(Trigger warning self harm)
Emily's POV:
I made my way back to JJ's apartment. I used my spare key she gave me to get in. I looked around and I didn't see her in the living room or the kitchen. I saw the bathroom light on, so I quietly made my way over there. I saw JJ sitting and crying in the floor. There was a toothbrush on the ground on vomit in the toilet, I knew exactly what she had done.
"JJ what the hell did you do?!"
"Emily what the fuck are you doing back here"
"I had a feeling something wasn't right and I was worried so I came back and thank god I did"
"Emily please just go away"
"No JJ I can't do that you need help"
"Em, I can take care of myself I don't need help"
"JJ you're not eating and now you're making yourself throw up, how are you taking care of yourself if you are doing this"
"Emily just get the hell out of here, and stop pretending like you care and go on with your life"
"JJ I love you so much and it pains me to see you doing this to yourself, I care about you so much how could you possibly think I didn't"
General POV:
JJ starts to breakdown and Emily rushes to her side. Emily holds her tightly while JJ cry's into her chest. Emily tells JJ to listen to her breathing and her heartbeat to calm down. JJ listens to her and does exactly that. JJ starts to mimic Emily's heartbeat with her hand. Tapping her fingers to the beat. She does this for 2 minutes while she calms down. Emily sees her doing this and thinks it's adorable.
"Are you feeling better JJ?"
"Yeah I am Em, thank you"
"It's getting late do you want to go bed"
"Yeah I'm really tired"
"Okay, I'm not leaving here so I'll sleep on the couch"
"You really don't have to Em"
"I want to JJ"
"If you want to you can sleep in my bed with me I don't mind"
"Sure JJ"
"If you want a change of clothes you can borrow some of mine"
"Okay can I just have some shorts"
"Yeah I'll grab them for you"
JJ goes over to her dresser and pulls out a pair of shorts.
"Here you go Emily"
"Thank you JJ, are you not gonna change, it's quite hot in here?"
"No I'm fine"
"Okay"
Emily and JJ get under the covers, and JJ asks Emily to hold her and of course Emily does. Emily put her arm over JJ and pulled her closer to her. JJ held onto Emily's arm and they both fell asleep fast.
Emily's POV:
I woke up to the sun shining through the window. I looked down and I saw the blonde beauty that was still asleep next to me. I slowly got up to use the bathroom. After I washed my hands I couldn't find a hand towel so I looked around and saw the towel on the floor use wipe my hands off with. And that's when I saw it. A broke razor blade. I started to panic thinking what JJ did or was going to do with it. I took the blade and slowing walked into the living room. I opened the window and threw the blade out of it. When JJ wakes up I am going to talk to her about it. I don't want to scare her away but I need her to talk to me. That's probably why she slept with her hoodie and sweatpants on. How could I be so stupid, I'm a profiler. How did I not see that my best friend was hurting herself. As I sat on the couch waiting for JJ to wake up I heard footsteps and when I looked up I saw JJ walking over to me. She took a seat on the couch next to me.
"Good morning JJ, how did you sleep"
"I slept fine, how long how you been up for?"
"Oh not long, JJ I wanted to talk to you about something"
"Okay what is it?"
"I don't want you to freak out"
"I won't Em"
"Can you please lift up your sleeves for me"
"What?"
"JJ please lift up your sleeves me for me"
"Emily I love you but no fucking way"
"JJ I saw the blade in the bathroom, why did you do it, you know I will always be here for you, why didn't you talk to me"
General POV:
JJ got up and ran into the bathroom and locked the door.
"JJ please let me in, I'm sorry, if you don't want to talk about it we don't have to"
JJ started panicking again, she felt like the walls were closing in and she couldn't breathe. She didn't know what to do. She thought Emily was mad at her. And she didn't want Emily to find out. JJ doesn't want anyone to worry about her. And the last thing she ever wanted was for Emily to be the one to find out. She loves Emily but she couldn't tell her or show her what she did.
JJ's POV:
No no no. She wasn't supposed to find out. I don't want to burden her with my problems, she doesn't deserve that. I can't take this anymore. I tried, I tried so hard to be okay. But I can't, it's to much. I need everything to stop. I heard Emily's voice.
"JJ please just open the door and talk to me, or not talk at all and we can just watch a movie"
I can't do this to her. She may have taken the blade but the rest of the razor is still in here. I broke it more and grabbed another blade out.
"JJ please just open the door, please, I love you JJ, you're my best friend and I need you"
I needed to do this, for me. I've tried to be happy but I haven't been in months and I don't think I ever will be again. I took the blade and cut deeply into the wrist all the way up.
"JJ if you don't open this door in 3 seconds I'm breaking the door down"
"3"
"2"
"1"
Emily's kicks the door in and finds me on the floor.
"JJ WHAT THE HELL DID YOU DO"
Emily was crying hard now as she grabbed her phone to call 911. She grabbed the towel off the floor and wrapped my arm up.
"I need an ambulance at 2853 Auburn Avenue apartment 34 my friend tried to kill herself, please hurry she slit her wrist. I have a towel wrapped around her arm but she is still losing a lot of blood"
"Emily just let me go"
"NO JJ, I can't do that, I love you so much I can't lose you"
That's the last thing JJ heard before everything went black.
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