was it my fault I was born?

Before 8 years:

"Ugh just what is seriously wrong with this girl" Axel says as he looks so annoyed after I broke the vase

It's been 5 years now since I was born
No one actually treated me as a 5 years old kid. my whole 5 years of a life I never heard my brothers saying something nice to me .

The sentence I've been hearing from the day of my birth till now is 'you killed our mother'

Mother? I dont even know her? How is it possible that I killed her?

"Everyone come here at once" I hear Edward's scary demanding voice
I know he'll be mad if I'm late so I rush to him even though I stepped on some pieces of glass that cut through my foot

All my brothers where gathered around the table looking so serious

"Bell" Edward says in his creepy cold voice

"Yesh?" I answer. I still have some mistakes at pronunciation since I never went to preschool or got educated as a kid.

"From now on you'll go to a boarding school" I look around and all my brothers looked relaxed except Elijah who looked somehow irritated.

"What ish boading school?" I ask innocently.

"Its a school where you live in, Sleep in and everything. you dont come home"
I hear Alex saying

"But me duwanna...?" I say starting to get worried

"Its not a choice it's a punishment dumbass" Asher says being mean as always.

"You'll be staying there for some years till you become mature." Edward says and he looks like he's not gonna argue more so I dont say anything.

In the evening all my stuff were packed, I held my pink teddy bear so tightly waiting outside in the cold storm and rain.

The car arrived Edward left my hand and gave it to the woman that came out of the car. I felt like I want to hug him before I leave so I just wanted to move back before the woman pushed me roughly

"W-wait m-me onwy-!" I rushed out of her hands and hugged Edward, he doesn't hug me back....I start crying while the woman pulls me off him her long nails digging in my skin through my cloth.

"Bwother I dont wanna go I pwomise I be better giwl I pwomise" I cried more until he took my hand off him if like hes disgusted and the woman pushed me into the car.  

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"Bell! You little brat come here!" I hear Bianca yelling from the kitchen. I come running.

"Y-y-yes?" I shudder...as always.

"WHY DOES IT ALWAYS HAVE TO TAKE YOU SO MUCH TIME TO ANSWER" she yells more and pulls out her stick and starts hitting me with it everywhere until I'm bleeding and bruised.

"GO GET VEGETABLES NOW! AND AFTER THAT CLEAN THE BARN AND CLASS 'A'!" She orders as her voice echoed through the kitchen.

"U-u-understood" I take the basket and walk out of the school heading to the street vendors where many food stalls were standing.

I look around smelling the warm scent of food. I dont get any proper meals there at the school after my brothers cut my school payment and after then Madam Elizabeth offered to let me work as a maid at the school because I dont have any other place to go to.

I don't really know why my brothers suddenly stopped paying for my school....maybe they forgot about me
I dont know...but I'm sure they might have a reason for it, right?.