" Y.. Yuvaraj, I.. I am t., tired, p.. please." She said in a great efforts and tightly closed her eyes, because the pain was unbearable.
Reluctantly he gets up from her and he wears his pants again, without looking at her with his wine bottle he walks towards the balcony.
Nandini curled like a ball and was sobbing in pain and helplessly looking at him, he was without any care drinking his wine like a thirsty pig. Nandini wanted to stopped him, but already all her energy had drained out. She had no option now, except to quietly see herself being destroyed. What a huge tragedy it is, without any mistake be responsible for your own tragedy.
She was recalling Doctors words and crying-----
" So, What have you decided? You can't waste time like this? You have to choose one, Baby or Prince? " Doctor asked her.
Nandini was shockingly looking at him.
" Whatever path you are following to cure him, that is not right, sex is not the way to cure Manik. He may only seem fine for a while, but what after that? You have been doing this till date. But do you think it has gained anything? It is far away if he will be fine, but instead of all this, he has made you pregnant. " The Doctor
But only she knew that, who forced her to choose this path. She always refused them all, but again and again everyone pushed her towards him. Sometimes Manik, Shish Mehal forced her and sometimes doctors too. Everyone used her for their benefits. But the only loss in all of them was her own. She became unknowingly pregnant , which she trusted was now leaving her hand. But among all these, that innocent baby's had no fault in this. Along with her, her baby was also facing the plight of life.
" Is there really no way left for me? Will no one help me? Whom should I choose, my baby or Yuvaraj?" She was crying on her own fate.
She tries to get up with great difficulty, but falls on the bed. She tries again, it felt as if this pain would kill her.
" S.. Sorry Baby." She placed her hand on her belly and pursed her lips together to suppressed the pain, a lone tear escaped from her eyes.
She wrapped around her duvet and with a treambling feet she gets up. With a slow steps Nandini entered in the balcony, where Manik was without any care about the world and himself Sitting atop the railing was peacefully taking his wine bottle down his throat. Already he had finished two bottles, now it was a third one.
She is scared to see Manik sitting at such a height, he was lost in his own tune, looking at the sea with a calm mind.
" Yuvaraj." She gasped in fear and quickly come to him.
He turned his face and give a little smile to her, and again busy with his wine.
" Aap please niche aa jayein, You will fall." She grabs his hand.
" Look how beautiful everything is here and my baby I love you. " He look at the sea once and then kissed on his bottle like a mad one.
How pathetic her life was!!! She was trying to control her tears but she failed. There was no any doubt in that he loves his alochol more than her. She was feeling literally jealous. But who cares? She was lonely fighting her own battle without any weapon.
" Yuvaraj, please come down. " She was pleading to him and clutched the duvet near her chest with another hand.
Unwillingly he come down, but could not even get up properly, he was fully drenched in wine and his legs were shaking. He did not know himself, yet he had a bottle in his hand. The smell of alcohol made Nandini was feeling like vomiting. She quickly goes to the washroom, and vomits everything in the sink, he was not in the sense what has happened to her.
After being fresh, she rests her head on the wall and sat on the cold floor and starts crying.
" This is all happened due to my mistake, I should not have run away with Yuvraj by getting emotional, today both of us as well as you are also in danger. I am sorry Baby." She placed her hand on her belly.
Few min, later she wiped her tears and opened the door, where Manik was still drinking and talking with his wine bottle.
" Baby, you don't leave me right. Everyone will leave me , but you will never go away from me. I love you. " He was kissing that bottle.
Nandini come infront of him, he was shaking due the effect of alcohol. With a dizzy eyes he was looking at her. She gently puts his hands on her stomach. Perhaps she wanted to him feel that there is another life inside her, you have to love him, not this gutter. She was trying to do her last attempt. She still hoped that after feeling the child, he might feel a little conscious, or understand something else.
With a lots of hope she was looking at him, but he crashed all the hopes once again, he was blankly staring at her.
" You know what I love you too, but I th.. think here I am con.. confused, but I do not understand, who do I love more? You or her? You both have a strange addiction, which pulls me towards both of you. "Manik shows her his bottle. His whole body and voice were shaking.
" But I know, you love your addiction so much than m.. me." She controlled her tears and anger and confesed the reality.
" J.. Jealous?" He come more closed to her and was about to kiss her but she make a little distance from him.
" May be" She answered.
" You don't have to jealous about her, both of you have drenched me equally in your rain. But she doesn't feel jealously towards you. " He said huskily and pulled her her face more closed to him, his rough hands were brushing inside her hairs,
He was ready to slammed his lips but she pushed him little and fisted her duvet more tightly near her.
" I.. I want to sleep. " She ignored him and wiped her tears. Nandini understood that there was no any use to explain him anything. She lost her own battle.
She was about to go but he take her in his arms, she scared, as already he himself can't even walk properly, his whole body was trembling.
