If Only

Twenty Nine

For some undeniable reason, I don't think I'd be able to live without her. I don't know how to feel about her in ways, I couldn't explain what I was feeling for her

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Charlotte Crawford

I don't know when I fell asleep on the couch but I did. I was woken by a knock on the door at 2 in the morning as I sat up and following in pursuit was Belle

"Who the fuck is here" Gwen groaned "a girl needs her sleep fuck off" she grumbled

Belle sighed, dragging herself to the door in her bunny pajamas. I was in a ratty old Columbia t-shirt from my first year it was loose and fit perfectly around my bump

I felt my eyes dampen when I placed a hand on my stomach. I loved him, I was carrying his child and-

"Belle is she here" his voice rang through my ears but it wasn't his normal one, it was more broken

But why should I care, he's a cheater, a liar

"I don't know what you are talking about?" Fuck Belles a terrible liar

"I know she's here Belle, Meg told me she was" Meg? Why the fuck would she do that

Traitor by Olivia Rodrigo should be blasting right now! Because that's how I felt

"You have a lot of balls to show up here, you cheat on my big sister, my pregnant big sister and you waltz right in acting as if you owned the place . Well your charms ain't gonna work for me I despise-"

He gently moved her out of the way and entered to see me curled up in covers, my face stained with tears on her couch "Charlie, I did not cheat on you. God I'd never cheat on you, do you know how special you are to me?"

"Okay you're right! You didn't cheat on me" I chuckled in pain "so you kissing some other girl isn't cheating"

"I did not kiss, her she kissed me. She leaned on me to be correct I had a shit business deal my mind was a flur-"

"Who the fuck are you" Gwen groaned her eyes shut exhausted "dude can we not it's two in the morning" she stood shoving him aside not even looking at him stomping into her room

"Continue, on how you didn't-"

"She came into my office and caught me off guard, I was waiting for you to come. Because I knew one way or another seeing you would make me feel better after the shit day I had. Charlotte I have people who hate me, want me dead and would do anything to get that" he began to pace, who wanted him dead?

"But I'd never let them touch you, ever. You are the most important person in my life and you think I'd throw it all away from some slut of a secretary I have. I feel sorry for that woman, she's gone I fired her for sexual harassment" I couldn't help but feel uneasy by his statements I didn't know the truth

I watched as Belle stepped into her room to give us space "I explained to Megan and she told me you were here"

"Because you know Grace would be inaudible" he took a seat next to me placing a hand on my thigh "I wouldn't purposely do anything to hurt or damage us, you know that" I removed his hand scotching back from him