i haven't spoken to vinnie all day, he hasn't done anything wrong i'm just not feeling too good about myself rn. i don't want vinnie to see me like this as. i'm sitting in my bed , messy bun, tissues,puffy eyes,and ice cream. i don't even know how these thoughts came to my mind, but they kept replaying over and over again , and i knew if i saw vinnie i'd just break down.
am i good enough?
why did he choose me , there are prettier girls
why can't i just look like other girls? slim waist , small titties, nice legs, no stretch marks.
i just wish i could be prettier
maybe i should start gym? before i add weight
maybe i should stop eating this ice cream
why does vinnie even love me?
and with those thoughts circling my mind, the tears dry on my face , the tissues all over my double bed . i fall asleep ...
author note
i'm so far behind, this was supposed be finished and published 2 mf days ago , but i was so lazy and have decided to split it into 2 parts. THANK YOU GUYS FOR ALL THE READS AND ALL THE SUPPORT. I LOVE YOU!!
-love jordyn x
