Move On

She shut the third journal and wiped away the tears, they weren't lying, Oliver really had talked to them about having a poly relationship, but he wanted time with her at the same time. He was torn on being selfish but also wanting her to be with all of them at the same time. She wanted to be mad at Oliver for not telling her the truth but at the same time she so cherished the time she had with him.

She crawled into the window seat and sighed she was so confused. She knew she use to talk to Oliver about having a home with all five of them, but she never thought about having a relationship with the other four like she had with Oliver. She honestly thought she would never see them again after the funeral, so it surprised her when she woke up in the hospital after the wreck to find all four of them in her room. She had to admit they constantly surprised her by being there every single time she called them needing help. At times she felt ridiculous for depending on them so much and feared the day they would not be there, so she was so grateful every single time they proved her worries wrong.

She heard her door open so she turned to see who it was, "Luv," Michael whispered as he came into the room and saw the tear streaks on her face. "Oh Luv," he sighed as he rushed to her side. "What's wrong? Please talk to me, talk to us."

"I miss him so much," She burst into tears and he pulled her into his arms then slowly eased down to the floor so he could hold her in his lap.

"We know," he whispered as he saw the other three come into her room. "We miss him too, Luv."

"It's not fair," She sobbed as she started hitting him. "It's so unfair that you..." She gasped and started sobbing even harder while hitting him weakly.

"Tell us, Boo," William said as he rubbed her back. "Tell us everything." She shook her head and he gently pushed, "tell us what you want to say, we won't hold it against you one bit."

"LIAR!" She shouted as she pushed away from him and stood. "You will hate me for it, you will leave and I will never see you again!"

"That's not true Girly and you know it," David said coming over to her. "We will never leave you."

"You don't know that!" She shoved him. "Oli promised to never leave me and he did!"

"Not by choice," Stephen told her. "If he could he would be here with us and you know that."

"But he's not!" She shouted as she shoved David again. "He's not here and he's never coming back!"

"We hurt too Luv," Michael said softly. "We're mad he's not with us, we loved him too."

"But you got to be with him and I couldn't!" She finally admitted shoving Stephen as he took a step to her. "You got to say goodbye and I hate you for it! I hate all of you! Get away from me! I don't want to see you again!" She shouted as she fell to the floor and broke into sobs again. "I want my husband! I want my Oli! I want Oli!"

David sat in front of her and hugged her while rubbing her back. "I know Girly, I know. We wish he could be here with us. It's not fair one bit and we are so sorry we couldn't bring him back home to you."

"It's not fair!" She shouted as she tried to hit him and he just let her. "He left me and I want him home!"

"It's not fucking fair one bit," Stephen rubbed her back. "We want him with us also."

"I'm going to lose you also," She tried pushing away from them. "You are going to go back over there and leave me just like him and not come back."

"No we aren't," William shook his head. "We aren't going to reenlist, Boo. Once our time is up, we are retiring, we aren't going to leave you."

"You don't know that!" She shouted shaking her head. "He promised he wouldn't leave me and he did! You can't promise something you don't know."

"We are so sorry he couldn't keep his promise, Luv," Michael said, "If he could've he wouldn't have left you or us. He would be here with us if he could. He loved all of us so much, you know that."

"I'm sorry I said I hated you," She said trying to calm down, "I didn't mean it I promise, I'm so sorry I just miss him so much."

"We know Munchkin," Stephen said softly. "We know you just said it out of anger and hurt. We didn't believe it one bit."

"I'm so sorry," She broke down, "I didn't mean it. I didn't mean to hit, I just...I just..."

"We know," Stephen tried to reassure her.

"I wan Daddy," She sobbed as she clung to David. "I wan Daddy!"