Where Your Loyalties Lie - {Severus Snape x Reader}

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There is this... Anger, in me that I can not explain. I feel so betrayed. Deceived. I hate this. If there is any way to make him feel physically as bad as I'm feeling from the inside, I could go back to my chamber and feed my niffler in peace. I hate this! Different kind of colored spells keeps flashing and gets tossed around. I HATE..- All of sudden, Severus grabs me by the wrist I'm holding the wand in and brings his whole body close to mine. Heart escapes to my throat by the surprise. Eyes wide, I stare back into his black eyes, all frozen. You. It appears that he had made his way to me while blocking the spells. I was just so blinded by anger I didn't see he was getting closer and closer. Too stunned to speak, my lips apart and I try to stutter something out. Severus keeps his hand around my wrist while staring down at me. Not saying a word.

Everyone around us looks confused. Even Moody himself is speechless. Then, they all turn to the Defence Against the Dark Arts teacher. He quickly clears his throat:"Well, guess we could call that a draw. Thank you, Professors. You are dismissed.". Can feel how the grip around my wrist loosens, so I quickly break the touch between us and walk away from him. The Potions Master stands there for yet another moment, watching me getting further away. Merlin, that was embarrassing!!! Got so quickly out of there I even forgot to take my cape with me. With fast steps, I head towards the chamber. I need to go and calm myself down. "(Y/N)." Snape's stern voice echoes behind me other side of the hallway. Pretending like I didn't hear him, so I just keep on walking. Hoping he would leave me alone. I can't face him - or anyone right now!

About to walk faster, he uses the Apparate spell and appears right in front of me. Our bodies almost brush against each other. My eyes goes wide and I freeze. Didn't think he would ever pull that move. He's looking down on me with some anger mixed in his eyes. "We need to talk." he growls, voice oozing authority. Without even trying, my head shakes its own:"No we don't.". Try to walk past him, but he blocks the way. He stands there like a tree:"(Y/N).". There is no way I can look him directly in the eyes, not after what just happened out there. "There is nothing to talk about." I answer while having my gaze down. It angers him more. "Listen here..-" Snape grabs me by the chin and forces me to look up, directly in his eyes. "No!" I push him away, but he won't give up. Then, he holds onto my arm and does the Apparate spell again. Only this time, he brings us both to the Potions classroom.

As soon as the spinning stops, Snape swing his wand and the door to the class shuts. "What the hell?!" I hiss. Right after that he casts another spell at the door:"Myffliato.". That was one of the Half Blood Prince's spells. He then turns to me, looking so angry:"Now sit your arrogant arse down!". "NO! I am not going to stay here and listen more of your lies!" I exclaim. "When have I ever lied to you?" he raised his voice, sounding offended. "Oh, I dunno. Not telling me how you are the Half Blood Prince?!" I snap back. We stare each other in pause. Looks like he got a bit off guard, but quickly composes:"It is not my fault if that damaged brain of yours didn't get it in the first place.". "Hah! So now it's my fault?" I frown. "Don't change the subject!" he snap back. How on earth did we get into this kind of situation?! All I can feel is anxious, frustration, sadness and this one feeling I can't describe. All I know it's driving me crazy!

Snape starts lecturing:"What you did out there - at the Great Hall, is no way to act in front of students. Do you have any idea how you made us look like?!". I have arms crossed over my chest and gaze down as he keeps on fuming. Finally, I have enough of this. All of it. "You could get in trouble because of this, (Y/N)!" he huffs. Lift my eyes on him with stern stare:"That is for Dumbledore's to decide.". His eyes widens for a split second. Perhaps he didn't expect that kind of answer from me. After a small pause he asks in way more calm manner:"Don't you even care?". Almost sounding defeated. Then, I shut my eyes and shook head:"I don't even understand why I'm even having this conversation with you.". Right after that, I start storming towards the door. Severus won't move a muscle. "Because you like me." he simply answer. Huh?