Acceptance - Yoonmin

Neither Yoongi nor Jimin had spoken about the kiss since it happened and it was just something both silently choose to avoid.

Jimin wanted to say something but he didn't want to address the stuff that came with saying it and Yoongi didn't want to ruin things with Jimin or make him uncomfortable.

It was safe to say after the kiss both were pretty confused.

Yoongi was confused as to whether or not Jimin liked guys or not and Jimin was confused as to why he couldn't just move on from the past and just accept him.

Yoongi was willing to wait but Jimin just wanted closure; he wanted to know why he'd been treated the way he was for a rumour, why the bullying was so bad, why it mattered anyways, why it was such a taboo and why it resulted in him being hurt so bad.

Any thoughts going back to the kiss with Yoongi pained Jimin and lead him to have flash backs to all the names and the countless times he'd been hurt because people assumed he was gay.

It's start with a feeling of butterflies and end in a state near a panic attack and he hated it.

He wanted to experience the good alone but he couldn't because of the associations mentally to it.

He wanted closure but he didn't know how he could get it.

Jimin has felt trapped in the house when he was left on his own so he went out to get some air and went to the shopping centre to kill some time since nobody was due home until late.

Yoongi and Jungkook were both out having some brother bonding time which Jimin basically forced them too do without him and Junghyu and Yui were both at work so he planned on being home before all of them.

When he got to the centre he went around some shops aimlessly, ignoring all the dirty looks he was getting and ended up winding up in a shop with a giant rainbow flag in the window which he didn't clock until he rent inside.

He internally face palmed because he basically just fed the rumours going around but since he was there he decided he may as well look around and see if he can get anything to annoy Jungkook and Yoongi.

He ended up on the back of the shop where he found the flags and grabbed the ones labeled gay and pan, contemplating getting one for Jin but decided not to knowing his family would just bin it.

Jimin carried on wondering around the store and slowly but surely had a bunch of random stuff which he grabbed because it made him giggle and then the next thing he knew he was at the till paying, giggling to himself and not clocking the person behind the till until they coughed catching Jimin's attention.

And the cliche became real.

His worse nightmare was stood right there before him in the flesh.

Choi.

Junyeon.

Jimin's face immediately dropped and he quickly became pale as his chest tightened and his whole world felt like it was crumbling around him.

He'd managed to avoid him for years even though they were at the same places constantly and now here he was buying a bunch of pride stuff... from the store... he worked in...

"Park Jimin... it's... it's been a while..." the taller Male said as he rubbed the back of his neck nervously.

Jimin just looked at him with a blank face.

He wanted to leave but he'd spent a good amount of time picking out the best things he could find in the store like matching bow ties for all seven friends rainbow suspenders (as well as a bunch of stuff he knew Hoseok would love to borrow when he visited considering Yoongi literally said he made him wear harnesses when they used to preform so I'm sure you can guess what he got.)

So he just looked down and pulled his money out of his wallet and placed it on the counter.

Junyeon hesitated for a minute before finishing scanning the items, trying his best to make small talk.

"About a few months ago-"

Jimin didn't even give him a chance to explain or say anything else, he just said "It doesn't matter. I don't particularly care what you or anyone else thinks. So can you please hurry up so I can get away from you." Shutting down the conversation or at least thinking he did.

But knowing that if he wasn't short, quick and snappy in what he said next that he'd be blanked completely Junyeon blurted "I'm GaY aNd I oNlY eVeR pIcKeD oN yOu BeCaUsE i LiKeD yOu AnD wErE jEaLoUs At HoW sTrOnG yOu ArE."

Jimin just looked up at him with a blank face which honestly scared the taller boy but what scared him more was the coldness in Jimin's tone as he said "What?"

Junyeon quickly tried to compose himself even though he was terrified but explained again in more detail hoping it'd do something, anything.

"When we first met I thought you were really cute and then I had the thought why can't boys like boys like boys like girls and I told my dad and got a load of insults thrown at me so when it came out that Hoseok was gay and that you were accepting him everyone started saying it's because you liked him and I got jealous so I joined in when people started picking on you hoping you'd stop liking Hoseok and like me instead, which I know doesn't make sense but at the one it did and I know it's not forgivable but it happened. I know you won't be able to forgive me after all the names, the p-punches and k-kicking and t-threats but I needed you to know that the reason was because I liked you and not because being gay is bad even though that's what's always been drilled into my head. And no matter what the people at church say in god is supposed to be omnibenevolent which means he's all loving which means it's okay to be gay. And I know this probably fixes nothing but I just needed to tell you that it all came from some faked up space and for you to know that I'm truest sorry even if you don't believe or forgive me because I can't forgive myself and I hope all this made sense because I'm just throwing out words scared that you'll snap because to be honest I deserve it because I'm a dick for treating you how I did and I don't want symphony because I know you've probably been through worse but you always still managed to smile and that's the part of you I feel in love with and I'm happy for you and Yoongi or whatever his name was. He'll be able to protect you and keep you safe and keep that smile on your face which you deserve. I hope one day we can talk this through as men but right now I'm still a child learning but I'm proud of you Jimin and I'm sorry and ooh my god I need to breath."

Jimin blinked twice trying to process the words before mumbling saying "I was gonna say you looked a little purple but you seemed so carried away..." before looking at him again and sighing.

"First of all, most people you hang with are dicks. Second of all good job for coming out, some people are too scared to do that. You may have been a dick and Be a bigger person now but I just can't forgive you because what you and everyone else did was fucked up. I know all that god stuff and to be honest I lost my faith after everything that happened but who knows I might find it again some day just not anytime soon. You need a new way to express jealousy and your feelings. Congrats on your job. And your not forgiven but I hope you have a more accepted experience than I've had and I hope you find people more than a fraction of as great as my friends are because they'll get you threw it all. And your still making assumptions after all this time. You need to stop. There's nothing with me and Yoongi and was nothing with me and Hobi. And to be honest I'm feeling quiet numb right now so if you'll excuse me, I'd like my receipt and to go home and cry."

And like that he was back home in his and Yoongi's bed crying his poor little heart out with his smol tired brain fried and missing the one person who needed most in that moment.

"Y-Y-Yoongi hyung~"