Does He Know (Book1.BWWM)

Lunch finally came and I sat at a table near a window by myself. I saw Tyler start to make his way over to me with his arm candy but I quickly got up and began walking out the double door in front of the school and made my way to the nearest bus stop and sat there.I can't wait until these feelings disappear. There is no way we can be together so I need to just get him off my mind; but I can't. I sigh as I get on the bus an take a seat far in the back. I arrived home after staying on the bus for 20minutes . I walked upstairs an saw my mom in my room. I almost shrieked when I saw her.

"Mom what are you doing in my room?!"

"Oh honey I was just thinking that when the baby comes you guys could share your room"

This can't be happening. I wanted to scream at the top my lungs at her but instead I looked at her an said "Where would I be staying when I come home to visit from college?"

"The couch is always available honey" she said as she walked out of my room.

I hate living here with her. Ever since Jeremy came back from school she's been treating me like shit as if it was my fault. I can't believe she suggested the couch like wtf. I put in my headphones and blast music and pull out my journal; but before I can start writing I hear a knock on my window. I get up to see what it was and see Tyler just gawking at me with care in his eyes. I had locked my window because I didn't need any surprise guest in my room. I reached to unlock the window, but then I remembered I'm mad at him so I rolled my eyes , closed the curtains back, and then plopped back on my bed. He started knocking really hard so I got back up and opened the window slowly. He jumped right in.

"What's been up with you Jada?"

"Nothing Tyler now what do you want? Why are you even here?"

"I came by to check on my best friend and to see why she's been ignoring me and being a bitch?"

I gasped an yelled "GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY ROOM AND HOUSE!"

He looked at me and started to say something but I started pushing him until he was in the hallway. I slammed the door right in his face, then closed an locked my window back. I'm so over him,his bullshit, and these feelings. Fuck him.

"Fine then I'll leave but not forever. I'll just wait until you calm down. I'm sorry for what I said lady Jay I hope you forgive me."

I never will is what I said in my head. I wish he would understand how I actually felt but after what he said there's no way I'm ever talking to him again. I walked to the window an saw him walking across the street to his house. "I love you asshole and you'll never know." I said out loud to myself. I went an took a shower an then I got in my bed an wrote all night.

My alarm went off but I didn't even care, because it's not like I wasn't already up anyway. I got out of bed and headed for the bathroom. Today should be fun I thought to myself as I looked in the mirror. My eyes were bloodshot red and puffy from crying all night. "Guess we gotta fake it just like any other day huh jay?." I said to my reflection. I brushed my teeth and put my hair in a bun.I went back into my room and got dressed an headed out the door.