" Yuvaraj, please." She was only worried about her baby.
He placed her on bed, she was moving back in fear. Nandini understood his intentions.
" P.. Please, d... don't do this. Yuvaraj, y.. you are not in your sense." She was pleading to him.
" This is called intoxication, which will make you forget everything, and crush you in their addiction. Don't stop me from coming to you. " He come over her, her hand quickly placed on her belly.
" Yuvaraj, pl.. please, no. Already, I have a lot of pain, and I don't have the stre.. strength to bear mo.. more. P.. Please." She was begging him.
He smirked as he was forgetting his all sense. Today again it was happening that Manik and his addition are going to win. Nandini will again bear all the helplessness and will lose.
" Y.. Yuvaraj, I.. I am pregn..." But before she could tell him the reality, he crushed their lips together.
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At Morning
It is ten in the morning, the sun's strong rays fall on his half-bare body. He was in a deep sleep, the effect of last night was still on him. His dark black back tattoo was shining due to the sun's rays.
" N... Nandini, close the curtains." Sunrays were disturbing his sleep.
But other side there was no any response, in sleeping mode his hand was caressing the bed, but he felt nothing.
Reluctantly he open his eyes and suddenly his head starts aching badly.
" Aaahhhh." Last night hangover was now was on his pick. His head was blasting.
He gets up and hold his head tightly.
" You drink this black coffee first." Someone said and give him a coffee,
Manik recognised the voice and raised his head up. But first he need some very strong coffee, just to stop his headache.
He drank his coffee.
" When did you come here? " Manik asked that person and again hold his head.
" Today morning." Aman relied.
Manik rested his head on the headboard and closed his eyes. His lower part was covered with only a sheet. Aman understood the condition of the room and understood what must have happened last night. But this was not new to both. This was as usual and common for them.
Manik's clothes were carelessly lying on the floor, his pack of cigarettes, along with a few drug packets and empty liquor cans, had made his grand royal room more messy and dark.
" Have you met Nandini? " He asked casually and again busy with his phone.
" Y.. Yes." Aman replied.
His eyes were moving around the room, he understood that Nandini's last few days were very difficult.
" I can't imagine Nandini, how would you have handled him without me alone? " He POV, he was with a painful eyes looking at the scars of Manik.
" So, do you finish all work in Mumbai? How is Rosy aunty? " He asked and open the side drawer and burns cigarettes.
" Everything is done. You don't have to worry Sir. Rosy Aunty is missing you both, before arriving here, I dropped her at the airport, and then I board my flight, she arrived safely at her sister's Goa home. " Aman.
" Good. Any call or message from Kabir?"
" Yes and your sister-in-law wanted to talk with Nandini, as usual with the help of voice changing application she talked with her." He said
Manik smirked evily.
" Sir, everything is under controlled. You don't have to worry about anything. You just take care about Nandini and your baby, which are very important at this time." Aman said in concerning tone.
" But where is she? Jiske baare me baat kar rahe hain woh hain kahan? " Manik was looking here and there. Only his clothes were there, but she was nowhere.
" You go and freshen up first, she is here somewhere. " Aman replied and takes clothes for Manik from the wardrobe.
" You leave it, call Nandini, she always does it all." He was smoking cigarette in comfort.
" Why? Now can't I even choose clothes for you too? Before her I used to do all this. Nandini cannot let you forget me so easily." Aman laughed and Manik rolled his eyes and again joined him.
He pull his lower up, and went into the washroom.
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Nandini was walking barefoot on the sea sand, Tuffy playing with a ball behind her.
After some time the tides of the sea come, and after touching her feet, they leave again, perhaps they had to say something to her.
She turned her face towards the sea and feel that moment. Again and again tides come, touch her feet and left.
" I think, life is just like this tides and time too. Time and tide do not stop for anyone. But everything has stopped for me here, who should I blame for my situation? This world or ourselves? Amma, Appa, Amms would you be all very angry with me, right? I have disappointed you more. What did i do to myself? why did I let all this happen? I made my life hell. First this society and Shish Mehal aur ab main khud. Now I am not your beloved innocent Nandu, now I have become that which I myself had never even thought about in life. Now I have become very dirty, I do not have the courage to look into your eyes, I have forgotten the learning and upbringing given by all of you." A lone tear were flowing from her eyes.
" Amms, aap humesha mujhe Shish mehal aur Yuvaraj se bachana chahti thi, but see what happened with me. Today, heir of that Sheesh Mahal, their blood is in my womb. What can be more shame and defeat for you? I broke all your dreams. I have to die but still I can't. This child is growing in my womb just for the name, but his real parent is someone else, yet I always feel that this child is mine. Why? Why my heart and mind are not able to unite on this matter? Every moment I am getting more and more attached to this child, my relationship with him becoming even more deeper. Sometimes it seems like Amms has stolen someone else's child and has run away, Amms you didn't raise me that way, then why did I do that? " She was caressing her belly.
