A Part Of It (Avengers)

Chapter 48

"Are you actually kidding me? So to kill all those stupid agents is fine but to kill one of the worst is not okay?" I asked him, and that's when my attention was taken off the Hydra agent, but I was brutally brought back when I felt a gunshot come through me and gasps all around, I looked down seeing blood coming out of my side and instantly I can feel that this one will be a pain in the ass to regenerate, before I was able to do anything we all heard a crack.

As I turned around, I see Bucky his arms around the guy's neck, cracking it, leaving the guy dead on the floor, before I start to pass out due to dizziness and the blood loss. I could regenerate but not as fast as for a small cut, it was a bullet wound, and God knew what organ it had touched. 

I just felt everyone come rushing towards me and arms picking me up, I could feel and smell Bucky's sent and I knew I was in his arms.

"You better work this out Fury, this should've never happened!" I heard Steve say as Nat was helping Clint go to the medical bay too due to his gunshot and Sam and Loki were helping Maria and the other agents who had been unconscious. 

"My cousin would be far better off living and staying in Asgard, do not make the same mistake twice Director, you might not like the consequences of your actions, or in this case the lack of actions." Loki said menacingly,

"I am going to check on Aly." said Wanda, it was the last thing I heard before falling into unconsciousness, trying to get my body to work fast on the healing, but for now I would just take a nap, I was drained. 

I woke up to what felt like a 30 minute nap later, but seeing a very asleep Bucky next to me I could only conclude that either I had been here a while or he was as exhausted as me and fell asleep. I looked under the cover only to see me in my sports bra and a big bandage around my ribcage. The white bandage was tainted by a very light crimson red, I would guess that I had lost a good amount of blood. I heard moving around next to me so I looked over and Bucky was starting to wake up,

"Hi." I tell him, noticing my voice was quiet hoarse, he immediately grabbed the bottle of water that was sitting next to the bed and handed it to me, without a word, I drank a bit of it and placed it next to me on the bed.

"So how long was I out for this time?" I asked him trying to light up the mood and that's when I actually realised that he was crying, I instantly tried to move, which was kind of painful for a second but I brushed it off. I sat now facing him, my hands on each side of his face,

"Bucky what's wrong, talk to me please?" I ask, I was starting to panic a bit and I didn't know what to do, I didn't even know if my powers had healed me enough, but by the light sting I felt I could practically be sure that it was on its way to heal,

"I- It's all my fault." he said moving his face from my hands and putting his head in his hands, he looked completely distressed and I didn't know what to do at all, 

"Buck, hey James, look at me." I tell him, but  he wasn't moving,

"James Buchanan Barnes, look at me." and slowly but surely he looked up at me, eyes full of tears,

"Whatever it is you think you did or caused, throw that idea away. As far as I know everyone is fine, so don't worry." I tell him with a firm voice, he was finally bringing his breathing back to normal,

"I don't know what happened M, I just froze, it's like... everything they ever did to me was coming back to haunt me and seeing him was- I don't even have words. It was traumatising." he tells me as his breath hitched, I instantly got up and sat in the chair next to him, giving him a side hug, trying to comfort him in some way,

"But then all my fears vanished, all the memories of what they had done to me vanished the second he shot you. Nothing mattered besides you. You were trying to protect me and to save me and you did, in so many ways, but I wasn't even able to see him take his gun out. I am so mad at myself, you could've died." he says and puts his head back in his hands gripping his hair tightly. My heart was aching I really didn't want him to feel bad it wasn't his fault, I know how it is to be traumatised and completely paralysed when your biggest fear comes back to haunt you,