Deadly insecurities

Why the fuck is this dude here!!!

I questioned no one in particular.

My mind raced and my heart couldn’t stop beating fast.

He was staring down at me.

Yeah…, I’m short and he’s tall as fuck

With dark hair and smooth skin which I want to touch badly.

His lips moved as if he was saying something but my mind was blank and I couldn’t hear shit.

All I wanted to do at that moment was kiss that soft pink lips.

And then it hit me.

I’m without my face mask and my long neck and disgusting face is clearly visible to him.

He hasn’t seen me without my face mask, I mean no one has, just my friends.

I quickly shut the door and ran upstairs in fright.

Urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Why is this happening?

He saw me, he fucking saw my disgusting face and stupid long neck.

I’m doomed, am so doomed.

I paced back and forth in my room for like two minutes and then i realized I shut the door at his face.

I quickly wore my nose mask and use a scarf around my neck as I ran downstairs.

I opened the front door and was surprised he was still there.

He was talking to someone on the phone and when he saw I opened the door he hung up and smiled at me.

Damn, his smile was good enough to wash all my insecurities and worries away.

“so…s…sorry I freaked out, was without my nose mask, don’t wanna scare you with my face”

I stuttered and I immediately reprimanded myself for saying that.

‘Stupid, stupid, so stupid'

“It is actually the first time am seeing you without nose mask”

His deep voice came and i melted right away.
He sound so sexy

‘snap out of it Amelia' my subconscious warned.

“Why are you here?” I asked

'fuck, why start with that, why can’t you just invite him in first' my subconscious snapped at me again.

“I was asked to give you this by the class representative, he said you volunteered for the cleaning service and I also did, I just came to give you this” he said as he handed over an envelope to me and I collected it.

“Thank you” I managed to voice out.

“I will leave now, bye” he said again as he turned to leave.

After walking a few steps he stopped and turned back

“You look better without the mask” he Said and continued walking.

I close the door in excitement as i relaxed on the couch.

'did he just complimented my bare face?’

‘he said I look better without the mask?’

'ahhhhhh, today can’t go wrong at all'

I ran to my room and looked at my self in the mirror

I removed the nose mask and scarf covering my face and sighed immediately.

'I preferred the nose mask on, now am faced with this annoying face

‘he just said that to make me feel better like my mom usually does'

'I couldn’t count the amount of money my parents wasted on seeing a skin doctor for this stupid skin of mine and all to no avail'

‘it would get better but after a while, it would come back way worse'

I sighed and slumped on my bed.

'sleep'

'that’s the only thing that can take away from my worries'

*

Woke up because of the loud noise coming from the next room

'my brother’s room'

Dude had to let everyone know that he was back

I stood up from my bed and walked straight to his room..

Banging the door hard so he would know how mad I am.

“Do you want to break my door ninja?” he yelled as he opened the door.

“You’re so loud, turn of that music, someone’s trying to sleep”

“Is that a reason to bang my door like that?” he complained.

“Turn of the music first”

We were both shouting cause the music was so loud.

He didn’t look like he would turn it off.

I had to force my way into the room and unplugged the speaker.

The whole house fell silent.

“Urgh much better” I said as I made to walk out.
I didn’t even walk half way and he already turned it on.

I groaned and looked at him

Anger evident in my eyes.

I angrily walked to my room and came back with a harmer

Smashing the speaker.

He held me as I struggle to smash it.

“Are you crazy?”

“let Me go”

“Do you know how much that stuff cost?”

“I don’t give a shit, Get your own stupid house and do what you want there”

I said as I rush towards the speaker to smash it ad he held me back.

“What’s happening here?”

My mom came in looking angry

“he started it”

“she started it”

We both said at the same time.

“no dinner for both of you”

“carlos, you’re the eldest and you behave like this towards your younger sister?” my mom reprimanded.

“but she…”

“I don’t want to hear it, Amelia, go to your room” my mom said

“And you, Clean this place up, never play loud music in my house again” my mom said to my brother and left.

I turned to my brother and stock my tongue out to him and ran into my room.

I could hear him groan and I smiled.

My Mom would always take my side.