There Are Worse Things I Could Do

  (Y/F/N) and Phil show up and Phil tells you that Olivia will be flying in from America so she can see you tomorrow. You don't speak much when they are here. You can only speak to Dan normally. You want to ask him about the first call that he had that sent you into this mess.

You keep trying to figure out how you're going to walk again. How you're going to move like you used to. You're officially broken.

  Phill and (Y/F/N) leave to go hit up the cafeteria downstairs. You're left alone with Dan on your bed. You need to ask him now.

"Dan, can I ask you something?"

"Yes you may."

"Who..were you talking to the day I kinda fell apart?"

He looks at you for a second. Then realisation flickers in his warm eyes.

"You..you heard that?"

You just nod.

"That was My sister. She is trying to help Christina get me back. I don't like Christina."

That explains why he said what he did. Love means multiple things. He said he loved The girl in the phone. Dan still loves me.

"Thank God because Dan, I love you so much." You say. You feel fear rise in your chest. He may not love you.

"I love you too (Y/N)." He says and kisses your cheek. He takes your hands and gives them a light squeeze. You two just lay there. You love the feeling of having your body against Dan's. You feel safe and loved. You never felt that before. You feel at peace.

After 30 minutes of laying in a comfortable silence the other two come upstairs and into your room. Phil is licking a lolly and (Y/F/N) is sipping at a bottle of water.

"How are you (Y/N)?" Phil asks.

You smile and say "All right."

Phil holds out the lolly to offer you a lick. You smile and shake your head. Just no Phil. You guys all hang out for a while but then visiting hours end. A nurse comes in to politely kick them out. Dan runs back and kisses you on the forehead. You don't want him to go but what can you do?

The nurse makes her way over and checks your vitals and fluids.

"You may be able to go in about 3 days." She states.

"What's wrong with me?" You ask. Emotion thick in your voice.

"You have severe body shock and trauma." She says.

"No, like mentally. Please try to talk to me as a person. Not a patient."

She sits in the chair Dan left. She pushes back the long red curls that frame her face.

"Well looking at your records, you were anorexic and you're body is reliving the trauma. Something must've happened to set your body off again." She says. "Were you eating normally?"

"About as normally as I get."

"Well, I don't know. I'm new at this." She states.

"Don't worry. You're doing just fine."

She smiles a bit.

"I'll let you rest (Y/N) I'll check on you tomorrow."

"Thanks---"

"Maggie"

"Thanks Maggie!"

Maggie leaves you in your room. It's a lot darker without the sun. It's just dark and depressing. You absolutely hate it. Now that your mind is awake again you just hate being here. Now you're aware of your place in life. You don't want to waste time in a hospital. You want to fly again.