The ( ?° ?? ?°) Book 2

Welp

Another "dear" thing

But now with some hatred -_-
jk-

Ofc,
Love comes first-

Uhm-

Here I go-

Dear dead big brother,

Uhm.. what is your name...?
I.. I never got a chance to even know your name-
I wish I did. I bet it's really cool.
I do know the initials- it's "J.R." or smth
J.R.. huh... hm....
John
Jake
Joel
Jermaine
J.. idek
Roel...
Ricky
Ralf
Romeo
Ron
R.. idek either ;w;

So uh...
Since big bro- ya kno- you're big bro too... uhmm.... he's 19 and mommy said that you're a year or a year and a half younger than him...

So you're either 17 or 18 huh? :3
But I ain't sure-
I dunno when your bday is ;-;

Hhhhhhh
I bet you'll be soooo tall!
I bet you'll teach me basketball!
I bet you'll also teach me volleyball!
I bet we could play my fav sport together- soccer ftw!!!--
But then
You're... dead.

You.. never got a chance to see Earth........
Y...You... died when you're still in mommy's womb huh........

I-I wish you're alive- I'd even give my life to you if I can-
I want you to see the world-
I want to see how cute or handsome you are-
I want to see your smile-
I want to hear you laugh-
Or just-
Even just your name... your age...
That's okay with me...

If you're alive... maybe you'd watch Vocaloid with me? ;w;
Maybe you'd teach me how to draw properly? ;;w;;
Maybe you could save me from them back then? ;;;-;;;
Maybe... just maybe...
I could go to school with you-
Maybe even hold my hand tight when we cross the road-
Or even watch yaoi or hentai with meh ;;;;w;;;;

Maybe you could be my dream brother-?
Maybe????
Maybeeeee?????

Some of the times I wish- even pray for you to be alive-
But no...
That's... that's... impossible..

Oh! I bet you'll get dem gurls too like big bro!! Big bro got like 20 girls- and he's slightly a jerk in reality X3 (or maybe a lot--)

I wonder how tall you'd be-
I wonder how your voice sounds like-
I wonder if I could play games with you-
I wonder if you'd hug me tight when I need it-
I wonder if you could fill out some empty spot in my heart or smth ;w;

Yet...
I'm so sorry...
I'm so so so sorry for u-using...
Ah...
I can't say it.....

You're in heaven now right-?
I bet the angels are smiling of how adoooooorable you areeeeeee
Or maybe even pass out-?

Maybe even rp with me and teach me how to English?? XD
Or kaya Tagalog rin men??? XDXD wala pa rin akong gets sa Filipino help---
ORRR you might be the English-speaking one?!?!??! :O

Idk
Idk
Idk

All of these impossible thoughts make me wonder and wish even further--

Maybe you'd be the best out of us four-? ;w;
The best illustrator-?
The spokesperson-?
The English-expert?
The mathimatician???
The actual Filipino? XDXD
The most athletic????
Or maybe...
The deliquent!?!? The ultra bad boy?!?!?

Omg these thoughts tho- XD

Big brooo
Notice me? Can you see me crying over you here in Earth-? ;w;

Oh yeah...
You never got to chance to even learn the alphabet... um....
Uh....
How should I comunicate with you-?

*does those cult movement thingy- jk*

When is your bday tho??
I want to know so badlyyyyyyyy
I'd always buy some cake for you if I know-
What do you want?
Vanilla?
Chocolate?
Strawberry?
Cherry?
Blueberry?
Coffee????
Idek???
I'd even sing happy birthday just for you ;w;

This makes me sound so desperate- a very desperate creep XDDD

I don't know what to say-

Um..
I uh...

Um...

Even though I never got a chance to meet you-

I know,
That I-
I love you :)

I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you-

I wish you can hear it-
I wish I can tell you everything I want to say...

Even just for a minute-
I want to see you-
I want to hear you-
I want to touch your hands and grip them tightly-
I want to hug you-

Even just once,
I wish I can-

I'll treasure that moment- I'll make sure I'll never ever forget it...

I love you big brother,
Stay awesome in heaven-
I may or may not see you there but-
I know you're safe with God's hands :)

I love you and I- I love you- ^^
No need to love me back, all I need is to give these words to you... :)

I love you, my dear non-existent-anymore big brother <3

Love, your only sister,
Joice