Nevertheless (DISCONTINUED, REWRITE IN PROGRESS)

Fanart by How2_Start

"So, you're telling me that Halo didn't force you?"

I scoffed. "Of course he didn't. He was the sweetest thing ever and was as innocent as a newborn puppy. Plus, he was only 10! He knew just about as much as I did about that stuff."

"Then, how exactly did it happen? You said you didn't consent but you're also saying that Halo didn't force you."

"Well, it's kinda hard to explain. You know that weird newish version of child-porn making?"

"No." Luko said. If you haven't already guessed by now, I'm now at the interview spilling out my entire life story. I mean, I don't find much of a point with keeping it all secret. It's not like anyone can blackmail me with it.

I'm not saying I got over it, I'm just saying I've pushed it so far down the thought of it doesn't leave a pang in my heart anymore.

"Well, basically people who sell child porn would kidnap two kids and force them to have sex with each other and record it and shit."

"Oh my god that's horrifying."

"Yep. Me and my siblings were homeless at the time and the assholes managed to nab little starving 8 year old me. They forced me and Halo to do that, and since Halo reached puberty a little early, he wasn't in control of his body's reactions and accidentally got me pregnant."

"How did you two get away? Was that the only time they forced you or was it multiple?"

"It was only once. That one experience was absolutely horrifying so we both helped each other escape. We found my siblings, who took refuge in an abandoned house. Let me tell you Abby did not like Halo, but they took him in because he didn't leave me when we found out I was pregnant."

"That sounds better than most modern-day fathers."

"Definitely."

"Speaking of which, how was he as a father to the quads."

I smiled softly for a moment as some memories came flooding back. "Oh, he was amazing. Me and him never had any romantic feelings for each other but he was a god at being a father. He's literally the only reason my hell spawn have any sense of morality."

"Well, what happened to him? Why did he disappe-"

I cut him off swiftly. "Would you look at that! Looks like this interview is over. I gotta go." I said as I quickly stood up, grabbing my bag. Okay, so maybe there's some things I'd like to keep secret.

I practically ran out the door as Luko called after me. I quickly went through the corridors and picked up both twins, who were waiting at the entrance for me.

I didn't keep Halo's death a secret for my sake. I'm over it. I kept it for the sake of the quads. Halo's death was a horrid drop in their lives and they were very depressed for a long time. They adored their father and it took a very long time for them to get better. Though, the accident leading to the twins being born and a lot of other stuff in between didn't really help bring them back to normal. And memories of Halo's death usually always ended up in me sitting outside one of their bedroom doors as they locked themselves inside and cried quietly.

I know how easily rumors and information can spread around places like this, and eventually nosy people will start to bring it up and ask the quads about it and I don't think I could handle another emotional breakdown. It hurts a lot, seeing them cry. And I hate it.

I swiftly set Misty on my back while I carried Damien on my waist, and darted out the door. Don't act surprised that I can carry two toddlers at once. I'm not the skinny and frail child I once was. And I'm not counting on being her again.