Almost Everything

Chapter 30

I started at my unopened messages from Alex. I finally clicked on them. They all pretty much said the same thing. Just to call him and let him know that I was safe. He was worried. But really I knew he was scared that I had gone back on my word and I hadn't finished things with Louis. I listened to the voice mail he had left me.

"Hey, it's me, I know you're not answering the phone right now. But I just want you to let me know you're safe. I just want to know you're not laying in ditch somewhere right now. I know the past 24 hours have been a whirlwind and you may be confused, or you've seen his face and realised that you've made a huge mistake. So I just wanted to let you know that I get it. All this time I just wanted to hear from you what you wanted. But I get that it's what you don't want. I get that you might not want this. You don't want this life. The uncertainty of it all. The long tours and late nights. The ridiculous parties and the whole lifestyle. I get it. And what I'm trying to say is don't throw away everything just for me. I love you too much for that. But if that's not it then call me, okay?" The sound of his voice sent shivers down my spine. That same voice still gave me butterflies every time I heard it. And that's when I knew. I knew I had made the correct decision in him. The correct decision in us. All I wanted right now was to be in his arms. He was all I needed and I just need to trust myself that I have made the correct decision. But I wanted to tell him this in person not over the phone. I decided it would be best, and I knew that he would be at the studio soon.

I quickly got up and jumped in the shower. I was running so late and I knew that this headache was here to stay, so when I got out the shower I took some painkillers. I quickly dried my hair with the blow dryer and put on some make. Chucked on the nearest white pencil skirt with a white shirt from the wardrobe. Upon closer inspection I noticed that the shirt belonged to Alex. It still faintly smelt like him. I chucked it on, grabbed my glasses from the bedside table. Rushing to the door I grabbed my bag and my coat. On the way to the studio I picked up some coffee and pastries just Alex does for me. I know that I still have to wait three weeks to be with him but that is nothing compared to the past two years I have waited for him.

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**ALEX'S P.O.V.**

I still hadn't hear from her and she left late afternoon yesterday. My only hope was to see her at the studio today. Although with the album coming out soon she's hardly there as she is always at meetings. I just needed to know if it was me or him. I don't even care about her decision I just wanted to know. To be put out of my misery. I hardly slept a wink last night. I tossed and turned all night. Checking my phone every ten minutes or so in case she had replied.

I woke up ridiculously early. I made myself a strong black coffee and sat drinking it in my garden whilst smoking my morning cigarette. My dressing wrapped tightly around me, my plain black slippers on my feet trying to keep them from getting cold. I felt like an old mad here in my pj's. I laughed to myself thinking about me with grey hair. Liv says I dress like and old man now so it wouldn't change my dress sense becoming old. It's killing me not knowing. I threw my fag stump on the floor and went back inside to get ready. I couldn't take it any longer I needed to know her decisions. I glanced at the clock on the wall it was 8:00 she would be on her way there by now. I went upstairs to get dresses and have a shower.

I got to the studio at 8:45. I went straight in no looking at anybody or anything but the floor. I walked straight into the studio and very much to my surprise I found a coffee cup and a pasty sitting on the desk. I looked around the room to find Olivia siting in my favourite chair in nothing but her shirt. Her skirt and shoes lay in a pile next to her. I stood there in complete shock, I couldn't speak, I couldn't move. I just stood there.

"Hi," she spoke softly, as if a wave of relief just washed over her. She almost whispered the word.

"Hi." I replied in a tone matching hers. We stood there for a moment taking it all in. In complete silence but it was type of silence that meant everything.

She was the first to break the silence. Her voice still made my heart skip a beat. She definitely is the one. She is the one I want to spend the rest of my life with. And I know it's going to take some time explain this big mess to everyone but it would be worth it. And I know it is going to take some time for her to completely trust me and let down her guard. But she was mine now. That's all that mattered.

"I'm sorry I didn't get back to you. But I didn't want to do this over the phone, I felt like this needed to be said face to face. I love you, and nothing and no one is going to change that. I don't care that your life style is unstable. You don't think I know that? God Alex I plan most of the parties you attend. And I know you're scared that one day I'm going to wake you up and tell you that I don't love you. But I'm not Alexa, I would never do that to you. I'm dating you for the fame like Arielle. I'm in this for me and you. Okay?" she stood up and walked over to me. Cupping my face with her hands. Brushing her lips slowly against mine. Our mouths moving in sync. She pulled back, and looked longingly mine. Our mouths moving in sync. She pulled back, and looked longingly into my eyes. "I love you, you know that right?" she stroked my cheek.

"I know, I love you too. I just, last night I thought I had lost you. I thought you choose him or were laying in a ditching somewhere. It was the most worrying 18 hours of my life. What I'm trying to say is never do that again to me because my heart can't take it."

"I promise never to do that to you again. Okay?" she spoke, her eyes never leaving mine.

"Okay." I said.

"I look into you big dreamy hazel eyes Alex and all I can see is my home. I look into you beautiful eyes and I see my future. I see our future. I've never seen myself so happy before in my entire life than I am with you. I promise never to let this love go. I promise never to doubt your love for me. And I promise to love you forever."

"I love you too. And now that we have established this we have about 25 minutes until the boys get her and I want to show you just how much I love you." I began to leave a trail of wet sloppy kisses down her neck and across her collar bone. Whilst my other hand worked from the bottom upwards on the button of her shirt.

"That sounds like a good idea" she whispered in my ear.

// Hi, so i'm really sorry it's been so long and that you've all probably given up on this story by now however hopefully you liked this update?? I still have loads planned for this fic and I PROMISE i am going to update more regualrly from now on!  This is kind of a filler chapter to remind everyone whats going on and stuff.  Please leave feedback!! I really want to know if I should carry on with this fic or not. I've missed you all! \\ <3 <3