asked.
" You'll see " I said.
" I'm scared " he said.
" You shouldn't be " I said.
" You look tired " he said.
" I'm fine, I just got out of an hour surgery four hours ago and slept for two hours, I think I'm good " I said and pick up my phone next to me to check any messages.
" You want strawberry milk? " He asked.
I glare at him as he realize what he just said.
" I'm about to smack you with my phone " I said.
" Three feet away where you can't reach me " he pushes the chair back.
I smile at him as he smile back at me.
" I forgot that your are very scary " he said.
" I'm not that terrifying " I said.
" . . . .you kinda are "
" What? " I asked.
" Nothing "
~ Time Skip ~
" What the hell did you do? " Chase asked as he sit down on the chair.
The blood bag hanging on the stand connected with a tube with a needle prick to his hand as I sit down on the wheelchair.
" I got into trouble, don't worry, it was taken care of " I said.
" Your on a wheelchair why? " He asked.
" Raped " I said, his jaw dropped.
" It's fine, I'm fine " I said.
" What happened after? " He asked.
" I got out of surgery yesterday and I should be out tommorow or the day after, cause they have to make sure I have no complications because it was pretty severe " I said.
" It's not pretty when your pale " he sighs.
" Don't stress yourself out, it's my problem, you have your own " I gesture my head to blood bag hanging.
" This is only stage 2 " he said.
" Still, you can't even sleep properly " I said as I notice his the dark circles.
" Clark visited " I said.
" He did? " He asked.
" I haven't change my hospital emergency contact so they called him but at least he cared " I said.
" Penelope is a nice girl, she's playful " he said.
" Clark told me that already, he even said she's giving him a hard time " I said.
" She's very energetic, don't worry, you'll see her sooner when he's ready " he said.
I smile.
That's what he said.
I want coffeeeeeee~
Bye!
ฅ'ω'ฅ
~ Mariko