was it my fault I was born?

Ace's pov:

I woke up slightly feeling the door we're leaning on open.

Bell was snuggled into my shoulder.

I slowly look up to see Edward looking so damn exhausted looking at me.

He had some blood on his hands too.

"Ace.. Elijah needs you in there..." he said in a low voice, I've never seen him this exhausted except in dads funeral.

"Yeah..." I say.

I move Bell slightly off my shoulder to lean on Silas instead.

I get up walking in.

I wince when I see both, Asher and Axel laying on the bed like that connected to breathing machines, Elijah working on their injuries, his lab coat drained with blood.

"Ace.." Elijah looks up to me, he can barely walk.

"They lost a lot of blood... and you're the only one who match their blood type.. Asher got shot on his chest an inch away from a main artery.. he lost more blood than Axel, but Axel is weaker, he got shot below his liver..." Elijah explains.

I nod walking towards the two of them caressing their heads slightly.

We don't talk much.. I mean as brothers.

We used to when we were little, I would always play with them both.. it was fun back then.. but after everything we don't.. act like brothers anymore, and I just realized how much I regret that.
the moment I thought I'd loose them when they both stumbled into the house bleeding that much, I couldn't bare the thought.. they're little, both of them didn't finish highschool yet, they can't die..

"Can you Ace?" Elijah asks.

I raise my sleeve up to my shoulder.

"Any time.."

Elijah smiles lightly grabbing two tubes connecting the needles into each of my arms then to their arms.

"He's a blood fountain now." Alex joked.

I huf a laugh.

"Does it hurt?" Elijah asks, I shake my head.
"Just a bit uncomfortable.."

"If you get dizzy or anything tell me." He said again and I nod.

Bell would never understand why we can't take them to the hospital right now, regarding how bad their injuries are.

Edward sat on a chair, leaning his head back.

I never understood why we stopped acting like brothers. After mom died we became so close, we didn't play as much anymore, but we held each other close every day.

Asher and Axel would come to my room in the night because they miss mom, they were too young to understand. But they understood that they've lost someone important.

After that when dad died.. we no longer talked together.

Bell was small back then, very small.. I remember how she couldn't walk a few steps before falling.

I remember watching her in her room play alone, when Silas sneaks in to play with her.

I remember the day she left.

Edward ran after her to put her in the car to leave, she ran to me and hugged me tight crying so bad, she called me brother despite the fact that she couldn't pronounce well.

I remember when I pushed her back to Edward and went away.

When I watched her through the window.. that woman digging her nails into Bells arm while she was just trying to hug Edward.

Silas.. Silas was just 3 when mom died..
He was always forgotten.. we never gave care to him, we just never... we never showed love to him.

And when he turned 14 he started leaving home the whole time, we never got to see him, we never got to eat at the same table with him.

He would go around all day, he would sleep at his friend's houses, he traveled all the time from place to place.

Edward hated that.. he was just so worried about him.

Just as what happened today could've happened to him too.

Silas and Axel had some illness ever since they were born.

They weren't as strong as us.

Axel in fact accepted that, he never wanted to be involved in what we did anyways, he wanted to become a professor, just like mom.

But Silas wouldn't accept that.

He didn't want to. He wanted to be normal.
He never accepted the fact that he can't fight as we do, that he can't use his fists as we do.

He wanted to be strong.

That's why he always had beef with Edward, Edward wanted him to stay with us and rest as he should.

He even once tapped all the windows and doors so he won't go, instead he ran away from the fireplace opening.

Meanwhile Alex... we don't know much about him.
He dosen't talk much and he always had that frown on his face.

He scares me more than Edward some times..

But I know he's kind.. he got me a cookie a while ago..

I mean.. he got very much softer after Bell came back back, he smiles and talks at least.

It's been around 8 months since Bell came back to us...
And I'll admit, we all grew a soft side for her from the first couple of months.
Especially after the incident.

Silas who never sat at home has been here for 8 months without leaving as usual.

Edward changed so much.. I feel like he's getting back to normal, since he's the most one that got the closest to Bell.

Elijah has always been nice, but now he's even more nice.

Axel who has never talked much and has anger issues is softer now.

Me too.. the one who locked her up in the dark room in the fist days she came back home, i can't believe I did that though...

Bell changed us so much.. all we needed was Bell.