The New Beginning (Sequel to Split H.S.)

Eli and I were sitting on the couch together and I heard my phones notification go off a couple times. I didn't bother answering it. A few minutes later I heard some more. "I'll be right back" I said getting up to grab my phone. I opened it, and it was Twitter notifications and a bunch of more hate. I closed my eyes holding back some tears, even though a few slipped. Die. Whore. Slut. Eli doesn't love you. He cheats on you. Just die, no one would care. I feel bad for your family.
I choked on a sob. I started crying. I ran upstairs, and closed the bathroom door, locking it, I leaned against it falling to the floor. "Why am I here"? I said crying to myself. I grabbed my razor, and broke it to get the blade. I held it in my hand, just staring at it. There was a knock at the door, and I quickly sliced the blade against my wrist. More, more. More and more.

I had so many. Old scars, and now new. "Maddie"? Eli asked. "Maddie are you in here"? He asked again. I choked on another sob, "Maddie open the door"! He yelled.

ELIJAH

I picked up my phone and called her parents telling them to get over here quickly. They need to get Alaina out of here. Luckily they only live 5 minutes away. "Elijah"! I heard Harry yell from downstairs, he came running up while Alyssa got Alaina. "I can't get the door opened". I said crying. "Madeline! Open the door"! Harry yelled. "Stop! Leave me alone"! She yelled. "Maddie please open the door"! I cried out to her. Alyssa took Alaina to my moms and hurried back here to try and help. Harry finally got the door open, and I rushed in. I stopped when I saw her, Passed out on the floor. "No, no, no Maddie?!?! Wake up, Maddie please"! I screamed. Harry came in and picked her up, and we brought her to my car getting in and taking her to the hospital. I sat in the back with her, trying to get her to wake up but it wasn't working. We made it to the hospital in about 4 minutes. It seemed like forever, but we went rushing in and they got her on a bed and into emergency surgery. As we waited, all I got were flashbacks of her and I together. I remember one time when we were dating in high school, she didn't understand her math assignment so I helped her. She always hated math, and trigonometry was horrible for her.

I remember that was her first assignment. (This is actually my math assignment 😭😬 I hate trigonometry) Luckily for her I was good at math, and I helped her do all of the assignments she had, and she was really good at science, I was okay at it but..

Every now and then I would flip back to reality and just worry about how she might not make it. But she needs too- "Mr. & Mrs. Styles, and Mr. Gibson... I am here to inform you Madeline is doing well, and the baby is okay". He said, I heard her mom and dad gasp. We didn't tell them yet.. I forgot. The doctor went back to doing his job & I explained everything to her parents. They understood. I told them I just found out today about the baby. We were allowed to go inside her room, "Eli, go on in. We'll give you some time alone with her". They said to me. I nodded and hugged them. I walked in and saw her sleeping peacefully, IV's plugged in her arms. I sat down next to her in a chair, and grabbed a hold of her hand. I felt a tear slip down my cheek and I wiped it away. Madeline opened her eyes, she looked at me. The first thing she said was "I'm sorry". I shook my head, "no don't be sorry, I saw the hate messages. Please don't believe them". She nodded her head, I leaned over and gave her a kiss on her forehead, then her cheek, then her lips. "I love you". I said walking out of her room. Her parents went in next and I leaned my head against the wall asking myself why over and over. Why did she do this to herself, why did she not want to be here anymore.

*** MADELINE
Today I was let out of the hospital. My wrists bandaged. My hand wrapped firmly in Eli's. Only a few days ago I attempted to kill myself, but Eli came in and found me. I was on the edge of dying. I nearly bled to death - hell Thats what I wanted to happen, but Eli didn't want to let me go that easily. I could only guess what happened next. But when I woke up, I was in a hospital bed. I felt so weak.

I went through the last few checkups and right afterwards I found myself in Eli's car. He sat in the driver and I in the passenger seat. The ride was so quiet it was diving me mad. I didn't know how he felt - was he sad, angry, or disappointed? Maybe all of those. I didn't know. But I could tell he wasn't acting like his normal self. His eyes were tired, his face had a depressing look upon it. It broke me, because I knew I was the cause of his state. I felt like the worst person in the world for making him this way. But I couldn't take back what just happened.

"I'm sorry" I whispered, my voice barely audible over the car engine. My bottom lip trembling. I didn't know what to say or do, I was confused.

"Eli please say something" I pleaded, but he just kept his eyes in the road. The silence didn't last to long as he parked the car in our driveway. We both entered the house, and Eli sat down on the sofa and broke down. Burying his face in his hands. His shoulders shook ever so slightly, but I knew he was crying.
"Maddie, what have I got to say"? He said looking up at me. His lips were trembling more than mine, and his cheeks stained with single tears slowly making their way down his face. "My fiancé, she, she just tried to kill herself, and nearly succeeded. I nearly lost her. What else can I say Madeline. I can't simply forget about it, it's not that easy".
"I'm sorry"I responded, my own tears falling out if my eyes at a rapid pace. My voice was shaky and he only thing I needed was to be close to him. So I walked Over to him and hugged him. So tight. And he did the same. He hugged me so tight as if he wanted to show me how he never wanted me to leave. To die.
"You don't need to be sorry, this is not your fault. It's just that I could have been there. I could've prevented it. But I didn't. And god you nearly died. When I saw you passed out when we got the door open I thought I lost you. I-I" he sobbed speaking right next to my ear where I could hear his rapid breaths. His tears were falling on my shoulder. "You may think it would have been easy for me to Move On, to forget everything we've had, but... I don't know what you expected but trust me, this is just as hard for me as it is for you". He whispered pulling away, once again burying his face in his hands. His fingers tightly gripped his hair, as his shoulders shook. "Just the thought of not being able to see you, talk to you, and not hold you close is heart breaking enough. I don't know what you thought but I can't live without you Maddie. I really cant".
"Eli stop please" I spoke as my own tears were falling uncontrollably now. I never wanted to make Eli feel this way. Knowing I was the source of his pain, it made me feel so guilty. I gently took his head in my hands and slowly wiped the tears away with my thumbs. I moved my head close to his, our lips practically touching. "Eli I'm not going anywhere. I'm here please stop" I trailed off as well as moving his hand to my stomach. "I know you aren't but you could be gone... I-I just" he cried before sobs started to interrupt him again. He just hugged me tighter, making sure I wasn't leaving him. "I'm sorry Eli I really am. I never thought it'd be this hard, and I'm such and idio-" "don't you ever dare say that. You're not an idiot. You simply didn't know, and you had the right to. But please I'm begging, don't ever try something like that agin. Understood"? He whispered as he stared at me with a sincere gaze. I slowly nodded my head and a sigh of relief escaped his mouth "promise" I answered kiss I his lips. And I became all I needed to make it. He put his hand back on my stomach, he smiled as he knew we were having another baby.