Quickies

It's not hate,
But disgust,
Disgust,
I feel towards you,
Feel towards ever liking you,
Ever letting you be part of my life,
You never understood what it meant,
What it meant to me,
Did you,
But I understood it long ago,
That it meant nothing to you,
Every time I let you go,
Everytime time I forgave you,
Everytime I kept my disappointment at side,
For others,
For our friendship,
But still at the end,
You proved I was wrong,
Wrong to forgive you,
You showed you never deserved it,
Never deserved second chances,
Never deserved my forgiveness,
I was always their,
And you know it,
Their for your late night talks,
For your motivation,
For when you failed,
Even when I needed someone most,
I was their,
Solving your puzzle,
Even when,
My pieces was my lost,
My puzzle was jumbled,
I was there trying to help you,
Help you with that one piece,
I knew you weren't worth it,
That this was wrong,
Yet I let that go,
I came back,
Forgave you,
You didn't deserve it,
You never did,
But others wanted that,
But time and time you proved,
You proved,
You didn't deserve,
You scarred me,
Made me warry of friends,
To find someone like you,
You are the reason I hardly trust anyone,
The way you blamed me,
When I was the most hurt,
When I needed someone,
Yet you tried to pull victim card,
Garner sympathy,
You proved what kind of person you were,
Even strangers are better,
Even they console,
When you lose someone,
But you...,
You decided to take it as joke,
You made me regret,
For believing in you,
For beliving in us,
And still at the end of it all,
You blamed me,
I am glad you left,
You know what,
I don't want this disgust,
I don't want to even hate you,
In the long run,
I wish too forget you,
You went,
And am glad you did,
Because finally I am free,
Free from you,
I deserve better,
And this would be the last time,
I get frustrated over you,
Hurt over you,
And just before I end this,
I want to say,
I hope,
I really hope,
You find people exactly like you.