Where Your Loyalties Lie - {Severus Snape x Reader}

The whole way up to the Headmaster's Office I kept following Snape couple meters behind. While watching the long cape trailing behind him, I can just feel my heart raising. I feel so nervous and quilt starts creeping in what I did. The silence isn't helping either! Then again, what else I was supposed to do?! Urgh! My Hufflepuff heart can't handle this!! My mind keeps going from 'it's okay, I got nothing to worry about' to 'nope, he's definitely going to kill me'. I just wish I'd be quick and painless. When we finally arrive there, Snape keeps on walking deeper into the room as I stop in middle of it. Right away, I start looking around from where I stand. Everything looks pretty much the same in the office. Or at least I can't notice anything different in here. It's almost like Dumbledore never left.

Snape's smooth and dangerously calm voice brings me back from my thoughts:"Heard you had a little... Altercation earlier today with our Dark Arts teacher.". My body tenses up a bit when he speaks and head snaps right towards him. He's so calm about this. I don't like it. When he gets near the big desk, he finally turns to me:"Care to enlighten me with your own words what really went down in the girls bathroom?". He continues to stand beside the desk and won't sit down. I do a small gulp before answering with serious tone:"I did what I had to. Amycus had no right running in to the girls bathroom like that.". "(Y/N), you are aware the Carrows are the ones who gives the discipline when needed. Running into the bathroom won't get you out of trouble. If anything, it'll make things worse..." he tells. "I dare to disagree, sir." I reply back sternly, standing my ground. "Really? How so?" he keeps staring at me with those dark eyes, waiting for me to continue. He clearly doesn't know... Or he just doesn't care.

Then, I start telling him what happened, keeping my tone stern and professional. To avoid Headmaster's intense eye contact at the same time, I start calmly wandering around the first level of the office, looking all the different pieces on the shelves and tables I never really had the time to look at whenever I have visited here. As I tell him what Amycus might have had in his mind when he ran after the student like that, the look on Snape's face stiffens. Bet Amycus left that important detail to tell. But when I get to the part where Amycus used the Unforgivable Curse on me and what his intentions were going to be, the look on Snape's eyes changed into darker one. Almost like the darkness itself consumed him. "So excuse you, if I defended the student and myself." I scoff while I'm about to touch the golden cabinet in the corner that has always fascinated me.

When he notices this, he comes back from the dark place:"Please keep your hands to yourself, (Y/N). We mustn't touch what isn't ours.". I stop the movement of my finger just before getting in touch with the cabinet. Snape then shifts his eyes from the cabinet back to me:"Why didn't you come straight to me when it happened?". "Well, believe it or not, you haven't been the most trust worthy lately..." I roll my eyes as taking a step away from the cabinet. No answer. The silence descends into the room. I finally raise my gaze up to him, heart raising. "Why did you do it?" I dare to ask. I'm not sure if I really wanna hear the answer. But I know I need to know. The look on his face won't change as he answers with the monotonic tone:"I was... Following orders.". Of course. Crossing arms over my chest, unsure if I'm satisfied by the answer he gave me. So he really is Voldemort's pet.

Another silence visits in the room. Now that I look at him... I notice how tired he looks. Like he hasn't slept good for days. And if I'm not terribly mistaken, seems that he has lost some weight too. I collect some bravery to ask the question that has been on my mind very long time:"Why didn't you tell me..- That you are one of them?". No answer. "I..-" the words gets stuck in my throat, but calm down my nerves and end up gain the courage to tell him:"I really thought you were someone I could trust, Severus.". No answer. Why is it always like this? Always the silence... I'm tired of this. I let out slightly frustrated sigh and turn my back on him as I'm about to walk out:"Like I'm speaking to Whomping Willow here.". Can't even take two full steps when Snape quickly turns into the black smoke and whooshes right in front of me, looking angry. Immediately I stop walking and watch the man eyes wide out of surprise. "I'm not done with you." he growls. Is this the part where I die?!