In his final year of university, Zack is weighed down by constant stress from his family, who pressure him for reasons he can't control. One night, in a moment of desperation, Zack stumbles upon a mysterious website that promises a way out.Trying it...
"Personally I think it's cute and perfectly fits your female persona!" Mackie said.
"Thanks I guess?"
"Do you mind if we start calling you Zoe in public then?" Rama asked.
"I.. I don't mind really.. it's not like it's gonna make a difference." I replied. They only smiled at me with an approving smile, almost as if telling me that this is good progress.
We entered the apartment at long last.
"Should I put the pizza in the oven immediately?" I asked as I was taking off my shoes.
"No, I reckon we change clothes first." Mackie suggested.
"I think so too" Rama agreed.
"Okay then, I'll go change quick and prepare while you girls prepare the movie." I said as I headed towards my room. "See you in a bit girls."
I entered my room and closed the door behind me. I put the perfumes and the diadorants on the bureau along with my toothbrush so that I remember to take it with me and put it in the bathroom. I put the bedsheets in one of the empty shelves in the same closet as the pajamas. I put the pajamas in the closet as well then wore my original blue ones. I stared at them for a moment then thought.
'I was wearing this back at home for a couple of days, so I think it's time for them to be washed already... I think I'll wear one of the new pajamas today...' and so I decided to wear the new yellow one and throw the one I was wearing in the laundry. I looked at my reflection in the mirror and reread the qoute on my pajama again. "Girls just wanna have fun". I sighed and wished that this was all just a big dream. I brushed my hair and reached one of the male perfumes to use then had a thought that interrupted me. 'since I'm staying as a girl with girls, why don't I put feminine perfume then, I'm already doing everything a girl does.' I stared at the perfume in my hand for a couple of seconds then put it back down and took the feminine one. I sprayed myself three times and returned it, but they were enough to make me feel more and more feminine.
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I looked at my reflection for a few moments. The more I stared the more the girl in the mirror seemed stronger. It was as if there was a fight between male me and female me inside myself. And when I'm with the girls female me seems to have the edge, which absolutely terrified me. I decided to brush this off and go to prepare dinner.
As soon as I reached the kitchen Mackie exited her room. But I was dazed within my own thoughts that I didn't notice her saying hi to me and entering the kitchen while I was putting the pizza on a dish to put in the oven.
"Ohh Zaaack! Zaaackieee! Zooooeeeeee!" Mackie was calling my name as she was coming closer to me. I had put the pizza in the oven and closed it's door and was turning around only to be surprised with her right at my face.
"Waaah! D-don't scare me like that!" I screamed as I almost stumbled to the ground.
"What do you mean, I've called your name like 10 times and you didn't respond. Is everything alright?" She asked.
"Ye-yes of course! Nothing's wrong!" I said.
She took two sniffs and said. "I smell you put on the feminine perfume, and you look adorable in your new pajamas!" She said while holding my hands.
"I do don't I.... Sigh..." I let out a sigh without noticing. "I don't think I'm fine you know... Soon I feel like I won't be me..."
"Hey you're gonna be alright. We're here to support you! And if you want us to stop calling you feminine things then it's fine! We'll do as you like!" She replied.
"No.... it's okay... You're only being honest... I'm just at a loss right now.." I sat down on a chair and rested my head on my hands, resting them on my knees. "No matter how you look at me I'm just a girl right now... And the more I think about it or try to change that the more it feels like I'm doing the opposite. Now I feel like I have two personalities. And the girl me is only getting stronger... Why do you think I wore the new pajamas and the feminine perfume? I myself don't know! It just happened! I just want this year to end so that I know what to do with myself.." I was on the verge of tears and was hardly fighting them.
Mackie sat besides me and rested my head on her shoulder and started patting it slowly. She said nothing, just sat there trying to comfort me with her presence, and it was working. I was slowly regaining my composure. I closed my eyes and emptied my mind of any thoughts.
"Hm? Is someth-" Rama was about to ask but it seems like Mackie asked her to stay quiet for now by gesturing to her.
"Thank you...." I opened my eyes after a few minutes, I was rather calm now. "And sorry for being this pathetic... Again..." I added.
"You're fine, and it's normal to be emotional, I can't imagine the rollercoaster of emotions that you're going through right now so you can always rely on us for support." Mackie replied.
I looked at the time and realized that it's been 15 minutes already since I put the pizza in the oven which meant it should be ready now.
"Thank you once again." I said with a smile. "Let me take the pizza out while you prepare the movie."
Mackie gave me a nod and went to the living room while I took the pizza out. I put it down on the table in the middle and went back to the kitchen to bring three dishes. I put a slice of pizza in each dish then gave one for Rama and one for Mackie who were sitting at the upper side of the L couch while I sat on the other side.
Rama had chosen a rom-com movie, not exactly the type of movies that I'd prefer to watch but still I can't remember the last time I watched one anyways so it was fine either way. As the movie went on I half lied down, and without noticing I fell asleep...
