Aftermath

How are you supposed to go on, when the one person you love most in the world, leaves?
A million thoughts going through my head at once.

She was everything I had, only one who cared about me, In a split second everything changed.

I have this pain in my chest that I can't explain, everything hurts but I feel numb at the same time. I don't know how to explain any of this, I don't even know how this is real.

I didn't even get to say goodbye, would she be proud of me? Does she blame me? Is she okay?

All I could do is sit and cry, I let my thoughts take over, which probably wasn't a good idea but I couldn't help it.

I didn't want to be around anyone but I wanted someone to hold me and say everything would be okay. No, I want Aunt May to be here and say everything is okay. But she's not, she never will be.

I sat up and brought my knees to my chest, rocking back and forth, bringing my hands to the back of my head. All I wanted to do was get away, away from life, away from this situation, away from this pain.

Everything happens for a reason right? Well, what's the reason behind this? For me to be alone? For me to blame myself?

Who's fault is it? Is it mine? Is it hers? It's got to be mine right? Because I was selfish enough to stay Spiderman because I needed to prove myself to someone who doesn't even care.

My head fell to my pillow and I slowly fell asleep, shaking and having nightmares.

I woke up early and decided to go into the kitchen, getting a glass of water. I sighed when I turned around to see Tony.