There Are Worse Things I Could Do

Aidan's family flew into London for his funeral. You knew you wouldn't be able to go. It would be too much. Your relationship with Aidan was for you and only you. You didn't want Other people to know.

"(Y/N) I have an offer for you." Dan says coming into the window room.

You were looking out at London. Watching people live their lives without any losses. They were all all right.

"What's the offer, Dan?"

"We got invited to VidCon in Miami. I know it's a hard time for you right now but I thought you getting away from here would help."

You consider it. You could get away from here. You could get away from your ex that died.

"When do we leave?"

A smile curled on Dans lips.

"We leave next Sunday."

You get up off the floor and hug Dan. How did you get so lucky? You're dating Dan fucking Howell. You're going to VidCon with Dan and Phil. This is every teenage girls dream. Why couldn't you think like this when you fell apart?

You head downstairs and grab an orange. You were in a fruity mood. The only good thing is that you're not hysterical anymore.

With light thoughts you go and take a shower. You stripped down and hopped in. The song Car Radio was stuck in your head. You start humming along to it and soon started dancing in the shower. Light. Happiness. For once in a while you were happy. Why was that? You decided not to complain and go along with it.

You get out of the shower and put on a jumper and joggers and head to bed. That's when the downfall began.