ForthBeam - What is this??

It was already past three pm when we walked into the hotel room. By now I'd already been billed for one more night. I silently stuffed the books I had lying around into my backpack. While I was at the table making sure I had packed all the books I brought to the room, she walked up behind me and hugged me.

"You're quiet. How come you're not trying anything?" Her hot breath caressed my neck as she spoke.

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How come I'm not trying anything? Since I run into her, I haven't done any of the things I used to fantasize about doing with her, all I've done is flirt with her a little. Even my decision to bring her to the room was so I could get it on with her and yet I wasn't taking any action. And she's willing, I love a willing woman.

"Ai'Beam, you've been chasing me for a while, but you seem off today. Did you lose interest in me?"

"I'm only worried that you might be doing this because of your recent break up. Won't you regret it later?" I don't care about any of that stuff. I used to do it with women without regard for the reason they're doing it, as long as I don't force them. It felt like a part of me was trying to avoid doing it with her.

I sucked in a sharp breath when she run her hands over my stomach and slowly moved them up to my chest. When she run her hands back down and reached for my belt buckle, any doubt I'd had flew out the window.

I turned to her and kissed her full-on on her lips. They tasted like steak, nothing special.

"Would you like to take a shower first?" I asked after I'd pulled away from her.

I changed into a bathrobe while I waited for her to get out of the shower. I jumped on her immediately she stepped out.

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A loud and insistent banging on the door pulled me out of my thoughts. I hadn't called for room service, and even if I did, would they be this unprofessional?

I got off the bed where I was sitting, still in the bathrobe and threw open the door with a frown. Forth stormed in. What the...

"What the fuck are you doing here?" I asked, surprised.

He pushed me against the wall. With his hands on either side of my head, he trapped me between him and the wall.

"What the fuck are you doing, huh? Bringing a girl to a hotel." His face was red with anger, I could see the veins on his neck popping.

"What does it matter to you whether I bring a girl to a hotel or not?"

"What does it matter? After everything that's happened between us, you ask me this?"

"Nothing has happened between us. We're not dating, and I've said I don't want to date you, so cut the crap."

"If you'd never planned on dating me, you shouldn't have accepted my kindness. You shouldn't let me kiss you or hug you. You shouldn't have come on to me a second time knowing exactly how I feel about you. Are you taking my feelings for you for granted?"

"I don't care about your feelings, and now you know. You're in my way, so leave." 

I was being deliberately hurtful. After spending time with a woman I'd had a crush on for nearly a year and not only feeling nothing at all for her but experiencing the most embarrassing moment in my life to date, I'd started to believe that it was possible for the heart to change quite easily. I'd started to believe that Forth, who had been into N'Yo for only a few weeks, might really be over him. The feeling of hope that thought gave me, upset me. I couldn't look him in the eyes.