It's been a year since that day. A year since he disappeared; a year since he had been abruptly taken from me. I hope that no one ever has to go through with this type of experience. Of course I'm lying to myself if I say that I'm the only one going through a difficult time like this right now. Lots of people have or are. Although, not always do the disappeared and kidnapped return. That's what I'm afraid of. Yami never being able to return to me. Yami never being able to meet Hana and watch her her grow up. Yami never being in our lives again.
The morning of that day is still so fresh in my mind. Hana hadn't been born yet. She was still nestled inside me all those months ago. I am happy that at least he was there for most of the pregnancy. It was right up around the end that this tragedy happened. Yami had said that he was going out for a walk and that he'd be back soon. Yet sadly, that didn't happen. He was never able to make it back.
To keep myself occupied as much as possible, I've been playing with Hana. She's grown up so much in these last few months. Eventually, it'll be her first birthday. She's growing up and changing so fast. I don't know how much more I can take. Especially with, you know. Hana's finally got more hair on her head. It's turning black like the middle color of Yami and I's tri-colored hair. Her eyes are a bright amethyst like mine. She has Yami's nose and mouth. I'm happy that she looks like both of us at the same time.
I lie on the bed watching Hana wiggle and make baby noises in her bed. She's just too cute. I really do wish he could see this right now. I think back to my last birthday and then the time I found out that it's possible for guys to get pregnant, but like I was told it's very rare of course.
Just when I thought that everyone had given their gift to me, Yami had handed me that card. After that, everything between us changed. I blush at the memory of my body breaking beneath his. We got lucky that we didn't have to explain ourselves in the morning. The feel of his skin and touch. The way each touch felt. It felt so good. I miss it. I miss the warmth of his body radiating off of him and wrapping me up in a blanket of happiness. I smile at the random thoughts of that night floating around in my head. I forcibly try to fight the heartbreak. I don't want my daughter, our baby girl to have to see me like this. My eyes are kind of starting to sting.
The stinging of the tears grow stronger as the next memory unfolds in my broken mind. A few weeks before I found out about Hana, I had no idea what was going on with me. I never thought that my being sick meant that I was pregnant. I went to the doctor's office and most likely freaked out the doctors there before they awkwardly told me what was wrong with me. At that time, Yami was still with me. He hardly left my side during that time. He held my hand and comforted me the majority of the whole doctor visit.
I can't fight the tears anymore. I needed to let it out. The pain of needing and missing him. Through my blurred vision, I saw Hana staring up at me. I wonder what she's thinking. She looks upset as I know that she's watching every tear that falls from my crystal colored eyes. Sometimes I wonder if she knows what's going on or if she's just worried and curious like any other baby. I hate feeling like this. I don't like her having to see me like this. I try to be brave and strong for her sake. I need to be and I need to be for Yami and myself.
A/N: Hey guys, sorry it's been so long since I last updated. I've been pretty busy and haven't really been reading any of you guys awesome stories. That's how busy I've been. If I'm not busy, I've been doing things that I needed to do when I was busy doing something else. I'm sure some of you by now have noticed that I 'updated' chapter four. I didn't really update anything, but while I was rereading chapter four for reference for this chapter, I noticed some grammar and spelling errors and a few sentences I should have added so I fixed it. I may go back and check the first two chapters as well. No major changes were made so there's no need to really go back and check it out, but you're more than welcome to if you want. Anyways, can't wait to start the next chapter. Wanting to do an update spree this weekend, but I make no promises. I have a birthday party to deal with on sunday.
Me- So, it's really been a year huh?
Yugi- Yeah..
Yugi tries to muster a smile, but his heart isn't in it.
Me- I know Yugi, I miss him too.
I wrap an arm around Yugi's shoulder and lean my head against him, trying to comfort him the best I can, but of course it's not the same.
Yugi- I hope we can find and rescue him soon. Hana's growing up before my eyes and he's unable to see it.
I feel his head lean against mine, allowing me to attempt to console him.
Me- Don't worry Yugi, we're doing everything we can to find Yami and the others and as fast as we can.
Yugi nods in understanding.
Yugi- I know and thank you so much.
He takes a deep breath and sighs.
Me- Anything you'd like to say before we sign off so I can go and write the next chapter?
I ask Yugi.
Yugi- Yami, please, if you can hear me, just know that wherever you are Hana and I love you very much. Sometimes she even looks for you knowing that you're the one she used to feel when she was still inside me.
I start to tear up at the beautiful words that came out of his mouth.
Me- That was beautiful Yugi and I'm sure he knows. Well, that looks like that's all we have time for right now.
A small smile forms and he nods his head in thanks.
Yugi- Don't forget to comment and vote.
Yugi says in a small voice.
Yugi and me- Bye.
