Hidden Within

Monday:

I practiced acting sick hoping that no one could pick on my voice, put on a mask to hide my face now that I shaved it clean, wrapped my breasts again and wore my clothes. My breasts seemed like they have slightly grown as well as it became even more difficult to breath.

I left for university, a lot of people on the street mistook me for a girl today, more than usual, or rather knew I was a girl. I tried walking more manlier to make up for how my body looks now. When I arrived at the lecture room I sat at the very back. As soon as I sat down I noticed Mackie come into the room directly locking eye contact with me. She came and stood by me.

"Can I sit beside you?" She asked, I knew she wasn't gonna let me off the hook easily and that she'll push for answers today. I nodded and moved slightly to the side to give her room to sit.

"What's with the mask?" She asked.

"I'm (cough) sick today (cough)" I answered with the most hoarse voice I could do.

"Sick hmm?" She murmuered. As she stared at my hips and thighs then back to the front.

She positioned herself weirdly keeping our hips touching which I didn't understand why. I tried giving her more room but she was like glued onto me.

Thankfully We only had this lecture today, so I was preparing myself to leave. As soon as the tutor left the room, I stood up to leave.

"You're coming with me first!" She held my hand and headed outside with me. "Rama follow us!" She told Rama who was already on her way to catch up to us. I was trying to break free but couldn't.

She took me to the rooftop where no one would be, I knew exactly what was happening, I was prepared that she would face me immediately.

"You could try to fool me, you may fool everyone but not me! I gave you the chance to tell us yourself, but now, I will finally say what's with you! You've become a girl haven't you? In fact you've been changing for a couple of weeks now haven't you?" She said almost with pride.

"What?! No way he is! I mean yes he is a bit smaller than he was a month ago but that doesn't mean that he's a girl now! He's just sick or something, right??" Rama asked and looked at me.

"Well Zack?" Mackie put a hand on my chest. "You may wrap these, you may hide behind baggy clothes, but these hips." She put her hands on my hips "they don't lie my friend! They were clearly growing for the past few weeks, and I sat today extremely close to you in a way so that exposed them for me." She said with a smile. "And also" she removed my mask, I didn't resist much. "Look at that face and tell me it's not feminine"

I returned her smile, "I was tired of fighting and acting anyways, yep.. I've become a girl, and like you said, I have been changing slowly for the past month or so. And just this morning I had become fully female." I confessed with a bitter smile and I could see a small hint of shock as I spoke on her face.

"Wha! Your voice! You sound girly! Wait what?! How and why?!" Rama was shocked.

"I don't know and I don't know. This just suddenly started happening." I shrugged.

"It was a bit after the thing with that stress thing with the watch right?" Mackie asked.

"The change? After a couple of weeks. The stress? For much longer. Actually the stressometer was 100% correct back then." I answered, for some reason I started feeling my emotions welling up and I felt like crying. "I... I don't know... It's been... A difficult few years.." I was now fighting the tears with a pained smile.

"Are you alright?" Rama asked concerned.

"Am I alright?" I smiled. "No... I haven't been alright for like two years now..." Hearing my voice now like this almost cracking up made things even worse. "Can you.. under..stand.. ne-nevermind.." I felt like if I say any other word I'd break down in tears, I've never been one to cry in front of anyone and rarely alone, but now I was on the verge of crying, I felt like everything that's been welling up inside me has come crashing in my mind, the abuse, the stress, mom's health, feeling disconnected with everything and everyone. Just every bad moment came flashing in my mind.