The Myth that Became Real

My stomach was churning horribly, bad enough I felt like I could hear it making sounds and I was sweating profusely. Was this normal to feel this way?

Bailey sat beside me rubbing my back while I sat crouched with my head down between my legs as I tried to take steady, even breaths.

Why does this have to hit me now a day before the ceremony? That was honestly probably why it was happening now. Good thing it was today and not tomorrow.

"Don't think about it," Bailey said gently trying to soothe me. Key emphasis on try.

I laughed somewhere between bitter and hysterically. "Don't think about it? How can I not think about it? Any minute now Mia could come charging in through that door and I'll have no choice but to think about it. It's all I've been thinking about for the last week for goodness sakes!" When I wasn't worried about what was happening on earth of course but it was still in the back of my mind.

"We can keep her out?" Bailey suggested.

I rolled my eyes as another bitter laughed escaped me. "There's no point. She needs to be here when she needs me for some thing or another."

"Okay, do you want me to get Liam?" Bailey asked obviously very worried about my mental state at the moment.

"No," I stated. I was keeping my feelings about this from him. I didn't want him worrying about how I feel when there were many more important things to worry about. I sniffled and wiped my eyes, not realizing I was crying until that moment.

"What can I do?" Bailey asked seemingly out of options.

"You're doing just fine," I answered, "I just...."

When I didn't continue slowly slowly coaxed it out cautiously. "What?"

"It's just that... i know this is something I should just get over but I always imagined a small wedding whenever I got married, not something so large and becoming an actual queen. Nor did I imagine being so young.... And I always imagined my parents being there. I really wanted dad to give me away." There, now my deepest desires were now revealed and a wave of fresh tears descended.

"Oh Skylar," Bailey cried and wrapped her arms around me fiercely, "that's not something you should feel like you need to get over. Never think that. It's understandable and no one would ever think poorly of you for wanting that."

My shoulders shook and I leaned my head against her shoulder. "I know but I'm suppose to be strong. How can I appear strong if I am not?"

"Are you kidding me?" Bailey said incredulous. "You are one of the strongest people I know and I don't mean just physically. The way you talk to people to make them feel better when the world has gone to shit, the way you work harder just to improve for yourself, the way you handled your parents death, the way you take in more responsibility with grace even when you can't handle any more work. Most people would have cracked but not you."

I moved away from Bailey and argued, "but..."

She cut me off, "no buts. You have been through so much and you have only become stronger. You shouldn't have the weight of the world on your shoulders at only eighteen but you do and you are doing a mighty fine job at it. Nobody else could do a better job than you."

I was speechless, what could I say? So I sniffled while I absorbed everything Bailey told me. Honestly, it was exactly what I needed to hear but that didn't stop me from wishing some parts could be different.

"You're parents would be so proud if they could see you now. They wished the world for you. Besides," she added teasingly, "every girl wants to be a princess when they are younger but you, you get to be a queen." I couldn't help but crack a smile at that. When it came to it, Bailey always knew what to say. I felt much better about the whole situation but now I just felt anxious because tomorrow I would be standing in front of everyone, pledging myself to Liam forever, which I have already done anyways, it's just more official now, and being crowned queen of our rapidly growing nation. I mean I don't mind, it was just a lot of eyes.

"But there's going to be so many people," I whispered just imagining it. Way more than the blood ceremony.

Knowing yet again just what to say, Bailey answered, "just focus on Liam. If you do that, everything will be fine. He'll give you the strength you need if you feel too overwhelmed."

"But I thought you said I was the strongest person you knew?" I couldn't help but tease. Honestly, it was a great opening I couldn't not use.

Bailey rolled her eyes but laughed, "yes, but mates give us strength when we feel like we don't have any."

"I know," I smiled lightly, "I'm just messing with you." I knew it was the truth, I have felt it before, but I didn't always want to rely on Liam, I needed to rely on myself.

"But I am serious you know," she said giving me a look that matched her words.

"I know."

We sat there in silence for a few moments before I finally said, "but my age. I never thought I would be getting married at eighteen. I mean I never had a boyfriend before. I thought it wouldn't be till my mid to late twenties when I actually got married. Is this natural?"

"Oh, it's very natural in our world to get married so young, not so much in the human world but of course there are humans who do get married young. Most of the stories you hear however of people getting married young are either people from our world or humans who have found their mates with us. Granted this may not be normal for you because you weren't raised like the rest of us but it truly is normal. Does that help at all? And I know we can't do anything about the size of the ceremony, we'll just have to make it the best it can be."

"It does, thank you." It was great to know I wasn't doing anything out of character and it was all normal. There will still so many things I had to learn though and become use to. I don't know how I'll ever be able to do it.

But I was feeling better, I no longer had the urge to throw up, just a couple normal butterflies. Sure everything that was happening didn't go with how I envisioned my future but it was better than I could ever dream of, you know, once you take away all the negative parts that is.

"Feeling better?" Bailey asked.

I nodded, "much."

"Good, now let's finish up some last minute things that shouldn't take long and then we can blow some steam off in the training yard, what do you say!"

"I say that is the best thing I have heard all day." And it was. I have really grown to love training now and even looked forward to it whenever there was time. It was a great way to release all my energy and I really needed that now.

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Yay! Another chapter! What do you think? It's hard to find time to write these days and when I do, I usually can't come up with something which is hard. Anyways, I hope you like this chapter!

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