I see something you don't

Izuku POV

A loud banging sounds in my ears. Every single pooch is as if the whole world around me is shaking my eyes are closed I slowly open one eye and then the other to make sure I'm seeing exactly what's in front of me. It's so strange.

There's nothing in front of me.

I blink several times. Have I gone blind? And what is this banging? But it can't be. I can see my eyelashes. I can see my nose. I can see my body. I can see my hands. I can see everything except the environment around me. Then I realize something else. Have I woken up because I've been awake all this time. How long have I been here right now. I'm not lying down. The moment I opened my eyes, I was already on my feet. I ask myself to go down but there is nothing under me. It is like I am in a black void.

I scream out loud.

But my voice is swallowed up I feel the words, shouts, screams coming out of my mouth, but there is nothing to hear. Have I gone deaf? But I can hear this banging it is very fast just like my heart. I put my hand on my chest on the left side of my chest. But I can't hear anything.

What is that? Why can't I hear my heartbeat? What is this? What is this blackness? Where am I? What has happened? Who am I?

It all starts with questions. In the world there must be questions before there are answers. Somehow I know how it is in the world, how it is to walk. I know a few faces and names, yet they are completely unknown to me. As if I've seen them but never met them, never spoken to them but somehow I know them.

I close my eyes and continue to imagine these faces.

There's a man with black hair. A boy with blond hair and red eyes. There's a boy with blue hair and glasses. There is a boy with a white side of hair and a red one. There's a girl with long green hair holding her hands like a T-Rex. And then there's a woman with big green eyes and hair looking straight at me somehow it seems like I know her a little better.

Her warm voice, her calling me angel, her laugh, the way she always strokes my hair when she's proud of me, the way she's always anxiously waiting for me, the way she loves to bake cinnamon rolls even though she doesn't have a sweet tooth just to see me happy. I reach out to her, but my hand grasps nothing

The banging around me gets louder and louder. This banging sounds familiar to me too - it's my heart.

It seems incredibly loud and full of life, but there is also something sad about it.

Suddenly it stops beating. It becomes silent around me. Just a few seconds. I can't even open my mouth and then I feel like my head has been pierced with a bullet and I remember everything again.

Mom that was my mom and I just wanted to leave her. There alone after everything she did. No no no no no no no no, I can't do that.

I open my eyes but now I'm no longer in this black nothingness but next to my dead body. Ochako is holding it and a few others are around me standing or on the ground. Iida is holding my wrist it seems as if he is searching in vain for a pulse.

All the students look incredibly battered and destroyed. I almost feel sorry for them.

Mrs. Tanaka: See? People miss you, you live in the hearts of others too.

Taro: You're not going to die in their hearts too.

Me: No, no, I don't want to die. But dead is dead.

I look over at the monster Aizawa-sensei seems to be struggling but he is fighting with a rage he doesn't seem as fragile as before. Other pro heroes have also arrived I can see. The blue guy laughs at them since supposedly this monster can not even be defeated by All Might.

Mrs. Tanaka: you still have two favours.

Me: I only have one, but I'm already dead

Mrs. Tanaka: You never asked me what you had to do to have my favore. Children have always meant everything to me and seeing my own child missing was hard for me. I wanted to feel again that I had done something meaningful for a child, that I had played a role in a child's life. And letting you live was that role. Wearing up your will to live after your „best friend" killed it