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"Boss, ayos ka lang ba?" Obviously concerned, Kuya Ynan checked up on me.

We just arrived at the building where 'our home' was situated. Sa kabuuan ng byahe ay nanatili lang akong tahimik — Lunod na lunod ako sa pinaghalong disappointment, tampo, lungkot at ng kung anu-ano pang negatibong pakiramdam.

"Opo, Kuya... Napagod lang po — Hindi na sanay sa work." I faked a laugh and put on a smile... Ngunit batid ko namang halata ni Kuyang nagpapanggap lang ako.

"Sige, Boss. Pero kung kailangan mo ng kausap, tawag ka lang..." Sinsero niyang paalala. Ever since, napaka-thoughtful talaga ni Kuya Ynan — He's like an older brother I never had. At sobrang grateful ako that we have a big bro we could rely on anytime.

"Thank you po, Kuya Ynan... But I'm really okay. I'll just call it an early night..." Ngumiti naman ako sa kanya nang taimtim — hoping my genuine gratitude would reach him.

"Walang anuman. Basta andito lang si Kuya ha?"

"Yes po Kuya, thank you... Salamat din po sa paghatid. Ingat po kayo sa pagda-drive..." Paalam ko kay Kuya Ynan bago tuluyang lumabas ng black van mula sa front passenger seat.

I was all over the place. Hindi ko na nga alam kung pa'no ko narating 'yung front door nitong penthouse unit sa aking harapan — I arrived at 'our home'. Though, mabigat pa rin 'yung pakiramdam ko. I just wish all these awful feelings would disappear once I finally get some good sleep.

I tapped the access card Miah got me on the sensor, so I could enter the door's pin — 050595. Hindi ko naiwasang bumuntong hininga. Medyo na-guilty ako sa nararamdaman ko ngayon.

I mean... Why was I feeling so down? My boyfriend had been nothing but the best boyfriend I could ask for ever since we got together... Kaya parang ang unfair lang na nagtatampo agad ako sa isang araw na nakaligtaan niya...

Pero kasi 1st Monthsary namin eh... It's quite a big deal, wasn't it? Hayyy. I dunno anymore...

Indisposed, I carefully made my way into 'our home'. As soon as the lights automatically turned on, I saw my ever loving and gorgeous boyfriend, Miah — He was standing at the end of the foyer along with Zero, his favorite acoustic guitar.

Time and time again, we found ourselves at each other's gaze — beguiled and smiling endearingly. Gaya ng dati, bumagal ang oras at animo'y may sarili kaming mundo. Wala akong ideya kung gaano katagal naming pinagmasdan ang isa't-isa.

At namalayan ko na nga lang ang kanyang pag-awit kasabay ng pagtugtog ng kanyang paboritong gitara.

It took
One look
And forever laid out in front of me

One smile
Then I died
Only to be revived by you

There I was
Thought I had everything figured out
Goes to show there's too much I know'
bout the way life plays out

As expected, I got teary-eyed. I was overwhelmed with mixed emotions. I felt bad for sulking. How could I forget that he loves surprises? Ilang beses na niya akong sinurpresa kaya bakit? Oh my gosh... This hella gorgeous of a man — Why did I even doubt him?

While singing and playing his guitar, he walked up until we're only a few steps away from each other. Utterly embarrassed and dumbfounded, I covered half of my face as I was wiping the tears off my cheeks.

I take one step away
And I find myself coming back
To you
My one and only
One and only you