"No! This is wrong!"{BSD}

What was I thinking? What came out of my mouth?
The silver haired male rushed through the floods of people before making his way home and slamming the apartment door shut. Breathing heavily he sighed tears still falling from his eyes. I always mess things up. He weeped only to still feel a burn mark on his neck and he squinted grunting at the flaring sensation boiling at his neck. "Agh!" His breathing grew hot and he could feel his stomach turn.
It was like that for 30 minutes before his sudden burning came to a stop and he made his way to the bathroom to find a strange red flower of some sort growing onto his skin at the left side of his neck like some sort of engraving.

"What...what is this..?" Atsushi's voice quivering.
Looking at himself in the mirror.
A pattern of flowers attached to vines like some sort of tattoo with fallen petals. The silver haired male seemed mesmerized by the beautiful weeds on his body he snapped himself out of daze.
"What am I supposed to do about this..."
He thought about Dazai and Chuuya and could feel his stomach turn more. The turning slowly turning into a nauseous feeling and he hovered his face over the toilet saliva climaxing out of his mouth along with red petals. "Heaaaghhhh!" Atsushi gagged. Spitting out flowers and petals of red. Tears seeped from his eyes. "Haaah...haaaah..." Shit...

"Chuuya!" The brunette called out following his frantic lover chasing him. "CHUUYA!" the ginger came to a stop. "FUCK!" The brunette hesitated startled by his lovers sudden outburst. "DAMMIT DAZAI WHAT ARE WE SUPPOSED TO DO?!"
Dazai frowned his eyes softening as he looked up at Chuuya with confusion. "I-don't know either...I was surprised that Atsushi felt that way but what do we do? Of course he's important to us but...I mean we don't feel that way with him do we? It's not right that is..." Chuuya sighed and hugged his chocolate haired lover tightly. "It's better for all of us if we don't accept his confession. Besides if he gets mixed up into our mess who knows what harm could happen to him." Dazai nodded resting his head on Chuuya shoulder. "Hm. Your right."

The next day Atsushi came in with bandages wrapped around his neck. His eyes looked puffed and his cheeks were bright pink. He sat at his desk to file a report when suddenly his screen faded black and he leaped from his chair to find the issue scanning his computer. That is until he found the unplugged wire in the grip of his green eyed companion. "Wanna tell me what happened Atsushi." The green eyed detective asked his silver haired friend with a stern voice. Atsushi sighed taking a deep breathe. Before he could speak a voice called out to him. He looked up to der Dazai and Chuuya and he could already tell what was going to happen next. He stood from his seat and made his way towards the two where the three stood in the hallway. "Atsushi we want you to understand—"
"I'm sorry!" Atsushi bowed before the two causing them to hesitate. "It was stupid of me to say those things out of nowhere but that day I was on medication so I wasn't myself. So I'm sorry! Whatever happened yesterday think nothing of it."

Atsushi stood normally holding his composure and he smiled at the two brightly his eyes feeling heavy.
"Please think nothing of it." He walked down the hall and towards the bathroom. It seemed like no one was in there so he locked the door and quickly ran to a stall slamming the stall door open and gaging instantly over the toilet. He spat out petal after petal and a burning sensation grew further from his neck to his shoulder. "Haaaaaghhhk! Haaah...hah...heughggkh!" Tears formed from his eyes and he squinted finding it harder to breathe the inside of his neck aching vividly. "Haaah...haah..." he started breathing more normally. "I deserve this..."

I̷̡̱͖̺̖̭̙͇̽͋n̴͕̤̭̈́̐͒̉́͋̈̆͝ḑ̴͎͇̲̮̗̜͚̈́̓͜͜e̶̡̝̩̙̬̯̯͙͛ͅê̶̤͋̆͒͆̉̓͒̕̚ḑ̴̺̻̲̠͇̪̖͉̇̍̚ ̴̡̼̯͔̜̂̊̆̀͊́͝ẇ̸̤ę̶̫̱̲͎͎̆͆̾r̶͖͙̻͚͓̻͇̎̀̈̆͂̓́̈́̇̚e̸̢̨̼̘̤̪͇̖͊̑̉̿̾̂̀ͅͅ-̵͎͉̽̑̿̒̃͑̓͊t̴̰͙̀͑̆̀̋͝͠ị̸̫͇̙̺̤̻̺̜͕̀̋͋̚͘͠g̶̳͉̍̔͑͌̈́̓͗̈́̈́è̵͔͉͕̫̯̈́͠r̸͎̫̒͆̓̕...̸̪͕͚̫̜̪͚͍̮̭͂̐̌̄͘this twisted fate is yet the cruelest of your punishment. YOU WILL ONLY DESERVE MORE FROM HERE ON OUT.

