Life In a Shell (UNEDITED)

It was the next day and I was set on my road to recovery, I kept my inspiration in my heart. My inspiration to get better and show those who hurt me...that I will be much better. I was was smiling for real, once in my life...I felt happy. After my whole life fell apart , I can now learn to love myself.

My phone then went off and I opened it. My bright smile soon faded to extreme hurt. It was screenshots from Alex's best friend Paul who I hadn't talked to in awhile. It was old screenshots of him talking to Alex a few weeks after he broke up with me.

C: What is this?

P: Screenshots after a few weeks you guys broke up, this asshole deserves to be exposed. Colin is a good friend of mine and I showed him too, he said he really wants to beat that shitface up

C:Thank you...

I read the screenshots the thing that caught my attention the most was one that also hurt me the most.

Screenshot:

P: Why did you break up with her?

A: She was always suicidal and stressed me out and shit

P: What's the and shit part exactly dude?

A: It was all pity. She was crying when she told me she liked me. I knew she had suicidal tendencies and I didn't want her to kill herself because I said no. I didn't love her.

P: You're a piece of shit...I hope karma gets to you because you are a fuckboy. I don't want to be friends with someone like you.

A: Fuck you bye shitter

P: Bye fucker

A: If you ever tell anyone this...I will not pity you

P: Stop texting me. You faked a relationship for a long ass time. Bye dumbass.

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I had a boyfriend but seeing this still hurt a lot. It almost scared me...what if Colin is only dating me because of pity? Yeah I'm sick but how could someone do that? Fake a whole relationship? I was going to the road of recovery and I felt like I was slowly going backwards. How could someone be that sick of a pig? Regardless of being in a relationship, that actually hurt a lot. I got a call from Colin

" Cally? Paul told me, I know hearing that would hurt you. I love you, stay strong." He said to me.

I stayed quiet and scared. With a shivering voice, I spoke.

" Are you pitying me?...I don't know who to trust anymore! I don't know what trust is anymore! I'm so confused! If you're dating me out of pity because you're scared of saying no because I am sick and have suicidal tendencies then tell me before I get anymore hurt! I can't trust anyone anymore!" I sobbed.

" Cally, I promise you , I am not like them. I won't ever do that to you. If you can't believe me then I will show you. Real love is shown through actions, fake love is all words. Cally, tell me who are the people who hurt you so badly that you feel the need to shut down and push away those who care about you? Who made you so scared of trusting people that you don't know how to trust. Who made you isolate yourself and build that wall up? Who did that? Tell me , who fucked you up so mentally and emotionally? Who fucked you up this badly that you're afraid of everything? Tell me who?" He said to me.

" Alexander Ross..." I replied with my hands shaking wildly as I held the phone.

" He did that to you. Now go find closure with him instead of holding all this hurt inside to the point where you don't know who or how to trust. Find him and confront him. I want you to do that." He said sternly. I thought for awhile and then replied.

" Okay.." I said

" I love you Cally, stay strong and remember, you mean a lot to me. " Colin said before getting off the phone with me.

I took deep breaths and took out my phone.

" Meet me behind the school alone...at 11...We're settling this once and for all." I texted him. I noticed he read it and never replied. I made my way to the park and saw him there.

" Ross"

"Rose"

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