It Will Never Be The Same Again (Before You Exit Fanfic)

Just to remind everyone that these are all under Mia's POV unless I state otherwise. Oh and if you see single letters like, J L or what, it's supposed to be a smiley face. As I type it on ms word they're all smiley emoticons but I guess here it becomes letters. So sorry for that! :)

OH AND I EDITED THE ENDING OF CHAPTER 7. Please check/read it so you won't miss out on anything. Thank you sooo much for reading :) (PS Sorry for the errors)

I can tell with the number of the notifications on my phone that Connor is really trying to reach out to me since the day he brought me to school. I myself, didn’t bother doing the same thing.

It has been 3 days since then and guess what today is? Yep, Prom.

I woke up way too early because of too much anxiety about what will happen tonight. Yesterday I had a general rehearsal with the band I’ll be performing with tonight but still, I didn’t feel happy about it. All I kept thinking of is what will happen to me tonight and what will happen to us after tonight.

I can say I’m starting to doubt whatever relationship I have with Connor since the night of the barbeque. The night where I thought everything will fall in place again. Well sometimes, you shouldn’t really expect. It’s true what others kept on saying, Don’t expect too much if you don’t want to get hurt.

Since that night I had a bunch of sleepless nights because I kept on over thinking again. But this time I think that I should already tell Connor what I feel just so he’ll know how it feels for me. I guess if I really want to make our relationship work, I have to make the first move to make it work because somehow I feel he won’t do the same.

One thought has been repeating in my mind these past few days as I think of how my relationship with Connor is going. If he really loves me, why didn’t he even make a move just so he can get out of this situation? If he really wants to make our relationship work, he should have at least tried to fight for it. 

It breaks my heart, knowing that I’ll probably lose him someday but I guess I really can’t control everything. If that is what’s supposed to happen with us, I guess I just have to accept that.

Because I really am tired of all of this. I keep on convincing myself that this will work, but I’m slowly giving up.

I plugged my ipod to my speakers and blasted the songs I’ll be singing tonight just so I can practice more. Even if I know I’ll regret doing this in the end, I still have to make my performance perfect. Besides, it’s my reputation that is going to be ruined if I fail tonight.

In case you’re wondering, I haven’t told anyone I’ll be performing tonight, only Ana and Mrs. Miran know. So I guess this will be like a surprise to everyone especially to the boys.

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Indeed time flies so fast. I already have Ana here with me so she can prepare with me for Prom tonight. We have 2 hours left to prepare and I guess it’s enough. We already had our baths, so I guess all that is left to do is to get our hair and makeup done.

I went dress shopping with Ana the day Mrs. Miran told me I’ll be performing and although I tried my best to buy just a simple dress, Ana disagreed. She got me this really beautiful white long gown with draping and silver linings. She even bought me a silver 4 inch heels which is really sparkly. I’m not used to wearing heels so hopefully I won’t trip tonight, that’s the only thing I’m wishing for.

I personally think this is too much knowing that I’m not really going to dance but Ana said that I’ll still be going to prom anyways so I still have to look beautiful.