The 5 Year Surprise

Chapter 42: Grieving
November 3
Astrid POV:
It had been 2 days since my moms passing, and I was a mess. I stunk from not taking a shower in 4 days, my hair was in a really bad messy bun, I was wearing sweats and a sweatshirt, and the bed in front of me was scattered with tissues.
I sniffled and wiped my tears with a tissue then threw it on me and Hiccups bed again. He was going to be back soon from his dentist appointment with Freya. I stayed here with Blake but he had been sleeping peacefully in his cradle at the end of our bed, even through my horrific cries.
I then heard loud chattering enter the house, knowing the two other members of my family have returned. The door opened and Hiccup tilted his head and sighed. He walked over to me and I looked the other way. He kneeled down and rubbed my cheek, in lots of comfort.
I sniffled and quickly wiped away my fallen tears, but I didn't stop crying. I then began to wail, and Hiccup stood up. "Astrid." He says and climbed over me. He flopped down on his pillow, and wrapped his arm around me. I immediately moved into his arms, and rested my head on his chest, hearing his fast heartbeat.
He rubbed my back, and I cried and cried. "Astrid, take some deep breaths. You will be ok," Hiccup says, and I was thinking 'I'm not gonna be ok Hiccup! I'm gonna die!' He continues to shush me, and rubbed my back. "I'm here Astrid, you will be fine." He says again and he put his other arm around me. I'm gonna die.
"Hiccup I'm not gonna be fine! I'm gonna freaking die!" I hollered and he was taken aback. He then gently pushed me off of him and go off the bed. He looked at me. "Astrid your not going to die. I've lost people too! And guess what? I'm still here!" Hiccup says sternly. I suddenly felt bad, of course I was grieving, but I don't want to die.
"I'm sorry, I just miss my mom." I say and he sighed. "Yea? And I miss my dad too." He says. I wiped away my tears and Hiccup pushed my head into his chest. He rubbed his hands up and down my back.
"And got probably think your going to die because you haven't taken a shower in 4 days, stinky!" Hiccup chuckled and I laughed through my cries, forcing a smile. I smiled and wiped my water works from my face. I rubbed away my nose. Hiccup broke apart from me and laughed.
"My shirt!" He shrieks, looking at the puddles of water on his shirt, and I snickered. "Sorry," I whimpered and rubbed my eyes. He sighed and put his hands on his hips. "See? You won't die. Unless you don't take a shower, then I will kill you!" Hiccup pretends to growl, and I laughed. He then attacked me and we fell onto the bed. He threw the pillow at my face, and I grabbed it and watched him again. He then tackled me again, but this time tickled my stomach.
"Ok ok!" I laughed and pushed him off me. I grabbed the fallen pillow and threw it at his face, and he groaned. Then I went to take a shower, somehow he makes me always see the best in me.
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*5 hours later*
Astrid POV:
I fiddled with the picture I was holding 2 days ago when I first came back home. It was one of me and my moms best memories. Looking at the picture made me feel better about the good times, but also reminded me of the bad.
*FLASHBACK*

Sats at 100.
Sats at 90.
"Mom! Mom!" I said and shook her legs.
Sats at 80.
Sats at 70.
Sats at 60.
"Mom! Mom! Fight!" Brandon said and clenched onto his mother tighter.
Sats at 50.
Sats dropped to 20.
Sats gone.
"NO!" I say and my mouth opened with drool spooling. A loud moan of tears came out of my mouth as I let my head fall on her bed, right before her legs. I folded mg arms beneath me and cried. She was gone.
*FLASHBACK ENDS*
I shivered and slammed the picture back down on my end table of my bed and let me tears run down my face. Hiccup emerged from the room after kissing Freya goodnight and crawled in beside me. He opened his arms, bare chested so he was extremely warm. I cuddled onto my fiancé and rubbed his side.
"Tell me about her," Hiccup says and played with my hair. I nodded and gasped. "Well where to begin? She's been my mom since I was 13. She was more than a mom to me than what my mom was after my dad died. I never told you that when we dated. She was there with me throughout my changes in puberty, to school, to my sports, to first boyfriends, everything Hiccup. She was my go-to person and my best friend besides Brandon and Heather. She was there when I have birth to Freya and at my wedding. Gods hiccup you would have loved her," I sniffed, and Stormfly hopped onto me and Hiccups bed. She twirled around and layed in between my legs. "Hey girl." I say and rubbed her back.
"Hmm. She sounds amazing." Hiccup says and kissed my forehead. I nodded and hiccup wiped away my tears. "Hiccup?" I say. "Hmm?" He answers and wiped away my bangs. "I still haven't told Freya." I explain and he sighed. "Can you go get her?" I ask and he nodded and got out of bed. I stood up and sat at the end of my bed.
Freya appears in Hiccups arms, still sleepy. She yawned and hiccup dropped her down in front of me. "Yes mommy?" She asks and rubbed her right she, holding her stuffed lamb, Lambie.
"Freya I have something to tell you sweet pea." I explain and she looked at me with those hazel eyes she got from her father, which he got from Brooke. I shook my head and wiped my tears.
"It's Grandma sweet pea." I say and she widened her eyes. She saw my tears and she knew. "No!" She screamed and backed away from me. "Freya...." I say and reached out for my daughter. "Tell me it's not true mommy! Tell me I haven't lost another family!" She yelled and began to cry. I just looked down and let my tears fall, and I huffed.
I looked up at my daughter and saw her eyes widen. She dropped her bunny and ran to her room. I looked at Hiccup, and he had tears forming. Seeing Freya say her words broke my heart. "I'll go-" "No! I've got her." I say and walked to my daughters room.
I opened her door and knocked on the wall. I saw my daughter crying underneath her covers of blankets. The sheets were moving up and down from my daughters cries. My mom and her had a close bond. I walked over to Freya's bed and sat down. I lifted off her covers and saw my daughter turned towards the wall, ignoring me and still crying.
"Freya.." I croak out my tears. I managed to say those words before my daughter turned around but didn't make any eye contact with me. I couldn't take it anymore. I scooped up my daughter as she struggled, and wrapped my arms around her. She layed her head into my chest and she wailed very loudly. Hiccup came in and watched us through the door. He came over and sat on the bed. He rubbed Freyas back and wrapped his arms around me.
"We're gonna be ok Freya." I say and she sniffed.
"We're gonna be just fine."