Emotion and Color (Pdh x Reader) DISCONTINUED

Y/n= your name
F/c= favorite color
2f/c= second favorite color
H/c= hair color
E/c= eye color
H/l= hair length
F/s= favorite show

I will add more later

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Your Pov

I wake up at 5:30am. Great. I woke up super early. School doesn't start until 8:00. Ugh. Today is the first day of school. I am going to be a junior. I don't have any friends. Not because nobody talks to me. Well okay that is one of the reasons. The real reason is that I don't like to talk to people. I can't handle human contact because I am traumatized. My father's abuse left me scarred and traumatized. I know you think that because I am a loner I must suck at school. Well, I guess you are wrong. I get all A+ in my classes. I am in AP math, AP english, and AP science. People are always surprised to see me in those classes but I don't care.

   I get out of bed and start to get dressed. I put on a black t-shirt. Then I put on ripped gray  shorts and black leggings. Finally, I put on some gray converse high tops. I put on black and gray clothes because those are the only colors I can see since I am color blind. Nobody knows I am color blind exept the school security guard.

     Once I get dressed I brush my teeth and comb my hair. I put my   h/c  hair in some loose curls. I then put on my black hoodie and head downstairs. I don't eat at all because I have an eating disorder. Whenever I eat, I get dizzy and I start to vomit. Then I get very weak and have to be in bed for three days. I walk over to the f/c couch. Yes, I know I am color blind but my mom's friend helped me furnish this place so most things are f/c or 2f/c. I sit on the couch and start to watch f/s.

  When I look at my phone it's 7:00. I decide to start to head to school. I put on ear buds and start to listen to music. Then I grab my black backpack and walk out of my house. I am walking when suddenly one of my favorite songs comes up. I decide to sing along.

Hey girl
Open the walls
Play with your dolls
We'll be a perfect family

When you walk away
Is when we really play
You don't me hear when I say
Hey mom, please wake up
Dads with a slut
And you son is smoking cannibis

No one ever listens
This wallpaper glistens
Don't let them see what goes down in the kitchen

Places,places
Get in you places
Throw on your dress
And put on your doll faces

Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains

Picture, picture
Smile for the picture
Pose with your brother
Won't you be a good sister

Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtain

D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees

Hey girl
Look at my mom
She's got it going on
Ha, your blinded by her jewelry
When you turn your back
She pulls out a flask
And forgets his infidelity

Uh oh
She's coming to the attic
Plastic
Go back to being plastic
No one ever listens
This wallpaper glistens
One day they'll see what goes
down in the kitchen

Places, places
Get in your places
Throw on your dress
And put on your doll faces

Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains

Picture, picture
Smile for the picture
Pose with your brother
Won't you be a good sister

Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains

D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees
D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees

Hey girl
Hey girl
Open the walls
Play with your dolls
We'll be a perfect family

Places, places
Get in you places
Throw on your dress
And put on your doll faces

Everyone thinks that we're perfect Please don'tlet them look through the curtains

Picture, picture
Smile for the picture
Pose with your brother
Won't you be a good sister

Everyone thinks that we're perfect
Please don't let them look through the curtains

D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees

D-O-L-L-H-O-U-S-E
I see things that nobody else sees

When I finish singing I hear clapping. I turn around and I see a short girl I met in a summer course. Her name is Aphmau. She has black hair. She told me that she has amber eyes and tan skin. She is always trying to talk to me but I ignore her or just say short sentences once in a while.

"Wow. You sing really great. You should do it more often. Your voice is really pretty," she compliments. I, however, am unfazed by her compliment. I keep on a straight face while she is smiling.

"Thanks," is all I say as I continue to walk.

    I finally make it to school. There I am greeted by Jim. He is the security guard at school and the only person I talk to. He is the only person who knows I am color blind. I didn't tell him I can't feel pain and that I don't have emotions because he would freak.

"Hey there Jim. How's it going?"

"Well, no one has said hi or has tried to violate the uniform code, so I guess it's been great. So, are you excited to be back in school y/n?"

"As excited as I can get on a Monday morning. But I'm happy to go back to the music club." I lied. I don't have emotions so I don't feel happiness or excitement. I am not happy to go to the music club but it is the only thing that I like. I like to sing. It makes me less sad and less angry about my family issues.

Jim is about to respond when the bell rings. I say bye to Jim and then I head to my homeroom. Here's my schedule:

Homeroom- room 203  
1-  AP English room 124
2- Gym/ Sword Fighting
3- AP Math room 453      
4- AP Science room 324  
5- History room 382        
LUNCH                              
6- Free period                 
7- Club/ Free period        

Yup, my last two classes are free period. Technically 7th period is music club but oh well. As I enter my homeroom I talk to the teacher about not telling anyone about me getting good grades. The teacher, Ms. Green, agrees once I tell her that the students will bully me and that teachers are supposed to respect a students privacy. Once I speak with her a pick a seat in the back of the class next to the window. Nobody sits next to me or in front of me. I'm guessing they have seen me in Gym or in sword fighting class. I am the top student in that class but I don't like it because now people are scared of me. Eh, at least they don't bother me. During the rest of class I just listen to music on my phone and look out the window.

Today is going to be just like every single school day: TERRIBLY BORING