" Then how did I become so selfish and possesive about someone else's child? I was not like this before, then what happened after this child came? I have put the life of this child in danger by drowning in emotions, which happened two years ago, Yuvaraj and all the conditions is getting more worse now. She does not even know whether I am pregnant or not. He used me only for his satisfaction and desires. I was so stupid, just ran with him without thinking anything. But I never thought of further consequences." She was crying on her stupidity.
But at the same time, Manik wrapped his hands around her and rested his chin on her shoulder. She gasped little and quickly come out of her thoughts, wiped her tears.
" I have called you many times but you did not listen to my voice. And you were not even in bed in the morning." He said in childish tone and complaining to her.
She turned towards him and without any expression looking at him.
" L .. Let's go inside. " Without waiting for him, she was about to go but be hold her hand.
" Are you ignoring me? I have been watching your behavior since last night, you have started keeping a distance from me. Even last night you were not co-operate properly. What is wrong with you Nandini? Are you seriously ignoring me or something else?" He asked her sternly.
" N.. No Yuvaraj, n.. nothing is like this. W.. Woh I.. I was just t.. tired. S.. Sorry aagese aisa n.. nahi hoga. " Nandini apologised to him.
" If you were tired so much, why did you wake up so early and today why didn't you put your scarf on the side of my pillow before getting up? You have never done this before. " He asked her in doubtful tone, as he found Nandini's behavior suspicious.
" S.. Sorry, I forgot. Aagese aisa nahi hoga." She again apologised to him, but didn't look at him, she was looking here and there.
" Now how many times are you going to repeat this line? See if this is any of your stupid moods mood swings again, let me know now. Because Ignore Me is not included in your stupid list of mood swings. If you do this, the consequences will be very bad. " He threatened her and twist her hand from behind.
" Aahhh." She hissed in pain.
But when he sees her tears, quickly left her hand.
" Aahh" Nandini was rubbing her hand which turned red.
He was looking at her red hand, he closed his eyes tightly to controlled his anger.
Manik hold her, she was shivering in fear, her hand was treambling. But he gently hold it and blows the air on her wrist.
" Yuvaraj, why are you so unpredictable? Why I always feel that I have started to understand you, but your new form comes out every time. Why are you not understanding, doing so wrong with an innocent life. The life of both of us is already ruined, but please don't ruin this baby. " She POV sadly.
" I am used to see you next to me every morning, so this morning I did not see you on my side, and I did not see you at home either, so I got angry. " He said softly.
She slowly nodes her head.
Nandini slowly freed her wrist from him, Manik was confusingly looking at her.
" I.. I have to go in." She was trying to ignore his suspicious gaze.
" Wait a while, I like to see such a quiet sea with you." Manik
" N.. No, m.. medicines bhi leni h.. hain." Nandini gave him excused and left.
But after walk some distance, Manik pulls her forcefully back and pinned her on a tree.
" Miss. Nandini Murthy It's not easy to ignore Yuvaraj, so tell me quickly what is cooking in your tiny mind." He come more closed to her lips.
She flinched in fear due to the sudden pulled.
But before she could register any his words he fused his lips with her, he was chewing her lips and more pinned on the tree. She didn't hold him but only lifelessly standing there nor responding him. He was taking her lips to taste more but from her side there was any response. She was not moving her lips to reciprocate him.
He bites her lower lip when she realizes she was stiff and standing quite and not reacting, but still there was no difference in her behavior. He gets angry on her rude approach. His passionate kiss was turned into angry one. Manik was kissing her hardly
" Nandini, respond me." He commended as he was hell angry on her.
But still there was no any sign from her. He held her chin tightly bite her upper lips hardly and turned her, now she was facing him her back.
" What is wrong with you today? Why are you behaving so rude and cold? " He greeted his teeth, her blood had stucked on his lips.
She was crying but didn't give him any reply. He slide her kurti upto her chest and giving her lovebites there. Since morning her behavior was strange towards him, and this thing he can't tolerate. He was dominating but today there was no any effect on her.
Aman was watching all this from a distance, he turned his back disappointingly.
" Nandini please don't do this, he will kill you. " Aman was worried about her.
Manik twisted her hand from behind, he was boiling in an anger, he was about to tore her kurti she turned and pushed him. He angrily greeted his teeth.
" Enough." She raised her voice.
He ignored her and again come to close her.
" I am again warning you, ENOUGH." She pushed him back angrily.
Manik was shocked.
" I have decided something about this baby." In Nandini's voice there was no any fear was looking in her eyes, she was looking confident and strong.
1:- What do you think Nandini would have decided about the child?
2:- What would be the reason that she would ignore Manik? Is she hiding anything?
Drop your comments and views. Thank You.