Things that I would like to say to you but I can't

And just like all lovers and sad people, I am a poet. 

Oh, I want to be happy. 
But I don't think I know how, not anymore. 
You said you'd always be there.
I am both happy and sad at the same time, and I am still figuring out how that could be. 

Every time I look at you,  I look at you and it hurts. 
Watched my final sunrise, and enjoyed my last cigarette.

"We accept the love we think we deserve."

No one cares how I feel. 

When you grow up, your heart dies.
There's just so much pain. 
And surely, we'll do it all again. 
I am just another nothing. 
It's hard to look back and see the truth about people you love. 

Thank you for reminding me that I am not special. 
Everything just got worse. 
Did you even know that I am depressed?
I think about dying every single day. 

And you have no reason to be mad at me, because initially you broke my heart. 

When you love someone, it hurts.
I feel like I'm completely unwanted. 

And apparently, the world is not a wish-granting factory. 
I feel like screaming because I don't have anyone to talk to, not a single soul. 
I don't know, I'm sad. 

It's when we have the most to say that we cannot speak. 

You never know that last time that you'll be able to see a place, a person, or even your own self. 
I feel like if I died, no one would even notice.

Hey, I'm fine. I don't want to sound like a sore loser. 

All that we'll ever need is love.

But, I'm just so sad and tired.
Do you ever feel like you're invisible? 
I was born lonely, I guess? 
I don't even know where I belong. 

I never deserved to be truly happy. 
The pain is only gonna get worse. 
Hope is a dangerous thing. 

I get it, you'll be okay, you'll be fine, but what about me? 
Don't even act that you care about me. 

Being depressed is so tiring.
But I'm trying to live somehow.