Typical [L.P. + N.H. + A.I.]

7.2 - Trial and Error - Help

'Sometimes, a person can get too overwhelmed or too confused. Lost. And it just paralyses them. There's just, too much to feel, to think about, too much to consider, too much to fix. And sometimes, you can't see a way out. But you can't really accept staying still and do nothing. And then, you end up turning around the same point, over and over again. And it just drives you crazy...'

I quickly grab my phone open up the notes and start writing. The thing in songwriting, it's very tricky. Sometimes, you know what you want to write about. You already have your story. But sometimes, inspiration comes from nowhere. A simple idea, a word, an image. I'm listening to her speak, and I can imagine a dark room, with a person in it, trying to find his way out, frustrated, tired, sometimes motivated, but most of the time in vain. Paired with the right lyrics and melody, this might be an interesting music video. A metaphor, in the form of a video. The verses should be slow to picture the desperation and how close to giving up that person is. The chorus could be a bit faster, symbolising the will and the motivation of that person to get out of this situation. 

'Niall! Are you even listening to me! I'm trying to help you here! Who are you texting!'

'What? No, sorry, just writing down an idea.'

I get up, grab my guitar and sit in front of the piano.

'Get a chair and come sit over here.'

I wait till she's next to me and then I start playing random chords. A few hours later, together, we got a good first draft of an amazing song. I can't wait to go back to the studio and work on it more with Julian.

'I think that's enough for today. Wanna go grab a cup of coffee?'

'Umm...' She stands up, take her phone from the sofa, 'Yeah I still have a 2 hours before I need to go.'

'Right, date night with Ashton!'

'How do you know?'

'You didn't mute your phone when you were talking to him.'

'Right!'

Jess' POV

After getting our coffees, we walk around the streets of West Hollywood.

'So you're leaving soon, right?' He sighs.

'Yeah, I can't stay here. My home is in London. As much as I enjoy being here with Ash... I'd rather be in London. It was nice here the first two weeks but then everything started falling apart. I felt like the ground is going to open up and swallow me.'

'You just had a rough week. It happens. But now everything is better no? You're not still fighting with Ashton, are you?'

'No! Not at all! It's been great lately! Which makes leaving even harder.'

'Then stay!'

'Niall... I can't!'

'Why not? Everyone's here! Your boyfriend, me...'

'Well, come back to London.'

'I will, but now I have to be here.'

'Why?'

'Work stuff...'

'Can't you just work from London?'

'It's complicated.'

'Okay... Well... I'm going to miss you!'

He holds my hand, intertwining our fingers together before he brought it up to his lips, leaving a gentle peck before letting it go.

'I'll miss you too. It sucks because I feel like we didn't get enough time together. We've lost so much, and now when we're finally back in a good place, where we're best friends. You're leaving. And I just don't get why.'

'I don't want my life to be defined by the people in it. People leave. I decided to live in London, so I'm gonna live by that until there's nothing left for me in London.'

'Okay. Will I see you again before you leave?' He asks.

'I'm not sure, I'm gonna try, but it's not guaranteed.'

'Okay, well in case this is the last time I see you in a while.'

He walks away, finishing his cup of coffee and throwing it in the bin. Then walks back to where I'm waiting, and asks for a hug. Of course not gonna refuse a hug from Niall. I hate not knowing when's the next time I see him. I hate having to leave him, and Ash. But I honestly need to go back to London. I'm gonna miss these Horan Hugs.

After what seemed like an eternity, we finally, reluctantly, let go of each other.

'I gotta go now, Niall...'

'Yeah, I know. Enjoy your date with Ashton.'

'Are you going to be okay?'

'Yeah, I'll just keep working on this song. And hopefully, it'll get me out of my rut. And if not well I guess you're gonna have to keep your phone close, cause I'm gonna be calling. A LOT!'

'It's okay! That's what best friends are for!' I chuckle.

'You know, I really am sorry for all the bad stuff that I caused. And I know I said there's no such thing between us... but... Thank you! For forgiving me and giving me another chance.'

'I don't like holding grudges. Besides, despite what you did, you're a really good guy and a good friend. You're worth the chonce.'

'You're not gonna stop with that are you?'

'Never in a million years!'

'Just go!' He laughs.

'Bye Niall! Love ya!'

I walk away, and fast, because Oh My God! That just slipped out! Unintentionally. I'm sure it doesn't mean anything, he's just my friend. Yes. Okay, I'm officially running late for my date with Ashton, just perfect!