I won't give in. (Denis Shaforostov, Asking Alexandria)[NOT EDITED]

Denis POV (the previous night)-

I walked into the bar with the lads, ready to have a good time and relieve some stress that I had built up.

Sure I was excited about the baby. But it also threw me for a loop.

I had so many questions about my future that weren't present in my mind one week ago.

What was going to happen to my career? Would I have to quit touring? How do you even raise a kid?

I needed to get this out of my head tonight. It was all about me, just having fun.

The boys and I bought ten rounds of shots each and began to take them.

I felt my inhibitions slip away as I drank more and more, my thoughts clouding and my mouth running.

A girl tapped on my shoulder and sat down next to me in a booth.

"What's on your mind?" She asked seductively.

"A lot of things." I slurred.

"Well maybe I could help take your mind off of them." She purred.

"No- I have a girlfriend. And a baby." I paused. "I don't want a baby though, I don't want to be tied down. I'm a rockstar damn it! This is gonna ruin my career." I ranted drunkenly.

"Well it's a good thing for you that I can distract you from it for one night." She winked.

She looked a lot like Nova, just with shorter hair and less clothes.

Tonight was all about having fun right?

"What Nova doesn't know about won't hurt her." I said, the alcohol speaking for me, pulling the mysterious girl in for a kiss.

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Nova-

The next night as the boys went to their sound check I got ready for my dinner meeting with Rachel.

I was very concerned about what she had to show me, and I couldn't tell the guys that I was going to meet a stranger. They wouldn't allow me to go.

So once they left I got dressed, frowning at my appearance.

I had already started gaining weight and wasn't exactly happy about it.

I sighed, brushing out my hair and grabbing my phone and wallet, heading out of the venue to hail a cab.

I gave the driver the address and looked out the window as he drove.

He stopped at the tiny restaurant, and I paid him, I walked in to see a beautiful brunette girl with a small nose and large sweet looking eyes.

"Nova?" She asked.

I nodded.

"You must be Rachel." I smiled.

She hugged me and led me to the table she had been seated at.

"So what was this news that couldn't be delivered over the phone?" I asked.

"Uh.....I'll start with how I found you." She said awkwardly.

I could already tell that this was not going to be positive news.

"I uh....was on Twitter yesterday afternoon and came across a tweet from Denis."

"Yes, our pregnancy announcement." I smiled.

"I was at a bar a few nights ago, DJing a party, when Denis walked in. Denis and the rest of the band all took too many shots, then started partying."

"Okay? They do that every night."

"Well I happened to find this cell phone after the event." She said, pulling out a hot pink iPhone.

"What does this have to do with Denis?" I raised my eyebrow.

"I found this video." She frowned, handing me the phone and hitting play.

It showed Denis sitting in a booth with a woman in a slutty dress who was draped all over him.

"No- I have a girlfriend. And a baby." Denis paused. "I don't want a baby though, I don't want to be tied down. I'm a rockstar damn it! This is gonna ruin my career."

Was this how he felt about this?

"Well it's a good thing for you that I can distract you from it for one night." The girl winked.

Denis halted for a second.

My heart skipped a beat before his next words shattered it into a million pieces.

"What Nova doesn't know won't hurt her."

He pulled the girl into a kiss.

I couldn't watch any more.

Why hadn't any of the guys informed me about this?

"I'm so sorry Nova. I couldn't live with myself knowing that you didn't know what happened at that bar."

"T...thank you for telling me. I....I have to go." I said, rushing out of the restaurant without a look back.

I ran back to the bus, grabbing all of my things and shoving them into a suitcase.

I grabbed a pen and paper, sitting down to write my goodbye letter, writing the link to the video at the bottom of the page, grabbing my bags and leaving.

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Denis-

I finished the show with a smile.

Performing was great, but I missed having Nova standing front and center, watching me do what I loved the most.

The guys and I made our way back to the bus, and I immediately noticed the one absent person.

Nova.

Her things were all gone too.

I looked down at the table and began to freak out.

There was a note:

Denis,
First of all, do not try and come after me this time, I will never forgive you if you do. I'm leaving to take care of this baby, and to raise it where it is wanted. You finally let your true feelings out. My heart has never been more broken Denis. I loved you.
-Nova

There was a link at the bottom of the page.

A video from that night at the bar.

The events from that night began replaying in my head.

I was so drunk....so stupid.

What the hell was I going to do now?

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A/N: ......please don't kill me.