Don't give up on me
One-fifth of the million dollars selling boyband is missing. And has been since their gig in their hometown. Where has he gone? Who has taken him? Or did he just vanished on his own
The remaining four are trying to piece it tog...
This funny feeling I had a month ago was still around. I had this feeling of someone watching me. Everywhere I went there was that feeling. But nothing was there nobody was there. But I felt it. Now it's driving me crazy. Even own my brother Jon thought I was mad. We are to start practising and rehearsing for Merriweather and Fenway Park. Which means travelling out of Boston and meeting up with everyone. Not good when I have a horrible feeling. We decided on New York for Donnie and his show but then Jon is near for his too. Joe is back this side of the country again as he kept swapping from New York and LA. I'm travelling down with Jon.
Jon and I got to Logan airport to catch our plane. I guess even with masks on. The fans could tell it's us. It doesn't help that I'm sporting a big Starbucks cup in my hand waiting for the gate to our plane. Like we do anyways, we stop to chat and take selfies with the fans. Because we are doing that we missed our call for our plane. So both Jon and I leg it to the gate to board our plane. Sometimes we take the train but we are taking the plane this time. We sit down in the seats waiting to board our plane.
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"You alright, J?".
" Yeah. Why?".
"About a certain feeling".
" Feel fine here. Don't feel anything".
"So you're not going mad then" Jon laughs.
"Hmph".
It was soon time to board the plane. And in a couple of hours, we were landing in JFK for intense rehearsals. Get back in shape. Back into New Kids shape. On to the hotel where we will be for the time here.
The next day we were locked in a dance studio for practice. We haven't danced in two years. Body don't fail me now. Hope the knees hold out too. We are half still in a pandemic, that's why we haven't done anything for two years. Why I am carrying some post lockdown weight. I don't cope well without the guys, the band really my friends. I am not feeling this and it's not because of the strange feeling I had at home but more due to my Performance Anxiety. I haven't performed in two years and anxious thoughts run through my mind. Am I going to mess up, forget the lyrics to the songs, mess up the dance routines? I have horrible stage fright that does disappear when I start to perform. Everyone forgets about my problems as they only think Jon is the one with the problem. They don't think I have a problem. They think I have an attitude problem went I go quiet and shy. I am very shy even more so than Jon.
At the moment I am standing away from the others as they hug each other for the first time. We are all wearing masks at the moment. But once we are in our bubble we will remove them.
" Jordan why are you standing over there. It's hug time" replies Joe as he leaps at me.
"Joe get off me" as he hugs me.
"Nope you need a hug. I heard about all the nasty feelings you have had in Boston. I can feel you now wanting to run away". He hugs me harder. " You need this more than everyone. You don't seem your happy goofy self".
