Manipulated (Killua x Reader, Sequel to: The Split String of Fate) ~ On Hiatus

~Chapter 4: Leave Me Alone~

You slam the door to your room shut and press your back against it. You press your palm against your thumping heart and swallow as much air as you can with every breath, trying to steady your heartbeat. You press your head against the door and sigh. How, you longed to go back. To look into his blue eyes and be embraced by his strong arms. You hug yourself and slide down the door until you are seated on the floor of your room with your arms wrapped around you and your head buried in them. But why could you? Why couldn't you rush into his arms the moment you saw him? Why didn't you call back his name and run into the ring to him back in the Arena? Those are all things you would've done by now. But why didn't you.

Because you feel guilty. You can't face him after you killed all of those people.

Shut up! It was Illumi that killed all of those people! You hiss at the voice.

Oh, was it? Well none of them wouldn't have died if they weren't trying to protect you. The same fate awaits Killua if you continue to be near him.

Shut up!

You just keep killing you loved ones just by being near them. It'd be better off for everyone if you'd jsut leave.

"Ughhh!" You fall to your knees, run your hands through your hair and begin furiously tugging at it's roots. "Shut up! Shut UP!"

Suddenly, you hear a knock at your door, "Y/n? Is that you?"

"LEAVE ME ALONE!" You shout and charge under your bed sheets. You curl up into a ball and continue pulling at your hair.

You hear your door swing open and instantly you have your ben's knife unsheathed and pointed in between the eyebrows of the intruder. Your eyes slowly take in the glowing white hair and painfully familiar face before you. Killua stares at the blade you have pointing right at him and he gently grabs your wrist to get you to lower it and forces you to drop it.

"Nice way to greet your boyfriend." He says, kissing the back side of your hand. You instantly rip your had away and throw your blankets over you again.

"Go away!"

"I thought we planned to meet up after you finished up with stuff at your house?" He asks calmly.

"I said, go away! Just leave me alone!"

"What's wrong with you?' You hear his voice rise in irritation, "I know that was you in the arena and I know you say me! Then you just run out! Then just now, as soon as you saw Gon and I at Wing's you bolted! What's up with you!"

"Just leave me alone..."

"No I won't! I thought you'd run to greet me as soon as you saw me! I thought you'd at least be happy to see me!"

"Please!" You rip your blankets off and shout at him, "Just go!" You press your lips into a thing line and you try to force back the tears that threatened to break out of your eyes.

"I thought you missed me..." He says, his face reflecting the utter pain and sadness in his voice. Never have you ever seen him like this. Seeing him like that stabbed at you and made your heart plummet through the ground. The tears you tried to hard to hold back instantly start to escape your eyes.

"Just leave..." You manage to say, failing to stop the shaking from entering your voice and the tears from streaming down your face.

Killua's eyes widen in shock and he ignores your every word. "Y/n, what happened?" His hand gently caresses your cheek and you pull you lips into a tight line. He tried to wipe a tear off your cheek but you quickly whip your head to the side, forcing his hand to fall off your cheek.

"Please just go." You say, your hair falling over your face, forming a curtain to hid your face form Killua's worried eyes, "Leave me alone..." A deafening silence falls in between you. Growing longer and longer, pushing you both further apart, until a few minutes late you hear the click of the door shut.

Killua has left, finally leaving you alone. You instantly fall onto your bed into a broken mess, crying and screaming bloody murder into your pillow. Cursing, and wailing in indescribable pain. Everything was falling apart around you. Even you thoughts seems to stray from your mind, your actions having their own wills. You were going insane.

Killua's POV:

"Man!" I stuff my hands furiously into my pockets, "I don't get it! Why are girls so confusing!" I kick the wall angrily, leaving a dent. I continue to storm down the hall, cursing under my breath.

"Oh, Killua!" Gon calls, jogging up to me, "How did it go? Di you get to talk to her?"

"I don't get it with her!" I shout, "One minute she's agreeing to go out with me, over the moon happy, the next she wants nothing to do with me!"

"Don't tell me you broke up!" Gon shrieks.

"No, we didn't." I stuff my hands deep into my pockets, possible piercing through the steams, "At least I don't think we did..."

"Then what happened?"

"I don't know, but I'm going to find out."

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Okay, so I would've had this up maybe and hour ago, but when I posted the chapter a good half of it disappeared. Actually more than half got deleted. All gone! I was so mad...I guess, it could've been worse, the whole chapter could've been wiped. Still disappointing though... Anyways, hope you guys are enjoying!

~Callie