It was like Atsushi wasn't himself. He blankly stood and flushed the toilet making his way to wash his hands and wrap better the loosen bandage wraps around his neck. He then unlocked the bathroom door and made his way back to Kunikida. "Hey..is it ok if I take the day off I'm not feeling well." Kunikida examined Atsushi closely and he nodded with a hint of worry. "Yeah..maybe get some rest and I'll see you tomorrow if your better. You need to take care of yourself to perform your task with excellent outcomes." Atsushi laughed a little and made his way out. But as he walked Ranpo noticed a mysterious fade to Atsushi's eyes and he squinted the grip he had on his chair tightening. "Hm? Ranpo you seem irritated is everything alright?" The blonde gentleman checked. "Yeah...I just have a bad feeling..."

Atsushi made his way out of the armed detective agency and he walked along the side walk running into Akutagawa who gave him a scowl look. But Atsushi just smiled and continued his way confusing the large dog. "WERE-TIGER are you picking a fight?" Akutagawa growled. But Atsushi just gave a cold look within an intent of murder causing Akutagawa to falter back. He stared deeply into Atsushi's cold pale eyes feeling a sense of anxiety build up something Atsushi didn't have power over.
"Didn't Dazai teach you to watch your mouth you mutt. A mysterious voice followed
" R̸͓̭̜̠̦̿͑u̵̖͍̓̄̐̍̾̋͝n̴̢̖̰̞̺̰̥̱̭̺̐ ̶͉̖̖͔͉̪͈̔̈́̒̿͂̿͘͜b̵̢̢͖̺̭̟͋͐̎̚å̴͎͍͍͇͓̕͝ͅc̷̥̭͖͍̺̰̃͑͜͠k̵̝͎͕̪̞̣̗̯̽̀̂́͆ ̶͖̰̍̂̄̑͝t̸̡̥͙̥̖͈̎̈́͐͌́ͅo̷̦̞̳̽͛ͅ ̴̡̢̹̘͓̣͙͎̿̂ͅy̶̢͉̟͉̜̘̲̦̦͆̀̇̆̒̿͠o̷̙̓̎̃̎̈́͝u̶̠̻̯̐̔͊̓̈͋͋̈r̵̜͈̮͎̩͓̻̰̃̀̈́̆̍́̾͘͘ ̴̖͌͒̑̌̈́̇̚m̷͙̺͉̳͆͐̊̊͊̈̍̍̚͝a̸̢͉̘̙̞̱̒̅͑́̽̄͑͛́͠ś̶̱͍͉̻̻̐̈͒͊͘t̶͇͚̑̈́̊̂͐̆͌͒̿͝ě̵͇̩̘̽͘ͅr̸̡̈̉̊̇͑̃̄̊ ̵̢͓͇͇̝̪̽́̈D̵̲̖̺̰̖͛̓̑̽͊̏͝Ò̴͈̭̯͜G̶̹̺̹̀͂̏̌̀̃."  Akutagawa knew something wasn't right and he leaped over the building to make his escape. "Pathetic." Atsushi laughed. "Disaster has only just begun."

Present time:

It's been over 2 months since Atsushi disappeared Ranpo still hasn't given up and looked day and night dark circles forming under green emerald eyes. Dazai and Chuuya stressed increased more confused on where Atsushi could have gone. Kunikida is upset and deep in thought with himself how he couldn't notice what was going on with Atsushi. Akiko is unstable and hasn't left the clinic room since then.
"We're not getting anywhere!" The brunettes outburst echoed through the whole office room.